Everything seems normal, too normal that it scares MJ. Sabi nila, mararamdaman mo nalang bigla kapag may maling mangyayari sa araw mo at isa yun sa mga ayaw niyang maganap, well at least, not today.   “Please, wala sanang masamang mangyari mamaya.” She pleaded in her head.    MJ turned off the music she’s listening to and checked her emails once again. Nadala niya naman na ata lahat ng kailangan at requirements na sinend ng soon to be employer niya, that is, kung papalarin.    Yes. MJ is applying for a job these days. Hindi niya rin alam kung fresh grad pa ba siya since she already graduated last year but it's her first time seeking a job. After graduating kasi she doesn’t specifically know what to do that time even though she’s still rendering volunteer service as a final requirement sa scholarship niya when she was still in college.    Ang hirap naman kasi malaman kung anong next step after graduating. Hindi mo alam kung anong uunahin mo. Wala naman kasing nakapagsabi sa kanya kung alin ang dapat and hindi dapat gawin, even the processes of things she needs to be done. Hindi niya alam, para daw siyang napapariwara.   Even in this setting, everything’s new to MJ. She’s been in comfort with her friends around her kapag may pupuntahan and MJ is quite anxious now since she needs to go alone. Pero hindi naman pwede na aasa na lang siya palagi sa kanila.   With a determined mindset, she took long strides going out their purok para maghintay ng tricycle.   MJ doesn't know what will happen mamaya and she's hoping na sana she'll proceed being a trainee. Ang daming scenarios na ang umiikot ngayon sa utak niya. She's overthinking and she can't help it.   “What if I accidentally do something bad? What if hindi ako makarating sa mismong lugar ng office nila? Hindi pa naman ako masyadong familiar sa streets and palatandaan sa Bacolod. It sounds stupid na ang lapit-lapit ng city namin but hindi ko masyadong gamay yung lugar na yun.” She scoffed to herself. It is what it is na lang siguro mamaya ang iisipin niyang pampalubag loob.   It's 9:45am when she arrived at a printing shop. She needs to print her resumé before going to the company.   She checked her belongings once again. May bumabagabag kasi talaga sa kanya and she can’t pinpoint kung ano yun.   While waiting, her thoughts are drifting again. “If may capital na ako, I’ll start a printing business too or a study cafe or a private library dito sa city. Ang hirap naman kasi dito, if gusto mo mag-aral outside of your house wala kang pwedeng tambayan kahit na public library man lang. Keep up naman tayo diyan Bago. As if naman may makskarinig.” Iiling-iling nalang siya sa sarili. Minsan, iniisip niya din kung normal pa ba to or may disorder na talaga siya.    After 5 minutes, tapos naman na agad yung printing. “Gago, ang mahal naman? Dati 8 pesos per page pa lang to bat naging 10 na?” But since she doesn’t have a say, nagbayad na lang siya at umalis na din.   Medyo mahaba-habang minuto muna ang inantay niya sa masasakyan at napagdesisyonan niyang mag jeep nalang kaysa sa mag-bus. Financially wise, mas makakatipid siya sa jeep.    So when there’s one, she went in. MJ chose the seat near the entrance, it’s less of a hassle pag bababa ka but of course need padin naman umusog if may matandang sasakay din.   One of her hobbies is talking to herself. Dahil siya lang mag-isa, MJ chose to create different scenarios in her head kung anong mangyayari mamaya. She’s thinking what if maligaw siya then ma late siya or she'll be stuck in a traffic jam. On the positive side of her thoughts naman says that the HR recruiter will like her