Oh, my sweetheart, why did we end?
The sun cannot set
The moon cannot pull the tides
Because you are not by my side.
I was angry
I was sad
But most of all, I was afraid.
I feared that without you,
I would die.
I knew that now it wasn't my time.
I have places I have yet to visit.
I have feelings I have yet to experience.
But when I heard that you were passing soon...
I thought
"Why can't we switch places?"
It might as well be me dying,
For I cannot live without you, my beloved,
The one who swept my heart away.

When I heard of you wanting me to 
Move on....
I didn't know what to do.
I love you so much.
That night... When we separated...
I yearned to be in your arms
I yearned to hold your hand
I yearned to feel your lips.

Because you are my beloved,
Because I love you with all my heart,
I will follow as you say.
But, Dear, you have to know it pains me.
Moving on without you...
Is unbearable.

And that day before you passed,
I was in deep sorrow.
I could not spare a minute
Without thinking.
And every time
I thought of
You,
I burst into tears,
Knowing that I couldn't be by your side.

I wanted to escape.
I wanted this aching pain in my chest
To leave.
Even for just an instant.

I went to the local coffee shop
With a loved one.
When I saw you,
My heart started beating faster and faster
Like on the day we first met...
Six years ago.
I wanted to look at you and give you
A knowing smile,
You are my one, our souls uniting.
You are my only, our love everlasting.
But I knew if our eyes connected
Like our hearts have,
You would leave.
And I wouldn't be able to stand it.
I stole a glance.
You were looking at me,
Smiling.
I turned away quickly.
Again I looked up.
You were furiously scribbling on a paper.
A single tear streamed down your pale face.
Oh, how I wanted to brush your tear away.
Oh, how I wanted to send your fears away.

Suddenly, you got up from your seat and 
Stuffed the paper in your 
Pocket,
Storming out,
With a look of desperation hidden
In your dulling
Eyes.
The piece of a paper fell out in all
The ruckus
And I rushed to pick it up.
Tears flowed down my face like a
Waterfall
As I read the words:
"Please don't love me."


Darling, 
I am still in Love's clutches.
The days we were together
The days we were apart,
I cherished all of them.
For I knew that we were inseparable.
At least that's what I thought.

Please, don't leave me
I know that without you,
My world would be no more.

Oh, my beloved,
It took so much effort
To not visit you
To not think of you
To not love you

And I did none of it.

When I walked through those hospital doors,
Yearning to see you,
You were already limp,
A white crisp sheet placed over your body.

Oh, my precious,
I'm sorry I didn't cry.
For I had no tears left in me.
I'm sorry I tried to stop loving you.
For I did not know how strong our love is.
I'm sorry I made you die alone.
For I was afraid and wanted to fulfill your last wish.

Will you forgive me?

Oh, my beloved
I will try to move on
But don't ask me 
To stop loving you
Because you're all 
I think about.
You are and always will be
My classmate,
My best friend,
My love interest,
My beloved.
One day I'll be with you once again
Please.... Wait for me.....

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AN: Jinkyu, I'm sorry again.

Hey people, sad poem? Yeah, sorry. It just ended up like that. Not really my doing. Anyways, thanks for reading I guess. It was a long free verse and all.

And did it actually work? Using whatever two people you wanted? I apologize if it didn't and you got dragged here by the tags. Oh, and if you're okay with me writing free verse once and a while, please subscribe. I like writing free verse but if you don't want me to, *shrugs, then I won't. Thank you again.