Hello everyone~

I'm back with a oneshot I wrote for the writersclub on GOT7 Amino and the project was #Utropea

We got to choose 3 different difficulty and within these difficulty different AU’s and miscellaneous tropes and here is what I chose”

Difficulty III: 1 AU (Soulmate AU) + 2 miscellaneous trope (Hurt/Comfort + Huddle for Warmth)

Had this idea once at night when I couldn’t fall asleep hope you will like it.

Mona

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With trembling hands the man in front of the screen started the video that had been waiting to be played for a few minutes now. He didn’t know what that video would show him but it scared him. He was afraid that he wouldn’t be strong enough, not after the past 24 hours. Not after this box filled with flash drives, pictures and notes was handed to him. Handed to him with a sad smile. But they wouldn’t lose hope just now.

‘Hey there.’

The video started. It showed the man he had met just a couple of weeks before.

The man that had showed him what he had read so much about in his books.

The happiness, the growing fondness and even those moments in which he hadn’t been able to say what he felt. Just a few days ago he wouldn’t have been able to say what it was. He hadn’t believed into all these legends. But that was different now. Now at this moment he knew what those feelings had been and why it hurt so much just thinking about them now. He had fallen in love. Fallen for the person who had showed him what it meant to stand in a ray of bright sunshine. Who showed him that even flaws were likable.

The man in the video, looked sad and hesitant into the camera.

‘I’m sorry. I know what it means when you are watching these videos. I’ve got my diagnosis a few months back and started my therapy already by the time you’ll see this. I even already had my discussion with that surgeon even if he said they won’t be able to operate on me anytime too soon hoping the therapy will work for the moment.’

Yes, he knew about this. The man had gone through different therapies all in hopes to reduce that thing in his brain. That thing that according to their doctors has been growing faster between the last three scans prior to the operation. Growing faster in the past 9 months.

‘I know that if I really have to get operated, there will be three options on how everything can go according to my doctor. And since you’re obviously watching this, it sadly isn’t the good option. If it’s the second one. I can only hope that I will be strong enough to heal with time. That knowing I have my family and you my soulmate by my side. I asked my doctor about this option about how much time he thinks I would need to heal. But he wasn’t able to answer that.’

With every word he heard the other talk he felt his chest tightening more and more. He felt how the tears he had thought he could not cry anymore, not after all these hours, well up in his eyes again.

Felt them flowing down his cheeks. It just hurt so much. Even more to know that the man, knew so well how things could go. How the male prepared these videos just in case. And how he got to know the other so well in the past weeks that he knew why he did that. He knew that he would need something to hold on either way it would go. That even if they haven’t been together that long, never been able to talk about any future plans because of this. That neither of them had been able to say these three words to the other because they both had been scared to hurt the other if the worst case would come.

‘We haven’t met just now. According to my clock we will meet in two weeks and even if I am tired from all of this. I am so excited to meet you. To get to know the person who is meant to be my other half, my soulmate. But I am also scared because of this. Of meeting that person and most probably hurt said person. And I am not someone who can just act like I won’t do that. But you maybe know that by now. But I am also scared about what would happen if everything goes well. I haven’t really been able to think about the future and what I want to do with my life. Not after hearing how dangerous the operation could be and what side effects could follow.’

A small smile appeared on the man’s face watching the video. Yes, that was the person he had got to know. A person who didn’t want to hurt anyone. Who rather held on to something and have to endure that pain by himself. A man who in all their shared moments never said that he was scared about either way it would go. But it also made him sad hearing that the other, in all this time after knowing about that thing in his brain, was afraid of simply dreaming about the future.

‘But back to why I make these videos. I will try to make as many as I can not just for you but for my family too. I want to tell you and show you who I am. Let you know the things I might not be able to do in person. And no there aren’t two different videos for the bad option or the worse option. Both options have the same videos. Let’s just hope that the worse option won’t be the reason you’re watching this. Let’s hope and fight for it to be the bad option and hope it won’t be that bad in the end. That I will wake up after healing.’

The video ended abruptly like that. Confused the man stared at the screen.

Anxious, confused, hurt, sad. Emotions that had been with him for the past whole day. But he also felt a little better just hearing the other's voice, even if it hurt so much it was still better than not hearing it at all. And he knew that he had to head back to the hospital soon. Back to the other's side and to his parents who had to send him home after they had handed him the box and with the words he should go home clean up and get some sleep. That their son wouldn’t run away. Their eyes showed how scared they had been and still were, but they also showed how they had cried after hearing the first bad news on that day from the surgeon. But they had also heard something good from him. And thus held on. But he didn’t want to sleep here alone. He just wanted to be by the other’s side for now. Fastly he packed a bag with fresh clothes and some other utensils so that he could stay there for a few days.

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“We finished the surgery just a few minutes ago. Your son will be back in his room shortly but before you head there, I need to talk to you.” The doctor had looked at the pair next to him while talking his eyes wandered to him.

“This is only for direct family, sir. I am sorry but would you please go back to the waiting area?” the doctor had asked him directly.

“He is my son’s soulmate, and he already feels like a son to me. So he will stay with us to hear what you want to tell us.” His soulmates father had said, his wife had reached out to him while he had been talking. But she hadn’t just reached for her husband's hand but also his and had held on tightly. As if she wanted to show him that she agreed with her husband.

“Alright, then do you want to come to my office it may take a couple of minutes.” He remembered the doctor saying.

They had followed the doctor to his small office and had taken seats in the chairs designated for them. With a calm voice the doctor had told them, that they had removed the cancer but had some bleedings they had problem stopping with during the surgery.

“As you know the cancer’s location was between the temporal lobe which is involved in the appropriate retention of visual memory, language comprehension, and emotion association and the occipital lobe which is the visual processing center of the mammalian brain containing most of the anatomical region of the visual cortex.” Luckily he had heard this before from his soulmate so all those medical terms and description made sense to him. And thus the doctor was able to keep on talking without having to explain further into what they meant.

“This means in short both regions have mostly to do with processing what we see, hear and remember. And the place we located the bleeding from was the occipital lobe, we were able to stop the bleeding but as for now we don’t know if there will be any constant damage to that area or not. And because of the bleeding and the time we had to stop it, we had to put Youngjae into a medically induced coma. We hope that with the medications and the time his brain needs to heal he will wake up with no further complications. This does