For Sana love meant Momo.

 

She hadn’t known it any other way.

 

She was convinced that she wouldn’t be able to love anyone as much as she loved Momo.

 

Loves*

 

 

 

“Satang will we ever get married?”

 

Sana looked down curiously at Momo who was lying on her lap.

 

“Maybe.. why?”

 

“I was just thinking you know… we don’t really know what’s gonna happen in the future so why delay it.”

 

“Baby we’ve all the time in the world, don’t worry. Besides I am not yet ready to be permanently stuck with you”

 

“Shut up” Momo hit Sana on the face while Sana kept giggling childishly.

 

 

Momo knew Sana was just kidding.

 

That the day will come soon when she will be Sana’s forever.

 

Well she was already Sana’s forever but just that piece of paper and a ring on her finger was missing.

 

And Sana was also right.

 

They had all the time in the world.

 

 

But little did they know that fate had something else written for them.

 

 

 

“Sana?” A girl (whom Sana had never seen before) came to her room.

 

“Who are you?” she asked while hiding inside her comforter, shaking.

 

“I am here to help you, now please come out”

 

“I don’t need anyone’s help” Sana yelled and threw the nearby lamp at the other woman.

 

Thankfully it missed her.

 

 

Now Nayeon knew what she was getting into.

 

She also knew what Sana had gone through.

 

After all they’d been friends forever.

 

It’s unfortunate that Sana doesn’t remember her anymore.

 

But she had taken it to herself to help Sana in any way possible.

 

 

“Babeeee where are you???” Sana couldn’t help but chuckle at her girlfriend’s eagerness.

 

“I am on my way sweetie, have some patience”

 

“Okay come soon. I love you”

 

“I love you too”

 

And she meant it.

 

She always does.

 

After hanging up the phone she checked her coat and opened the box where the beautiful diamond ring rested.

 

She took a deep breathe, already so nervous.

 

 

Tonight was the night.

 

After tonight Momo will not be her girlfriend anymore.

 

But her fiancé.

 

And then her wife.

 

With that thought she kept driving to her destination.

 

To Momo.

 

 

“So how is it going with Sana?” Mina asked Nayeon who looked like a walking corpse.

 

“I thought she was doing better but last night she had another episode. She woke up in the middle of the night and started looking for Momo. It took me two hours to get her back into her bed” Nayeon said and let out a long exhale.

 

It had been really tough for her to take care of Sana.

 

But it was worth it.

 

As long as she can help Sana, it’s all worth it.

 

 

Sana is to her like Momo is to Sana.

 

There’s no better way to explain how she felt for the other woman.

 

But she never acted on her feelings though.

 

How could she?

 

When she could clearly see how perfect Momo was for Sana.

 

At the end of the day all she wanted was for Sana to be happy.

 

And there was no one who could make Sana happier than Momo could.

 

 

But cruel destiny didn’t let that last long.

 

And now she despises Momo for leaving Sana.

 

Leaving her so early.

 

Leaving her in her misery.

 

 

“Does she remember you now?” Mina spoke again, breaking Nayeon’s train of thoughts.

 

“No…not yet”

 

Mina could see how in pain Nayeon was but she didn’t say anything about it.

 

It was Nayeon’s choice and it was the right choice.

 

Maybe Sana would not be able to appreciate Nayeon’s effort but they all knew that Momo definitely was.

 

From wherever she was.

 

Momo loves everyone who loves Sana.

 

In what way? that didn’t matter.

 

“Maybe if you took her to Momo’s grave she’d remember that Momo is gone” Mina felt closing up while even saying that statement.

 

Not only Sana but all of them lost a piece of themselves that day.

 

“Maybe… but not now. The doctor said to take it slow but I will take her there soon”

 

 

 

Momo couldn’t describe what she was feeling when she watched as Sana dropped on one knee with a ring in her hand.

 

She definitely didn’t expect this to happen today.

 

She was just happy to see Sana as they both had been really busy with their work and had not been able to meet each other that often.

 

But this….

 

This is everything Momo ever wanted.

 

So (although she was bawling her eyes out) she managed to choke out a ‘yes’.

 

And when Sana slid that silver band (with a beautiful diamond stone on top) on her finger, she felt chills all over her body,

 

But when she pulled up Sana to kiss her tenderly she again felt the warmth creep in her body, taking away any coldness she felt before.

 

Sana was her source of warmth.

 

And she knew that she would be forever.

 

Forever…

 

But in their case forever turned out to be not that long.

 

 

 

“Your name is Nayeon right? My wife always talks about you” Sana said suddenly while Nayeon was busy cooking.

 

Nayeon was happy that Sana at least acknowledged her existence.

 

One step at a time.. one step at a time..

 

“Yes I am” Nayeon smiled and continued cutting the vegetables.

