RINA

More than a month na since nagiba ang trajectory ng relationship namin Miloves. Wow, maka relationship naman akala mo meron.

Pero meron naman talaga! friends ganun. 

Friends naman na siguro kami, iiyak ako kung hindi pa. Grabe willing na nga akong mafriendzoned kahit I like her tapos for her hindi pa pala?! Unfair!

Yes, I like her tito boy.

One thing that I like about myself, though sometimes I also hate is that I know what I feel. In short hindi ako dense sa feelings ko. 

After ng ilang araw of thinking, I concluded na yes hindi ako straight gaya ng nasa balita. Hindi ko nga alam sino nagpapakalat non. Maybe people just assumed because the suitors I allowed before were all boys. Nagkataon lang naman, plus no girl ever confessed to me before. 

Anyways, I like Win Kim aka Miloves, though not sa level pa na jojowain KAHIT SOBRANG JOWA MATERIAL NIYA!

If nasa jowa levels na itong feelings ko edi sana I asked her out na. Charot feeling brave lang, not real.

Hindi naman siya mahirap magustuhan, plus I've always been attracted to her. Obvious naman sa pa Miloves ko simula nung marinig ko siyang kumanta sa Jamsession. But I never knew it will end up sa ganto kasi very short lang mga interactions namin in the past. Ngayon lang kami naging ganito kaclose, like everyday nakikita ko siya. 

Ayan tuloy hulog.

GRABE GREEN NA GREEN naman kasi! Mahihiya ang forest sakanya. Very mabait. Feeling ko kahit ayaw niya yung tao, mabait parin siya. Kaya rin hirap magassume sa part ko, pero I like her for that.

She's also fun to be with, lalo na yung mga times na sobrang daldal niya or nasa mood siya makipagbiruan. 

And maybe every time we're together, I let myself fall for her. Sabi nga ng aespa, so why would I ever stop? sasakyan lang naman may preno, feelings ko wala kaya go lang ng go.

Just kidding.

Again, I think wala pa naman ako sa level na jojowain ko na siya, though I am pretty positive na doon din punta ko soon.

Plus I still have reservations, like her and Rille. Minsan feeling ko may something between them eh, though sinabi na ni Rille na wala.

Another is si Jeno, we still see each other. I still watch his games minsan and go on dates with him. Pero compared before Miloves and I became close, sobrang dalang nalang.

Hindi ko narin siya kasama maglakad papunta sa gym every morning. I started declining his offer dahil kasabay ko na lagi mag jog si Miloves at lagi niya akong hinahatid. Hassle lang sakanya na hintayin ako when I already have someone to walk with. Plus medyo awkward yung atmoshpere if magkasama kaming tatlo.

I'm still on the process of sorting things out. One of my option for my Jeno dilema is to make him stop courting me na. Jeno is a great guy. I cannot let him waste his energy, time, and feelings on me who let herself fall for someone who isn't him. 

I sighed, I have a lot of things on my mind lately, acads, volley, paano magpatigil ng manliligaw, Jeno, miloves, miloves, miloves and miloves.

"Karina", napalingon naman ako sa seatmate ko. "Dito rin ba next class mo? we're dismissed na kasi". I wonder my eyes around, nagsisilabasan na ang lahat, hindi ko napansin.

"Oh. No, uhm Thank you", I smiled at her, she smiled back medyo namumula pa ang pisnge. "Are you okay?" tanong ko. "ay oo, I'm f-fine a-alis na ako Ka-karina, bye!", nagmadali siyang umalis. "Ingat ka"

After kong magayos ng gamit lumabas na ako. Maagang end ang klase ko today, pahinga muna siguro ako somewhere bago traning.

Where to go? 

Nakita ko si Miloves sa labas ng building.

"Miloves!" I called her, marami tuloy napatingin saaakin including Miloves. She smiled at me. Syempre nagwala nanaman ang mga malalanding monster sa tiyan ko.

Lumapit na ako sakanya, kunwari hindi kinikilig sa mere presence niya. "Where are you going?" I asked.

"Ah, dinaan ko si Kim sa klase niya there sa kabilang building after our meeting sa org. Then Rille said you have a class here that ends around 3pm so I decided na puntahan ka" she explained. "oh okay, pero bakit mo ako pupuntahan?"

"I was gonna ask you if gusto mong magdinner later", ay ayun la--ANO RAW?!

Hindi ako nakareact agad sa sinabi niya. Weird ba if magtatalong ako dito? what if tumalon nalang ako mula sa rooftop?

"Rina?", nagulat ako. "ah ano yun?" lutang kong sagot. "I felt bad kasi kanina. You asked me to eat luch with you kagabi and I agreed pero hindi natuloy because suddenly something came up"

Ah, oo nga pala. Dapat magkasama kaming maglunch today pero may urgent ata silang paguusapan ni Rille.

I know malaki ang chance na it's about the upcoming event pero I can't help but to think na may something more pa.

"No need naman to feel bad about it, it's okay" I said trying to convince her na okay lang talaga. "I insist. Please" she pleads, Oh my gosh! parang puppy.

I sighed, LOWSER RINA, bumigay agad. "Okay, pero may training pa ako until 7", nagliwanag naman ang mukha niya. Ganda nito tapos ako gusto kasama magdinner, isa lang meaning non maganda rin ako, emz.

"Okay, sunduin kita later after your training", she smiled kaya automatic na yung nod ko. Rina Yu namataang loser at hindi makatanggi.

"Ah!", nagulat naman ako. Kanina pa to. "Are you okay to have dinner sa place ko?" sabi niya. Wait saan daw?!, sa place niya? Miloves bakit mo na ako inuuwi! Charot.

Nagpanic ata siya dahil hindi ako sumagot agad, "ah ano, okay lang naman if you're not comfortable. Where d-"

"No, it's okay lang. Medyo ano nagulat lang ako, kasi ano, hindi ko inexpect makakapunta ako sa place mo" I explained. Tumango naman siya, "May ibibigay kasi si Dad na food. I want you to taste it"

HALLA! Luto ni Daddy Kim?!

Makadaddy naman, gaga hindi ka anak.

Excited na tuloy ako magdinner, skip na ata ako ng training. 

"Will your roommate be comfortable sa visitor?" tanong ko, hindi ko kasi kilala sino roommate nito. Never kasi namin napagusapan yung place or her roommate, if meron man. Hindi ko nga alam saan siya nakatira.

"I don't have one" sabi niya pero dahil lumilipad yung isip ko hindi agad nagregister yung sinabi niya. Napa 'Ha' tuloy ako.

"Wala akong roommate, it will be just you and I" paglilinaw niya.

"ah-ah o-okay", nagpanic bigla utak ko. Just you and I daw?! Himlay malala

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