It is only the beginning...

In the van that brought them back home, Hoya was dozing, although he was not particularly tired. The driver was driving so slowly that his head did not even twitched when he stuck to the glass. He closed his eyes and began gradually to fall asleep. Soon they would give their first concert: Second Invasion. The name sounded really good. Just as the name of their group.

Despite the fatigue, the intensive trainings, the difficult singing lessons, there was nothing that Hoya could regret since he joined the group. He did not even know how to express his gratitude to the destiny. Not only it was the job he had always wanted to do, but in addition he had the best boyfriend that can exist. The public associated him with Dongwoo constantly. They were best friends after all, the harmony between them was undeniable. But Hoya loved a very different man, a man who acted naturally towards him, a man who could not hide his concern when he cried, a man who sometimes imitated to perfection his reactions without being conscious.

This man was called Nam WooHyun. If you had asked Hoya who he would date among the members if he was a girl, he would have said Dongwoo, perhaps for the same reasons as the public. They were both rappers, dancers and had a perfect complicity.

However, his heart had decided otherwise. And he chose WooHyun when fans forced him to pretend to like Dongwoo, as WooHyun had to pretend to love SungKyu. He was not sad; this game on stage amused him. Hoya was not the jealous or possessive type. He knew that WooHyun loved him and he lived his life with this certainty in mind. He did not need Woohyun to tell him constantly 'I love you'. He did not need Woohyun to stop being with SungKyu for his heart to be healthy.

Unfortunately, it was not Woohyun's case who was a very sensitive man. It frequently happened to him to be jealous of Dongwoo, or of Sungjong because the magnae and the rapper were like two loving brothers. Worse, WooHyun could blame himself for being so affectionate towards SungKyu.

Located on the seat behind Hoya's one in the van, WooHyun watched his friends fall one by one into the arms of Morpheus. He couldn't do the same. Hoya was ahead of him and he really wanted to takes him in his arms to be forgiven. Of course he did not anticipate that the leaf falls and then he kisses really SungKyu but he knew that instead of Hoya, he would cry all the tears in his body.

He couldn't wait anymore and pulled out his notebook patting a message before sending it to Hoya. Which was soon startled by feeling the vibration in his pocket. A sigh crossed his lips. His thumb remained on hold a few seconds over his keyboard.

"Are you mad at me, Ho Won? "

WooHyun stared at him endlessly, or rather, fixed his neck, until he got his answer. It seemed a little too vague.

"Should I? "

"I do not know. I kissed SungKyu. "

"I do not see where's the problem, it was unintentional. And it's part of the game, our fans love Woogyu couple, right? "

"Yes, but I do not want our relationship pays expenses. "

Hoya sighed frankly,even if he knew that WooHyun could hear. He sent his answer by tapping firmly on his screen. WooHyun would be offended but never mind.

"You're really annoying, you know? You're always trying to make me angry, it annoys me. If I tell you that I'm not mad at you that means I don't blame you, so stop searching problems. It was unintentional and was not even a real kiss! We'll talk about it when you'll have with him! "

Ten minutes passed without any new text message. You could easily hear a pin drop in the van but Hoya did not need to hear anything to know that WooHyun was crying right behind him. He closed his eyes painfully before leaving the van when the driver stopped it right in front of their home. He went without waiting for the rest of the group, he needed to be alone.

He might be Woohyun's boyfriend for eight months, but he still could not grasp why the singer was always looking to nit him to confess to an alleged jealousy he had never felt . Because he himself was like that, he believed that Hoya would always be jealous at the slightest kind movement for someone else?

The issue was returned in his head for a good half an hour in which he didn't stop walking into the small space his room offered. He looked for a word, any phrase, the slightest gesture, the slightest lack of action too... But nothing helped him to understand. Of course, WooHyun should be so angry with him now that he would not answer him directly if he would ask the question.

