I know that even when i’m broken you won’t be there to mend me...

But can you stop me from shattering and disappearing...

And just let me know that there’s always something worth living for , fighting for...

Because everytime i told you to leave me...

It’s actually my way of saying “ would you hold me closer than before , erase all remnants of his warmth And let me live in yours...”

 I know that Even when i’m crying , you won’t be able to stop it...

But can you promise to lend me your shoulder for me to cry on...

So that when i open my glazed eyes there would be no trace of my tears except your sturdy shoulders...

Wet with my tears but full of hope and confidence for a better tomorrow...

When as i’m finding it in me to stop...

It’ll be to your warmth that i succumbed to...

It’ll be to your voice comforting me that i come too saying...

“hyung ,  i hope you’re crying for yourself ,  for all the times spent ,  for all the mileage your heart went through but not for him ,  not for the him that rights himself more than his involve in you not for him that was never content in all of your sacrifices”

I know that Even as i fall you can’t stop time and just catch me...

But can you just stitch me back up so that it remains as just some scars of my life playing...

So that moving on doesn’t seem that impossible...

Cause i know that you’ll be just at the sideline with threads , needles and wavering smiles...

And then ...and just then i know that i’d survive this just because...

Because despite all the clouds and fogs that surround my broken heart...

There’s just so much sunshine your embrace brings me...

How simple words like“hyung i’ll take care of you now”

rest my wandering heart and settles my troubles...

I know that Even when i feel like my heart is cracking and breaking , you won’t be able to piece it back together...

But can you stay beside me all the same and just hold it...

keep it safe till a time where it’ll grow on it’s own....

when cracking and breaking are but a mere memory decorating it...

till a time where i can say “changmin-ah thanks for waiting , cause now i’m your’s”

i know that Even when i find myself lost and drown in my life’s blackhole that  you won’t be there to guide me to the right path...

But can you wait for me at the end of the way...

so that when i find my way it’s not in vain

And that then i’d have someone to share it with ...

And then and maybe then i’d have my happily ever after...

Later on... maybe as my love for him disappears...

My love for you would grow...

It would change...

From just deep bows of gratitude...

To something more akin to love...

To something more akin to yours...

So will you wait?

Will you wait for my shaky heart to be able to love again ?

To hurt again...

Because now i’m too numb to feel...

I’m too numb to hurt...

And just too numb to love...

And until this time arrives i’ll be selfish...

“I’ll be selfish changmin-ah and tie you close...”

I’ll be selfish and grip you hard...

Because he may cripple me but he won’t kill me because you’re here so i won’t die...

I won’t die cause i still need to stand up again and love you back...

And until then i’ll just be me...

 a person with a broken heart...

“because changmin-ah he was but my past , a past that prepares me...

A past that thaws my cold heart...

So that when it’s your turn i’ll be ready...

Like I’m ready now  for my true love...for my knight in shining armour...for my very own changmin”

p/s - i tried to improvise it a little...but yeah not sure....but i hope it's better...:)