(Glimpse of us - joji)

No... I did not fall out of love

It was the hardest decision I've ever made

I was on the edge of darkness when I met sua, I didn't tell you that I was going in and out of therapy

When I'm out there radio hosting, yes.. I assured, I felt happy every second but everynight, I'd lay down my body for a rest, darkness would enter and anxieties would hit, I can hear voices everywhere whispering how these opportunities came to me are undeserving to have me,...how you deserve someone whom everyone will be pleased.

It keeps repeating and repeating...only pills can stop it

I don't want to let you know, I don't want you to suffer along with me, so forgive me my love for my decisions are good for the both of us.

The support you've given me everyday always give me a reason to keep holding on life

Every voice messages you would send gives colours to my gray world

And your every text messages doesn't fail to form a smile on my face

But...

I don't deserve any of that

I don't...

Accepting the fact that we'll never be accepted by the public,

The leader and a member dating?? It's never gonna be accepted and will never work

We will never work

Yes...They were so many cases here in Korea where the girl and a girl loved each other however results were much complicated for a conservative country, some cases were accepted and loved by the people but some were tragics

And we could be one of the tragics if we continue 

Everything .... everything would only ruin your life and career, as well as our members,whom we love and treasure the most.

If this is the only way to protect you and everyone, then I'll do it, I'll make you hate me until you'll meet someone who deserves you.

I have to leave the group for everyone's sake

I tried avoiding you and tried to be in someone else's arms just for you to hate and forget about me.

But being in someone else's arms only reminds me of you

Your eyes were my favourite and now that I'm staring at somewhere new and different eyes, I only see a glimpse of us

When we made it public knowing everyone will be pleased according to their comments during youngstreet radio ever since the time where sua was smoothly flirting with me.

Seungwan and sua were accepted and loved

But Joohyun and Seungwan will never be

I'm so sorry Joohyun

I'm sorry

I love you

I always will

I cried every each night knowing you're hurting because of me

I tried hurting myself but sua was there to stop me

Sua was there ,witnessing everything...

She knows that I still love you but despite all of that she still loved me.

She gave me an offer before We chose to date

she will help me and love me, it doesn't matter If I love her back or not she said .

she just want me by her side.

And I really tried to fall for her touch but I only thought of how it was with you

Everyone would say Sua is so perfect for me

But if she's then so perfect

Why do I still wish it was you? 

I'm toxic ,right? I know and she knows ...I really tried to give her the love,that she didn't required me to give...but everytime I try so, only hurt her more...because it was just you whom I think of everytime.

We decided to end our sufferings and went our separate ways

Ending our unconditional love

But don't worry...I'm fine on my own

I just want you to know that,I really didn't want to hurt you,joohyun

But 

Being with me will hurt you alot more.

I just hope Joohyun and Seungwan will have a happy ending in the other universe.

And

Congratulations to your marriage! I'm happy for you!

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Seungwan put her letter on a mailbox with a smile...

" Morning mrs.kim bae!.. here a mail package for you and have a great day" the mailman happily said and now went to ride his bike

Irene smiled and silently check the mails, she stopped when Seungwan's name pop out...

Her heartbeats were uncountable, she quickly opened it and cried upon reading everything.