Hoya sat down and dialed a number, as calmly as he could. After several minutes of discussion, he found his solution. He thanked his interlocutor a thousand times and left the room. SungJong explained to him that WooHyun was resting in his room and he did not look good, even SungKyu couldn't do anything visibly. Hoya rushed into the room without further delay. He looked at his boyfriend, his chest did not rise, he was already asleep ...

In fact, WooHyun heard him. He rested for some time already and the person who had just closed the door was an intruder for him. He was annoyed, disappointed and tired. He just wanted some peace. Nothing could cheer him up yet. Any word or gesture would be unnecessary and superfluous. Even the silence seemed insignificant to him but between the two, there was no comparison. He was just waiting to fall asleep with the hope that when he'll wake up, everything would be better.

The bed sank to his right. He guessed a knee against his thigh but did not open his eyelids. With some luck, this would be sufficient for the disturbing person to leave.

A second knee against his other thigh. There was no doubt that it was Hoya. He felt him slightly only but he knew. He always recognized the one he loved, even when his heart did not beat from the desire to feel him close.

"Woohyun."

The murmur of his boyfriend brushed against his cheek, causing him to shiver. He turned his head to show he wanted to remain silent but Hoya took the opportunity to put his lips on his exposed neck. WooHyun almost growl of discontent. He smiled. This little jerk was smiling. They were arguing and he almost abusing him, smiling. Openly making fun of him.

"Hoya it's not the right time. Leave me alone. "

The dancer completely ignored his request and continued to kiss his neck, his jaw, his cheek, his temple, his forehead. While his hands slowly down on the light T-shirt of his lover, he opened his eyes and repeated what he had to say:

"I told you to leav--. "

WooHyun cursed himself for being so weak. Weak to not be able to push the rapper who took great care of his lips for a few seconds, aware of the effect it gave him. Their tongues caressed for a long time before Hoya recovers.

"We need to talk, Nam WooHyun.
- I have nothing to say.
- It's not a problem, I have plenty to say. "

The singer looked away. He did not know beforehand what Hoya was going to say but he knew that nothing would please him in his speech.

"Our relationship is not new and yet I've never understood why you were so jealous. Above all, I never understood why you wanted me to be jealous, too. Because it's really not my type. I know you too well , WooHyun. If you ever wanted to see someone else, by respect, you would tell me it's over between us before. So until you tell me anything, I consider that you still love me. That's why after a few months, you make me still confused when you try to make me angry. Even if I love you with all my heart and I know you very well, I never managed to solve this mystery. You never told me anything that would put me on the way. I thought II was an idiot and maybe I didn't know you that much. So I called your brother.
- YOU DID WHAT? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? - cried the singer. -
- Do you want to rouse the whole neighborhood? Shut up a bit. We still would be both in our corner if I didn't do that. And in case you did not know it yet, being away from you is unbearable for me. So I called your brother and even though I was not proud of it, I think I did well. I would never guessed on my own and I know you would never confessed.
- Get out of this room.
- Certainly not. I know it's going to hurt you but you have to hear. Your brother told me about your father. He was never there because of his work, right? And your mother interacted with strangers on Internet to compensate for the lack of her husband presence. She cheated on him several times and he never said anything, perhaps he himself was cheating on her and no longer loved her. That is why she filed for divorce after a few years. "

Seeing the tears on his lover's cheeks, Hoya thought he was right.

"Your vision of love found itself turned upside down after that, right? Your father never showed jealousy so you think being jealous can keep a couple alive. You think if I'm not jealous, I'll do like him and you'll have to leave me to not suffer from lack of love? "

The singer looked everywhere but not at him. He was looking for a loophole. When he began a gesture, Hoya held him firmly.

