YOOK SUNGJAE POV

I turned around as i cover my ears with my pillow. Once again, my parents fighting about our economic issues.
Why they always make this as a problem? Oh wait let me correct it, why MY FATHER always make this as a problem? 
He’s jobless but he spend umma money on gambling. 

What a jerk! I will never do that to my wife in the future. I’m humming some song to make me relax while i
 still can hear they screaming but suddenly i heard a crashed. My eyes widen as i look at my door.

I stand up and open the door quietly to hear more voices. But all i heared is a cricket outside.
When i went downstairs , i could see a blood stain on the edge of the stairs. Oh my God! What the hell happen?

“Umma?” i looked around while whispering umma name

I slowly walked  to the living room expecting umma will be there but no, there’s no one there. I
 grab my baseball stick behind the sofa in our living room, i always hide it there in case of something happen.
I walked slowly to the kitchen as the baseball stick is in my arms and i hold it tightly. As i enter the kitchen ....
i will never believe what i see

“Umma!” i throw my baseball stick away and runs to her lifeless body, i see blood around her and a gun beside her.
 What did my father do!

“Umma! Wake up please, wake up!” i shake her body for a minute then i see her open her eyes slowly. 
See give me the warmest smiles i ever see and touch my cheek

“Sungjae..”

“Umma.. why appa do this to you ?” i looked at her in horror while i cant hold my tears anymore cause i know i will lose her..
sooner or later

“Sungjae..please promise to keep this” she takes out a paper from her pocket and give it to me 
*a house contract?* i though as i look at her again .” Your appa try to sell our house..promise me 
you wont give this to him and promise me to keep smiling..what ever happen in your life”

“I promise you umma..i promise” i said sniffled while my umma use her thumb wiping my tears. 
“Dont cry my son, as long as you keep our promise ..I’ll be happy” She smiled for the last time 
as i see her took her last breath. I hold her tight in my arms as i cry the loudest that night.

Umma once told me that when i was born im not crying ,the first time umma carry me in her arms 
and smiles at me she said i smiled back at her
.And she knew that time she was blessed to have such a brave son like me. Smiling facing the new world.

“I promised... i will still keep my smile no matter what happen umma.. i promise” as i look in to her eyes for
 the last time and close that eyes.

AUDITION DAY

I wake up hearing a honk from a trash truck. Slowly i get up from my bed and walked towards the window
 see the trash truck driver yells at me

“Pay time!” he shouted as he show his not-so-good teeth

I nodded and open my windows. Since i’m living alone so i dont have many trash and
 i can still pay it using the money from my work in Pizza delivery.I take a paper airplane i made last night
 and slip a envelope with money in it , then i fly it to the trash truck driver.He grab it and laugh

“you always in time and using a unique style boy!” he laugh again as he put the envelope in his pocket. 
This ahjussi is the closest friends with my umma and he taking care of my school since my mom died
 and my father.. i dont know where he is now and i dont care.

“Ahjussi, want some apple ? “ i said as i show him the apple, he shook his head with a smile.

“Thanks son but im full already! Hey did you will join the audition i told you?”I look to my table beside the window.
I take the audition paper carefully and read it once again.I want to change my life and i hate working on
 that pizza restaurant. The boss is really cocky and he always give me a small payment.

When i was 13 i sang in front of my mom and she said that maybe my voice can be the source 
of me to survive in the future and im gonna try it now.I looked out side again and nods to ahjussi

“Neh ahjussi~ wish me luck today” as i smiled at him and he put his fist in the air and imitating a girl voice 
“Fighting oppaaa~!” Ahjussi and i laughed as well after that he say a goodbye to continue his works.
 I closed my window and sigh

“Umma..wish me luck” i said that as i kissed the necklace that umma gave me.

