Bittersweet
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INSPIRED BY A SPECIFIC PART IN THE SONG BITTERSWEET BY KANYE WEST FT. JOHN MAYER...
Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me
I dont want you, but I need you,
I love you and hate you at the very same time
See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad
Never did this before, thats what the said
We've been generally warned, thats what the surgeon says
God talk to me now this is an emergency
And my nigga says I shouldn't let her worry me
I need to focus on the girls we gettin currently
But I've been thinking and it got me back to sinking it
This relationship, it even got me back to drinking now
This Hennessey, is gon be the death of me
And I always thought that you havin my child was our destiny
But I can't even vibe wit you ually
Cause every time that I try you will question me
Say "you in them girls, disrespecting me?
You don't see how your lies are affecting me?
You don't see how our life was supposed to be?
And I never let a nigga get that close to me!'
And you ain't cracked up to what you was supposed to be!
You always gone! You always be where them hoes would be!"
And it's the first time she ever spilled her soul to me!
I ed up and I know it G
I guess it's bittersweet poetry
Foreword
Bittersweet... our love... it was bittersweet...
I thought back to the past...
Whenever I was with her it would show as if I didn’t care about her at all. I knew how cold and insensitive I came off to her. Even when I was with her, I would go to bars and clubs as usual, flirt and hook up with other women as usual, be cold to her as usual, pretend as if I didn’t care about her feelings as usual, forget important dates with her as usual, and break promises that I made with her like usual.
I’d hurt her feelings only to come back to her and pretend as if I had done nothing at all. I lie to her, get mad at her, and I had almost done every possible thing a jerk could possibly do to his girlfriend but deep inside me there was this very distinct feeling that screamed out to me the very truth that I had learned to love her, I loved her, I had fallen in love with her... real bad. A feeling I had never really realized its importance until she was no longer within my grasp. She had slipped in between my parted fingers. I know clearly well that it was I who pushed her away, I who made her decide to once and for all, walk past that door and leave me.
I guess you could call me an idiot. All I had done was to bring her pain even with knowing that I had already loved her to an endless extent. I ed up and I know it. I clearly know how much I ed up with our relationship and how ed up my life now was, after she had raised the white flag and left me.
I shot another glass of tequila at my empty condo’s bar. My messed up room showed the exact definition of how messed up I was inside out. I had been living like this for 5 tormenting months.
My love for her was truly bittersweet.
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Got bored and wrote this just now. I love skydragon. Writers please write more skydragon fics and if you're bored then try one shots they're short, direct, and may surprisingly turn out really good. Anyway goodnight:)
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