Dear Diary,

          Hi diary! ♥  This is the first time I am going to write in you. I hope we can be best friends just like the special person who gave you to me. (Yieeee!)

Anyway, I am Sandara Park and I am a 20 year old college student of Seoul University Academy. Well sad to say, I really have no talent worth boasting about. I'm just a simple girl from Busan, but everything changed when my family moved here in Seoul when I was five. That was when I met my first love, and my best friend a.k.a the love of my life. That is something worth bragging about. (Kyaaaa!)

Okay now, I'm going to tell you my darkest secret that even my best friend doesn't know, SO PLEASE KEEP THIS A SECRET ... FOREVER! (Blushes) Actually, it's about my love life, but it is impossible for us to be. ;(

I never thought that I would feel this way though because at first I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY HATED HIM, especially when we were young. He was always teasing and bullying me to death but I took all of that because I knew my first love would come and save me from him---the main villain of my life---Fishboy. 

My suffering became even worst when that fishboy found out that I was in love with his older brother, my first love ---Leeteuk oppa, so he practically blackmailed me for him to keep quiet.

 I was so mad at that fish to the point that I wanted to squash and fry him like a fried fish, but all of my hatred suddenly vanished when we went to our high school together. I don't know how to explain it but something really had changed between us, especially when an ugly kid with his annoying friends tried to bully me. I thought that fishboy would join them to make fun of me but instead he punched the kid on his face, breaking his nose. My heart melted when he glared at them and firmly told that if anyone tried to touch me again, he would not think twice but do it again...even worst.

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 Flashback

"Are you okay, rabbit?" Donghae cupped Dara's face, bringing her back to reality.

"Don't worry, rabbit, I am here." he said and gave her a sweet smile. Dara's heart suddenly skipped a beat. She quickly averted her eyes to hide her bright red face.

===== End of flashback. Dara was smiling giddily while biting her pen. She shook her head and continued writing.

After that incident, it felt like everything suddenly changed. Every time I look at him, there was some kind of weird feelings I can't really describe. I just all of a sudden started laughing at his silly jokes that weren't even funny. My heart suddenly beats triple times everytime he is near. I couldn't help but melt every time our eyes met, and when he smiles at me, GAD! Kyaaaaaa! I always die from giddiness. I tried so hard to ignore those feelings, but it's really hard to control my foolish heart. I, then finally realize that I was really falling in love with my best friend. ♥ (KYAAAAA! a thousand times!!!!) 

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Flashback

" Are you really sure you are okay, rabbit? You seem very nervous lately." Donghae asked worriedly.

"Y-yup! I'm fine! Ha! Ha!" Dara stuttered and blushed even more when Donghae came closer to her. He was about to feel her forehead to make sure she was not sick but...

"Stop there!" Dara yelled, making Donghae jump in surprise.

"Ha! Ha! Ha! I mean...I'm okay. Really! You don't need to worry. I'm just..um...I just need to go to the bathroom. I'll see you later!"  Dara hastily said and quickly ran away from him.

"She is really strange today." Donghae thought, scratching his head.

"This is not happening! I am NOT falling in love with that FISH! Ewww!" Dara shook her head furiously as she cracked the door open to secretly peek at Donghae. "Am I?" she asked herself, blushing as she watched Donghae from afar, but  Donghae suddenly turned and caught her looking at him. Dara quickly slammed the door when their eyes met, clutching her chest like she had seen a ghost.

"Aisssh! I'm going crazy!" Dara giddily said as she covered her bright red face.

===== End of flashback. Dara bit her lip to contain her giddiness before she continued writing.

I wonder what he feels about me but... Ughhh!... from the devil, he suddenly became the most kindest, the most gentlemanly, and indeed the prince charming of my life! ♥♥♥♥♥♥(DIES!!!)

I don't know if this is an advantage or a hindrance, but our families are really close to each other. Our parents are best friends too. Our houses are beside each other so we grew up and shared everything together like real siblings did. That is how I knew from the start that he did not feel the same way like I did. You can imagine how painful for me to hear when he always tells our friends that he only treats me like his own little sister, and that we were "JUST FRIENDS" ;c And guess what's more painful than that?

It was during our first year of college. I thought it would be as awesome as our high school years or far greater than that, but I was way wrong. It was all because of my so-called friend, Hyuna. Ugh! I know she just befriended me to get closer to my fishboy.

Do you know how painful it was when fishboy asked me to help him confess his feelings to that so-called  friend of mine? My heart just shattered into a million, billion, thrillon pieces! (Very Ouch!)  I cried an ocean every day. ;(((

[Dara stops writing and sighs deeply. She puts her chin on her palm and stares at the window near her bed before she continuing.]

Sighs;(( Why is love so complicated, diary? Of all the guys out there, why did it have to be my best friend? 

And guess what again? The next semester is starting tomorrow. Which means I have to deal seeing them together again!!!!!" ;((( 

 Diary, Is it stupid of me to ask why can't we be more than JUST FRIENDS?!

 I wish one day he will come to me and say, "I LOVE YOU, RABBIT.  Can we be more than best friends?" KYAAAAAAA!

 And we will live HAPPILY EVER AFTER! ♥♥♥♥♥ If only fairy tales did come true...

Thanks diary for listening to me and letting me write in you. SIGHS... Somehow, I feel better. So that's it for now! Don't worry, I will catch up with you tomorrow. Hopefully, it will be the day I have been waiting for! (Yieeeee!)

Good night diary. Chuuu! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Oh btw! I forgot to tell you his name.  MY PRINCE CHARMING ON HIS WHITE HORSE and MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR... Kyaaaaaa!!!!

MY FISHBOY, LEE DONGHAE !!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

PS. Psshhhh! Please keep this a secret, Diary! <3

                                                                                                     

                                                                                                                                                                     Your new best friend,

                                                                                                                                                                                     Dara 

Dara quickly closed her pink diary and stretched her arms wide. "I dont want to go to school tomorrow!!!! Ughh!!! I hope I won't wake up on time so I don't have to see those lovey-dovey couple, munching each other! Gaaaaaah! Just thinking about Hyuna kissing my fishboy in front of a lot of people makes me want to choke her to death." She gritted her teeth before she rolling her eyes.

"Tsk! They've only dated for a month and they're "PDAing" already.  I really hope she would get AIDS from it! Grrrrr! but then, she sighed deeply, but fishboy would get it too." she pouted. 

Dara groaned and buried her face on her bed. "Yah! Sandara Park! You are so bad! Aigoo!!!" She rolled on her bed before she laying and staring at the ceiling. "Aish! Dara sleep now! You have to be beautiful tomorrow so he'll finally notice you 'I wish', Sighs,  I hope it's gonna be a great day tomorrow. She reached her hand over to the bedside table to get her wallet.

"Goodnight my fishboy." she said, kissing Donghae's picture in her wallet. Then, she finally turned off the light and dozed off into dream land.

 "My prince~"

TO BE CONTINUED>>>>>

Edited: 21/4/13