"Look at me, WooHyun. I don't blame you to think that, I do not think you're ridiculous and I do not think this is absurd. I just wished you tell me before so I would take care of you. What's the point giving you all my love if you do not tell me what can hurt you? When we love, we share the good and bad, right? "

A little silence fell around them and WooHyun hid his face behind his hands. He did not know at all how he should respond to these questions. He did not know the feeling they gave him. Happiness, shame, relief, anxiety? Maybe all at once, perhaps other emotions. It was too much for him. Too much. Hoya just lowered all the barriers he had endeavored to keep. The worst part about this was that he was no longer mad at Hoya. He wanted to get lost in his arms until he died, he wanted to get drunk of its smell and its kissing. He sealed their lips in a kiss before the dancer pushes him gently.

"WooHyun, it's not a great speech that will solve our problem. Today you are reassured because I just told you that I love you but tomorrow you'll start over. I want it to stop. I can live with your jealousy but I do not want you to suffer that much when there is no reason for it. "

The singer sighed lightly. His heart swelled to better accommodate Hoya's pleasant words but he knew himself that there was no quick fix. Nothing could change, he had grown up with all these certainties and Hoya could try as best as he could, he will always believe it, somewhere in his heart. He had built his life from it and although it is false bases, they kept his identity.

" Woohyun.
- We have no choice, Howon. I'm like that. I was shown this form of love throughout my adolescence. I know now that's wrong but that's a part of me. You can not ask me to deny it.
- I'm not asking you to deny anything, I ask you what we can do about it. It can takes time but with patience and love, I know I'll end up make you understand that I did not need to be jealous to want to end my life with you. "

WooHyun tried several times to say something but each sentence that cames on his mind was not equal to those of his boyfriend. Too upset from hearing the words he wanted to hear all day, the singer abandoned the idea of​answering and his shoulders sagged. The dancer gave him a charming smile before kissing him gently. He did not need WooHyun to speaks in turn, he just found a solution to their problem.





The next morning he woke up earlier than the vocal power of the group and went into the bedroom that his boyfriend shared with the leader. He gently woke SungKyu to tell him that the others were already waiting for breakfast. He assured him he would wake WooHyun also and looked at him going out of the room, hiding his smirk.

He crept close to his boyfriend and put his hand gently on his cheek. Before shaking his shoulder, he put his lips on his forehead. The singer was soon grunting and moving. As amiable as a bulldog, thought the dancer with an affectionate smile.
WooHyun's growl made​ him laugh. He lay against him and replied, amused:

"I agree to be boring but I do not know since when my name is SungKyu! "

The singer laughed in turn before taking him in his arms, not without keeping his eyes closed.

"He's always the one who wakes me up, I got used to yell at him. "

Hoya grinned and then buried his head in his neck.

"Habits can be changed. You're going to be used to yell at me, from now on!
- Huh? "

This time, WooHyun eyes were open. The dancer stood up to kiss him on the corner of the lips.

"Starting today, it's me who'll wake you up every morning.
- What are you doing? WooHyun smiled, euphoric at the prospect of a daily morning hug. Why now?
- Because I want to. Now, get up or you'll have to run like crazy to be on time! "

Completely lost, the singer stared his boyfriend joining the others. He scratched his head and followed him. Really, what happened to him? The day before, they were commiserating about their fate and there Hoya seemed overjoyed at the slightest little thing?





WooHyun fell to the ground, almost lifeless. He grabbed the water bottle that Dongwoo handed him unconsciously and took a sip. Had he known more grueling as rehearsal? A quick glance to the other members slumped against a wall, chair, mirror, or even on the floor like him, told him no. He sighed a good shot, closing his eyes, exhausted and breathless.

"WooHyun Hyung, I think it's your phone who just ringing. "

The singer sat up and stared SungJong who came to talk to him. The magnae was pointing to his bag, so he rose with difficulty and reached its iPhone. New post: Hobaby. He almost burst out laughing. Since when Hoya was in its directory under the name 'Hobaby'? And since when he sent him a message in rehearsal? He opened it anyway, expecting the worst ...