I walked to the kitchen and grab a bottle of milk from the fridge. Ahjussi help me with c
hanging the kitchen floor but that horrific night is still in memory. I check my phone and
 i see one message. I plopped down on the couch as i open the message

‘Good luck son!if you failed i guess you can work with me every morning hahaha’

I chuckled as i see ahjussi messages.Why dont he tell it when he saw me before. 
I turn on the tv and watch music bank . I see a group of boy called 2PM perform their song and dances.
*i really want to get into that stages...one day*I sigh and i realized the clothes i wear. 
It’s a old clothes so it have some torn on it.*and i need to buy new clothes too* i sighed again 
and walks upstair to change my clothes.*Come on sungjae smile! You promised to umma*

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I walked to the Firework entertaiment, that’s the place where the audition will be held.As i walked on the street
 i put my earphones on and start to humming songs .I smiled everytime i see people looking at me because
 im humming the songs kinda a bit louder.

A lot of people in my school wonder why im not tired living alone and moved to the dorm our school prepared for us. 
I really loved too but since i promised my self to my mom to protect that house then i wont.
Even my principal already asked me to move to the dorm but i still refused it in a polite way.

And school? I’m not good at anything except music. Sometimes i got bad scores sometimes i got the good one .
 And im not the type of kingka in school or even a nerd in school. 
I just want to live my life my normally.Even though i only have view friends in school, im still happy about it.

“Ah that’s the building~” i mumble as i see the building and enter it.
I bow and smiles as i asked the lady in the front office where i can wait for audition and 
she give me direction to the waiting room.

I gets in and i see a boy with his earphones plug into his ears and he nodding his head , 
it’s means he enjoy the music he heared so much and a girl who sleeping with a magazine on her hand.
Wait she look familiar..ah it’s Hyorin from Sistar! I really liked her voice and im sad that her group got disband 
when they have a shining carreer. I remove my earphones and looks around the waiting room and sits comfortably on the chair.
*at least it better than my living room*as i smiled looked on the painting on the wall.

Suddenly there’s a girl and a boy comes to the waiting room panting, i guess they running afraid that they will late.
 I see they linked their arms so i guess they are couple who want to go audition together.
 They stop in the middle of the room as the girl and the boy together hold their knee as their cathes their breath. 
*how cute~* i though as i stand up approach them.

“Hey~”i see the boys look up while the girls takes a handy pocket mirror to check her hair

“Sup dude” as that boy nodding his head at me

“you guys took audition as couple?that sweet” as i look at their linked arms. 
Suddenly they look at each other and looks away as their unlinked their arms.Did i said something wrong?

“ah nope, we just met in the street” as they said in unison with a blush in their face. So they are not a couple? 
That’s too bad

“oh okay, i’m Yook Sungjae anyway” i smiled as i offer my hand to shake to the boy first

“Ilhoon , Jung Ilhoon”

“Kwon Sohyun imnida” the girl beside him take my hand to shakes and bows. I replied her bows as well.

“I hope we can past the audition !” that girl beamed while smiling 
“and i hope you took my dirty jacket to a laundry” as the boy beside her look at her coldly. 
She flicked her tongue and nods.

“Okay..uhm i will just go back to my seats anyway.” As i feel a awkard atmosfer and walks back to my chair in the corner.
I see sohyun took a seats separatedly from Ilhoon.ah they will look cute if they were together.
I see Hyorin open her eyes slowly and scanning the rooms.When her eyes met mine i smiled at her 
and she replied her smile to me. I guess she’s a nice person .

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I KNOW I KNOW I REALLY LATE FOR UPDATING THIS STORY BUT

I WRITE ANOTHER STORY 

THAT DOESNT MEANT I ABANDONED THIS STORY TT TT 

IT'S JUST THE DOCUMENT OF THIS STORY IS IN MY DAD'S LAPTOP 

AND HIS LAPTOP IS BROKEN FOR LIKE 6MONTH (?)

AND REALLY IT'S BROKEN AND JUST GOT FIX AND THANK GOD THE FILE STILL SAVE IN THIS LAPTOP 

SO PLEASE FORGIVE ME JUSEYO TT n TT 

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and i make some change in the font lol