He was always at the night club at night, sitting alone with his drink, drinking like it was no one's business. He was feeling so dazed, even if he wasn't drinking.

He was in the apartment, alone, in the day, staying at the couch where Youngjae used to sleep.

He  would be hugging the yellow pillow tightly, as he tried to sleep on the couch.

He wasn't happy, heck, he was suffering, as he tried desperately to get the feelings that he bottled up inside out. He couldn't, but could only wait, as he cried his heart out, still clinging on to Youngjae's pillow.

"Youngjae..."Daehyun whispered, as he looked at the television screen blankly, imagining that there was Youngjae there.

"You... leave me, and I tried hard, so hard to forget you, but I couldn't."

"Why is that? Why am I missing you, why am I reminded of you?!"Daehyun threw the pillow away, crying out more.He then picked   the pillow back, hugging it tightly as he closed his eye,trying to sleep.

"Why do you leave me, when I am loving you?"