Zoom in to the future, it's been two years that Jinae's the wife of another man.
And just like before, I'm the same coward.
I live everyday in regret and it isn't fulfilling.
Each day, I live thinking what if. Such a pathetic wimp aren't I?

I don't know what's worst.
Me still thinking of her each day or me still loving her. 
I haven't met her in a while.
Almost a year and a half.
After the marriage, I couldn't look at her the same.

She's a married woman and I shouldn't be loving her.
If I stay close to her, I could end up a home-wrecker.
I don't want to be that.

And so, I move away as far as I could from where she was.
I didn't even tell her.
Because I know I'd I did, I could forget her.
But look at me now, I'm still unable to forget her.
It's not days but months that I've tried to get her away from my mind.
It's not working. At all. Not even the distance. 

I was getting my daily groceries in the market while thinking of all these.
She's in my mind no matter where I am. I'm stupid like that.

Enter the girl I still love in this story again. 

She was right in front of me.
So different than the last time I saw her.
Her face was all bones and she was so skinny, I thought that if there was a slight breeze, she would fall.
She looked so weak.
I looked right at her, shocked at the condition she's in.
She didn't even call me or say anything.

But a tear fell down her eyes that I loved.
That tear told me everything.
She wasn't happy.
Not with me, not with the life she's living. 

She stood there unmoved, not even bothered to move a muscle.
A minute later, she tried to push me away but I didn't move an inch.
She was so weak. I couldn't even act like she had a little strength.

" You left me, why bother. "

I heard her voice, hoarse and soft.
She tried to get away from me but I stopped her.
I couldn't let her go.
Not this way. Not when she's not telling me what's happened to her. 

I carried her up, out of the supermarket and sat her on the bench outside the place.
She sat there stoned.
I expected her to scream or rebel when I carried her but she continued being a statue.
It pissed me off. 

" What happened to you? "

I demanded from her.
I needed to know.

" You left me, why bother. "
She repeated herself and I sighed.
I wanted to help her and she's not letting me. 

" Tell me. Please, Jinae. "

" Why did you leave me? "

I couldn't even answer that.
I couldn't just tell her that it was because I loved her that I had to leave.

Everything would be chaotic, all would be different.