Staring at my phone at my phone waiting for him to call.

We've been like this for so long we fought and no one will say sorry,

we will not talk for days until i say sorry, and honestly its kinda tiring its like it's just only me who wants this relationship last. 

I knew that we are already at the edge but i just keep on pulling him back so he wont fall on that cliff and leave me alone hangging.

I lean back  on my seat and stare at the cieling.

Should i make this work? Or should i let him go? Easy to say but hard to do specially for me.

I close my eyes to stop my tears from falling. I cant let my feeling show. 

knock knock

"Darashi we will be filming at 2"

I inhaled i cant let this feeling eat me now. 

I stared at my reflection o tried to smile but as i stare at those eyes i cant tell even though i look happy my eyes look empty.

I shook my head since when? When it all started? I was happy, no were happy but why?

I just inhaled and close my eyes again trying to calm  my feelings.

As i opened my eyes i this is not me anymore i miss my old self.

The cheerful happy dara.

I miss the old us.

i need to return into my old self the ball of sunshine dara.

I dont know this girl that staring at