March 24, 20xx

I'm starting to worry for myself. I cry tears that make this chiming sounds and I don't really know why it's happening. I cry these tears every night that my eyes started hurting and I think sometimes I don't see colors clearly. It was momentarily but the next thing I know, I'm seeing them clearly. I think I'm going to have to go to a doctor soon. This wasn't my reason for opening the diary, it was her. 

Today she was dazzling on that skin tone colored dress. I didn't know I was staring until she looked right through the camera before mouthing "you're staring." God, that was embarrassing. But, I get to hear her giggle, so it was worth being embarrassed of.