Waiting

Oh, my beloved,
Will you forgive me? 

I can still see your hand in mine
As we walk down the snowy path,
Surrounded by the beautiful withering trees and the
Chirping birds.
That last night, I could not bear to tell you... 
The 
Truth.
I would not be able to
Stand the pain that would
Inevitably show on 
Your perfect face if I told you... 
Seeing that you have moved on, I can now say,
That oh, Darling, like those trees last winter,
I am pining away. 

We were both deep in Love's clutches.
The moment our eyes met in the local coffee shop,
Our destiny to be with one another
Began. 

I thought that we would be 
Inseparable. 
Our hands tightly woven
Together.
Like a wedding ring
To one's finger.
Or
Like one's
Lips to the significant other's.

Without you, I, the world,
Everything
Would become worthless to me.
The pellucid, tranquil waters 
Will flow with
Blood and
Tears.
The bright, elated skies will
Be stricken with lightning.
The light snowflakes that we caught in
Our mouths 
Will be a blizzard. 
And I know,
My dear, of
Your insecurities
When I momentarily leave your side.
If I was gone forever?
Your grief-stricken face
Will have me forever
Roaming 
In the world...
In which I do not belong.

That's why.....
I pushed you away...
Was I being selfish?
Me, wanting to see you smile
Instead of me attempting to bear
The racking sobs that 
Would have resounded 
Throughout the 
White colored room?

Will you forgive me?

Oh, my precious,
I am sorry for making tears come out of
Your deep dark brown eyes.
I am sorry for being that person
That kept you away from needed slumber.
I am sorry for injuring your hands
With broken glass.
I am sorry for making you drink.
I am sorry for always being on your mind.

But seeing you, yesterday,
I have no regrets.
Sneaking out of my room
And heading to 
That local
Coffee shop
Where we first met,
I saw you.
You and your new beloved.
You brought the cup
To your dry, cold mouth and took a sip.
A cream mustache
Surrounded your
Oh, so pure lips.
Your new dear wiped your mouth clean
And you
Grinned jubilantly,
Showing your shiny white teeth.

That's why...
I know...
It was right to let you go.
Although you have forgotten me, 
You will be my one and only.
You will be my classmate,
My best friend, 
My love interest,
My beloved.
To you, 
I will be,
As I want it to be,
Your past.
And from the heavens,
Where I will undoubtedly end up (soon),
I will watch over you, 
I will protect you, 
I will love you.

Will you forgive me?

Oh, my 
Beloved, live without me.
Fulfill your dreams. 
I hope I 
Never cross your mind. 
But if I do, just think of what 
We could have been. 
Goodbye... Forever. 
Oh, darling, I love you.
Please....don't wait.... For me...