I woke up the next morning only to find him packing his clothes. He would leave me again. He was a colonel in the army. Yesterday he got a call from army. There was a war again with North Korea for I forgot, maybe for hundreds time. 

“How’s your sleep babe?” He smiled at me.

I rubbed my eyes sleepily. “I have nightmare last night. What time is it?”

He came to me and gave me my morning kiss. “It’s still too early, you can go back to sleep.” He rubbed my cheek gently.

“I will make breakfast for you. What time you will go?” I tried to get up from bed and he helped me with lift me up.

“It’s 7 o’clock.” Suddenly he hugged me and resting his head on my shoulder.

“Yul, wait for me, it’s only short war.”

“How do you know that?”

“Once they signature they treaty, the war will stop.”

“I will always waiting for you Oppa, no matter how long it needs.” He title up his head and gaze lovingly at me.

“I know that Yul. I just. . . . I just don’t want you feel that I’m always leaving you. If you ask me to retire from Army, I will do that Yul.”

“No you won’t, because I don’t want you to do that.” I pecked his lips.

“What you want for breakfast Oppa?”

“I will eat anything you cook for me. Just make sure you also make a coffee for me.”

“Okay.” I rushed to the kitchen and start to make a breakfast. Yunho was easy about food. He would never protest about anything that I served for him.

How much I had tried to take it easy, it would never been easy. Last time, he left me for 6 month because of the war.  I mostly spent my time on the church when he left. Pray to God so he will come back to me, so that nothing bad happens to him.

“I’ve call mom. You can stay with her if you want.” He entered kitchen and looked fascinating in his uniform.

“It’s okay Oppa, I want to stay at home, besides I don’t want to bother her. But I will come to check her condition. How about Jessica?” I put the fried eggs along with the toasted sausages on the table.

“She’ll be home next month. She will bring her boyfriend from London.”

“They will get married? , , here your coffee.” I handed him the coffee.

“Thanks. I don’t know. But I hope he will be the last.” He took a sip on his coffee. “I will definitely miss your coffee Yul.” I raised my eyebrows.

“Just only my coffee?”

He put the cup on the table. “No, actually I will miss your hands because they can make such a delicious coffee.” Then he grabbed both of my hand.

“Just only my hands?” I creased my eyebrows deeper. Finally he sneaked his arm on my waist and pulled me closer.

“No, I will miss you, everything about you Yul.”

This was it. When he started to talk about it, I can’t hold my tears any longer. I hugged him, put my head on his chest, and listened to his heart beat. I wish this moment will stay forever. My tears started to fall, wetting his uniform. He seems didn’t mind because he tighten the hug. He rubbed my back and whispered smoothing words to me.

“Promise me Oppa, you will come back to me.”

“I promise. You’re they only reason I will survive in the war Yul. . . . . . . . . . .  . .I’ve decided that it will be my last war. Changmin offering me job in his company. You don’t mind right?”

“Why you didn’t tell me before?” I break the hug and stare at him.

“Actually I want to tell you when I come back from the war, but I can’t hide anything from you. He was offering the job for me yesterday after I got the call.”

I gave him my sweet smile. “It’s up to you Oppa, but I will always support anything that you do., Now we’ve better eat the food before its cold.”

We eat our breakfast in silent. Both lost in their own thought. Once we finish, I immediately wash the dishes and he back to our room to get his things. We were sat on the couch when suddenly we heard sound of the bus. He stood and carried the bag outside. Our hand clasped together. He stopped in the yard and turned to face me. I could tell that all the soldiers in the bus were watching us.

“I have to go now. I’ll try to call you more often.” My tears started to fall again and it was make my vision blur. He wiped the tears in my cheek and leaned in to kiss me. I didn’t care that all the soldiers still watching us. I’m certain that most of them also went through this. I hoped that I was not our last kiss. I smile at him. He started to walk toward the bus and unfold our hand.

“Be careful Oppa.” That was the only thing that I could say. I watched him walking up to the bus. His eyes were still looking at me.

“Can we leave now, captain?” It was the driver.

“Yes, Donghae.”

He stayed still at the bus door, looking at me, even when the bus started to move away until it disappears in the bend.