♫The Story Only I Didn’t Know - IU

Hardly opened, I felt bare sunlight coming straight to my eyes and reducing my eyesight. I tried to close it with both hands, but it hurts a lot.

“You~ better go die, my son died because of you, my only son! How dare you were still in a relationship with him, don’t you remember how I object it very much! What should I do now..? Take him back!”

I tried to move a bit to avoid the sunlight and see who’s yelling at me, but I feel pain across my body that I failed to move. I felt familiar with the voice who yelled suddenly as I just woke up from a long hibernation, it just that I couldn’t remember whose voice it was.

“Wake up, say something! You killed my son, didn’t you? What do you want? Don’t you remember how I begged you to stay away from my son, huh? I told you we have nothing so please stay away but you didn’t and now~ you’ve just killed him, are you insane?”

She kept yelling nonsense at me. I did ignore her for a moment to position myself so I could sit comfortably and recognize things, right before a man’s arm stopped me and laid me back to my bed instead. He closed the curtain, made sure to cut the sunlight coming straight to my eyes.

“Thanks,” I huskily grated him, with my body turned shivering all time as if I had something unpleasant in my mind, a more hurting one to compare it with the pain I once felt on my face. That boy went behind the woman, held her wrist tight ensuring that she wouldn’t fall because of sobbing hard.

That woman… about in her 40s, she kept pointing at me but I didn’t know who she is.

“Excuse me, who are you? And is this hospital? I can sense medicines that I hate them so much” I asked them while finding me being infused with a pack of liquor I couldn’t define its name.

“What happened with me? Am I seriously injured?”

They widened their eyes, I wondered if there was something wrong with my questions.

“Don’t tell lie and never act as if you get blinded! Park Booyoung, you are the one who take my son away and killed him in an accident two days ago, those are why I’m sitting here waiting for you to take any responsibilities!” The woman said, still sobbing hard. She put her hands closing her eyes, hiding her messy face which seemed to haven’t been washed like two or three days long. Same goes to her clothes: white shirt, coat, a simple brown handbag, and a bruised black wedge. Her style simply shows how rushing she was.

“I can’t get your words, what do you mean? Excuse me, do I know you?”

Sighing, I closed my eyes tracking back my mind to find what actually happened. It was puzzling. Everything went blurred. I couldn’t remember anything except a man smiling and gently holding my right hand tight. I loved the way he smiles at me. I loved how his smile warms me even if I couldn’t remember who exactly that guy was. He looked like 25 years old, his mature smile told me that.

In a minute, my mind getting collapsed since I couldn’t find the accident thingy the woman told me and made me feel dizzy all of sudden. Thought I’m in a condition where I couldn’t think much.

“Ah~” shrieked me as I shut my mind down. I pulled the blanket up covering entire body and tried to close my eyes as soon as possible.

I could hear footsteps going away from that pretty designed room before someone coming back in and softly whispered on me,

“Are you okay? I’m sorry for causing your head hurts…” He paused his sentence, took some steps away from my bed.

“The doctor already told us that you’d possibly lose your memories, it just that that woman couldn’t accept the fact that his only son died… never mind that, you will get your memories back soon while you are recovering.”

I could hear his footsteps, he was coming closer.

“For you not to get confused, my name is Lee Hongki and she’s my mother. His died son she mentioned earlier was my younger brother, Lee Shin…”

I pulled my blanket to face him and saw him smirked a bit.

“Do you know me?”

“You’d get to know the answer soon as you recover yourself. It’s painful if I tell you now. I will just give you this… I wonder if you even forget your own house.” He put a piece of paper in the desk beside my bed, the place where things like white bruised coat are put. They should be mine.

“Get well soon, I’m off…”

I felt empty. Blank. I had so many things to ask but words couldn’t come out as tears flowing suddenly. I was losing something I don’t know. I didn’t even know my heart. It all ended with my eyes getting wetter.

The time I was physically recovered and was able to comeback home, I could sense the loneliness growling my body. Nobody had visited me on the hospital. Nobody had contacted me so far. Nobody had missed me. Nobody had worried of me. And this is where my story starts, a voyage trip to fill my empty soul with endless hope.

∞

She closes her notebook, puts her black pen aside and blankly stares outside the window. It’s pouring hard outside and she can’t go home with no umbrella but stuck at the café, sipping a cup of hot tea being served by a pretty young woman employed in that café where she already get used of visiting like every free afternoon. She likes sitting alone in one of their sofas, thinking of something or writing stories. She isn’t a writer though, just that writing is pleasing her.

The story she wrote just now is a remake version of her own life. She’s Park Booyoung, a 22 years old woman who used to have a boyfriend whom she loved so much, the only man who pleased her gently with his charm and kind-hearted manner namely Lee Shin. But he’s gone; right a week before their engagement party.