 

And the conversation started flowing from there.

 

Nayeon didn’t mention anything about Momo’s death and also the other thing.

 

Just because they didn’t say ‘I do’ doesn’t mean that they weren’t married.

 

If Sana thinks Momo is her wife, then who is Nayeon to deny that?

 

 

Nayeon was so busy conversing about Momo with Sana that she didn’t notice the knife that slipped and cut her finger.

 

“” she cursed, but the pain she was feeling was nothing compared to the terror in Sana’s eyes.

 

“B-blood.. b-blood” Sana started stuttering.

 

She was trembling and crying and yelling in pain.

 

“B-blood …b-blood.. M-Momo..B-blood” she kept repeating while tears started flowing from her eyes uncontrollably.

 

“Sana” Nayeon tried to approach her only to be shoved by Sana.

 

Sana started pacing all over the living room while mumbling “Blood” and “Momo” over and over again.

 

Clearly very very scared.

 

 

Nayeon needed to do something and do it fast.

 

She ran to Sana’s room and brought the plushie of a Monster Inc character- Boo.

 

Momo was obsessed with Monster Inc, especially Boo.

 

And this particular plushie was really special to her as Sana had gotten it for her.

 

It was the first gift Sana had ever bought for her while they had not even started dating.

 

And Sana didn’t even have enough money to buy that little thing.

 

She gave up three days of her lunch money just to get that doll for Momo.

 

So to say that plushie was special to Momo would be an understatement.

 

It was her lifeline.

 

Which was now then passed on to Sana.

 

Whenever Sana would sleep or get scared or just miss Momo(which was like every second of the day) she would hold on to that little plushie.

 

People might not believe her but she could still smell Momo’s fragrance in that doll.

 

She could still feel Momo.

 

 

So when Nayeon brought the plushie, Sana snatched it from her and held on it for dear life.

 

She was on her knees with Momo’s plushie in her arms but her mumbling had gotten less.

 

Nayeon just sat beside her while rubbing her back.

 

At least Sana didn’t shove her away this time.

 

 

 

“Baby I am tired, please stop it” Momo said while trying to push Sana away who was leaving kisses all over her face but she herself couldn’t help but giggle.

 

“Not a chance” Sana said and moved her kisses down to Momo’s neck.

 

“Not today please. I am honestly tired” Momo tried to reason out.

 

She was actually very tired with all the moving in.

 

Yes today they moved in together.

 

Their wedding was approaching so they thought it’d be better if they started living together before actually getting married.

 

And it was not an easy task to carry all their stuff into the new apartment.

 

So Momo was actually not lying when she said she was tired.

 

Sana carried more stuff than Momo did, so honestly she was surprised that Sana still had the energy to do stuff..

 

But then she realized it was Sana.

 

Her hormones had more control on her than she had on them.

 

“But I’ll do all the work, you just enjoy my love” the look in Sana’s eyes was filled with lust but at the same it also carried certain softness.

 

Momo didn’t have the heart to deny her.

 

 

And she didn’t regret saying ‘okay’ when Sana’s touches and kisses travelled all around her body, showing her the gates of heaven.

 

She didn’t regret it when Sana climbed up her body just to kiss her so that Momo could have a taste of herself.

 

She didn’t regret it when Sana held her in her arms, praising her about how good she was and how much she loves her.

 

She didn’t regret it when she fell asleep on the bed which was not hers but theirs together.

 

She never regrets anything if it’s with Sana…

 

 

 

“Nayeon-ie where are we going?”

 

“To meet Momo”

 

“To..meet…Momo?” Sana mumbled confused and continued, “But she is still in our home. Didn’t you see her kiss me goodbye pabo-ya?” Sana said with a chuckle as if Nayeon had said something stupid.

 

“Uh yeah I saw that but she said she had some work so she’ll meet us there later”

 

“There where?”

 

“You’ll see”

 

“Okay” Sana simply said and went back to playing games on her phone.

 

 

Nayeon was nervous as hell right now.

 

Sana had shown improvement in her behavior and have not had any episode of outburst in the past few months.

 

But she had still not accepted the fact that Momo was gone.

 

And now Nayeon was taking her to…

 

Momo’s grave.

 

She herself didn’t feel ready enough to see the place where Momo was resting.

 

But she had to be strong.. really really strong.

 

For Sana.

 

For Sana to have some peace.

 

For Sana to move on.

 

 

“W-what is this place Nayeon-ie? A-and where is Momo?”

 

“Just walk a little further Sana, Momo is right there” Nayeon said while pointing at a grave, Momo’s grave.

 

Sana took tiny steps towards where Nayeon was pointing.

 

She didn’t have good feeling about it.

 

The place where Nayeon pointed was the most decorated out of all.

 

It had flow