This life I am in now is indeed very different from my point of origin.
How I am in Korea is way more different than how I was in Japan.
I was always afraid to stand out and be judged from where I came from,
but now, I had to show my full potential,
and it scares the crap out of me.

I am so used to being just in the background.
Somebody complementary to the scenery that only follows the leader,
the one who would always perform every instruction to the T.
And yet, here I am now encouraged to share my every point of view.

What if I commit a mistake?
What if my opinion isn't that good enough?
What if I talk nonsense or sound mediocre?
What if they make fun of me or my ideas?

I honestly have so many doubts and fears in my heart.
Which always stops me from giving my all.

It's not that I am complaining.
I know that this is the life that I've always wanted.
It has always been my dream to become an Idol.
But in all honesty, I am having a hard time adjusting to this new me.

There is a big difference between a fantasy of roses made out of dreams,
and the thorns of life's reality.

Never have I thought that my life would end up this way.
I guess an Idol's basis of survival is not only his or her talent
as explained by PD' Nim in one of his life sessions with us.
Talent is not just based solely on a person's skill,
but rather, it is based on the being that it belongs to
and the values that ar