In reality, his heart melted like snow as soon as his eyes rested on Hoya's words. He turn around and looked for his gaze. The dancer was ending to show a dance movement to SungYeol, he turned to him a few moments before picking a bottle of water and seeing his boyfriend's face, his cell phone in hand, he sent him a bright smile .

"Spring is beginning to replace the winter so let's take advantage of it to go walking around the city after the rehearsal. Manager hyung said it would end at the same time as usual but as you are a very bad dancer, you'll stay with me in the dance hall to repeat until you get it correctly, right? "

"WooHyun, pay attention to your arm! You get it up too early and bad! It's like that and not like that! cried SungKyu mimicking gestures as he spoke.
- Let Hyung, I'm on it, Dongwoo intervened before turning to their friend. Don't forget to count two times before restarting. I think you miss an account and that's why you're starting too soon. Then you lift your arm...
- Dongwoo Thanks, I'll explain him the rest.
- But I told him almost nothing, Howon ... Dongwoo replied, puzzled.
- You're tired so go sit a bit, okay? the dancer insisted on a firm tone. "

WooHyun attended the scene in disbelief. Was Hoya jealous when he saw that Dongwoo touched his arm to explain?



"WooHyun, I do not know what got into you but you dance really badly today. "

Retaining his smile, WooHyun intercepted the amusement in Hoya's eyes and answered to the leader:

"I know, I can not do it. I'm too tired. Come on, dance is hard and we're training since the afternoon. I know them, these steps! It's just that I'm exhausted.
- We all are, WooHyun. Do not look for excuses, you have to work. You'll stay here and you'll train until you have mastered it to perfection. I want everything to be perfect tomorrow when we'll repeat together. "

The singer sighed in exasperation. SungKyu was so sweet but when he began to play its leadership role, he was too serious. He was worse than their manager sometimes. He was about to launch a stinging reply to his elder but a hand was laid on his shoulder.

"Hyung Sorry but I am the best dancer in the group and I think WooHyun is doing well.
- Did I asked you your opinion?
- SungKyu, stop, you can talk in an other way to Hoya.
- You piss me off, WooHyun. And you too, Hoya, cut the leader. So since you're the best dancer of this group, you'll stay with him. You do not return as it is not perfect and if you ever made a single mistake tomorrow, I'll cut your head with the kitchen knife Myungsoo brought back from Japan! "

His voice grew in volume as SungJong pulled him toward the exit to get him to stop his threats. Chuckling, Hoya approached WooHyun. He had no time to talk because the magnae burst into the room at the same time.

"Sorry guys! In my haste, I forgot my business and SungKyu could not take his own! Well, that's good. Have fun and practice a little at least, it would be great you to stay alive after the rehearsal tomorrow! "

WooHyun stared at him, mouth open in surprise, under the dancer's laugh.

"Did you hear that? exclaimed the singer when SungJong was gone. It is truly our little cute magnae who just said that? How did he know?! "

Hoya slipped his arm around his waist and gently kissed his lips.

"He is not as innocent as he looks, that's all.
- Speaking of innocence, can you tell me what kind of game you're playing? "

The dancer looked at Woohyun's little smile calmly. He had expected this reaction. The singer does not deny that he was pleased but they knew it was not at all in the character of Hoya.

"I don't see what you mean ...
- Oh stop, I can almost see the halo above your head, WooHyun quipped.
- Anyway, watching you pretend to miss your dance steps is quite comical.
- Heee, but tell me!
- Kiss me instead of fighting. "

The dancer didn't need to ask twice.
A few kisses later they were both lying on the ground, Woohyun between Hoya's legs, his head on his chest.

"Where do you want to go? Cinema, amusement park, karaoke, shopping center?
- You really do not want to tell me huh ...
- What? Asked ​Hoya ​innocently.
- Everything you did today. Waking me up, the message during our rehearsal, your jealousy when Dongwoo touched my arm, your lie so we can get a little together ... "

Hoya gave him a big smile before placing his lips gently on his forehead.

"It is only the beginning ..."