Of Music and Madness
Description
“Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart. I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously, without any sort of goodbye, without looking back even once. That pain is like an axe that chops at my heart.”
- The Life Of Pi
I had dug so deep,
Tried to build a castle fit for both us.
But I never noticed, I was the only one digging,
I, myself was the only who fell into it.
-the_sphinx-
For my family who gave my rest and comfort.
For my friends who gave me joy.
For the Lord Almighty who gave me life.
Foreword
“What?”
“At the time I could reincarnate into something, I wish I could be the cloud.” He said nonchalantly.
Our conversation still lingers on my mind. Still bothers me. Still makes me tremble. At first I didn’t know the real reason why he left. Brusquely, without any further notice. But as the hands of the clock moved, as the minutes turned to hours, to weeks, to months, my eyes seemed to open themselves, to the truth that I have been resisting to admit.
Clouds, you thought they’ll always follow you. They always move towards your direction. They tail you. But once you don’t notice them anymore, they will go to another direction. You won’t be able to see the cloud following you anymore. They had disappeared before your very eyes. That’s when you realize clouds just go by the direction of the wind. They are transitory. Controlling them does not involve us. Not even you. Not even me.
My mind struck into a part of my memory of him. His deep, round eyes gazing through your soul. His thin, perfectly formed lips expressing his timid spirit. His reflective voice whispering sweet nothings. I knew him very well. We had been acquaintances for a few years. I think. I had known his existence for quite some time. Or maybe not. Maybe it was just an illusion, a trick that I have absorbed so much I can’t take it off my system anymore.
He had left me with nothing. Nothing at all. I don’t even feel my heart beat, he stole it. All of this time, I have been a living dead.
Hi!
This story is so random.
-the_sphinx-
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