HERES TO MAKE UP WITH THE ANGST. ENJOOOOOOY.

 

 

Today was supposed to be our 12th anniversary.

 

We we're supposed to be already living together.

Maybe even married with a kid.

 

We we're supposed to go to our favorite restaurant drinking wine, eating a well done steak, stuffing our mouth with cakes while taking care of our child.

 

 

But no.

 

 

I ruined it all.

 

 

Dreams all ruined.

 

 

Just because of a simple "Hello."

 

 

 

I am now working as a barista in a coffee shop.

I quited around 5 years ago and moved into another town.

I just can't live there anymore.

Every corner of that town is filled with our memories together.

 

 

Everything reminds me of her.

 

 

It hurts.

 

 

It still hurts now that I can't hold her in my arms.

 

 

Another reason is Bambam move in my workplace and still tried to pursued me.

I still managed for a month, but when he followed me home, I can't take it anymore.

 

 

I never loved anyone aside from her. So here I am, still loving the one I broke.

 

 

 

 

"Mina. Don't forget to turn off the breaker when you close." Jeongyeon, the owner of the shop said.

"You're leaving now?" I asked.

"Yeah." She said while typing on her phone. "Can't get the bunny mad."

"Ahh. Right. It's for your wedding?"

She nodded.

 

 

How Lucky.

 

 

 

"Okay. Say hi to her for me." I smiled.

"I will." She then, left.

 

 

It's now around 7 pm. Just 2 more hours to go home and cry my pathetic self, again.

 

 

My mind wander into her again.

I wonder where she is now?

Is she taking care of herself?

Has she already opened her own galler? I wanna see it so bad.

I wanna see her so bad.

 

 

"Miss???? Hello?"

I snapped back to reality when suddenly, someone was snapping their fingers in front of me.

"Ah. I'm sorry, I got deep into my thougths."

She laughed. "Yeah, you didn't even notice me come in." She smiled.

 

God. This georgeous woman.

 

.....

 

Wait.

 

Isn't she the Most Beautiful Woman in the world?

I widened my eyes at the realization.

 

 

"I-I *cough* Wh-what can I get you maam?"

 

The hell, I'm stuttering.

 

 

Well, who wouldn't when the Finest Chou Tzuyu was in front of you.

 

She giggled.

 

"Can I get 2 chocomilk? And a......... this one. *She pointed at the cake inside the counter. And........ one straberry frappe and a strawberrycake." She smiled.

 

 

Strawberry.....

 

 

"Would that be all?" I asked.

"Yes." She replied, still smiling, showing her dimple.

 

God, This woman.

 

"That would be 87$"

 

"Ahh! Would you mind adding extra straberry syrup on the strawberry frappè?" She asked.

 

I smiled and nodded.

 

It's her favorite drink. I remembered.

I mean, how could I forget.

I miss her so bad.

 

 

 

"Eommaaaaaaa!!!" A kid suddenly entered the cafe along with.......

 

 

I wonder if the universe is playing with me.

 

Cause there she is, entering while holding the kid.

 

 

"Yah! Don't move too much!" She grumbled.

 

 

Damn. this universe.

 

 

I gave the change to Tzuyu and told her to sit for a while and I will serve it.

 

 

They sat beside the window.

 

 

Always her favorite seat.

 

 

I served their order and when she saw me, her eyes widened.

 

While serving their order, I can feel her gaze, never leaving me.

 

 

Stop playing with me, you already got this georgeous woman in front of you, with a kid.

 

 

 

I tried to hold the pain.

 

 

 

"Enjoy." I put my best smile and quickly left.

 

 

 

I ran to the stock room, and there, I let out the tears that was insisting on escaping.

 

 

 

I'm so pathetic.

 

 

 

After a while, I made sure my appearance is okay and went back to the counter.

 

From there, I can see her smiling.

Laughing.

Playing with the child.

Taking care of the woman and the kid.

I held it in.

 

 

 

Just 2 more hours.

 

 

 

After eating, they left.

 

I felt my tears stream down while cleaning.

 

I really am pathetic.

 

I should be the one in that spot.

 

But yeah, I ruined it all.

 

 

 

I closed the shop and took the back door to leave.

 

Is the universe really this cruel to me? I can't handle this much pain in a day.

 

 

I ignored her and locked the door. When I was about to leave, she called.

 

"Mina."

 

I looked at her and saw the longing in her eyes.

 

Don't be a fool Mina. Don't get your hopes up.

 

 

I still ignored her and turned the alley.

She followed me.

 

"Mina. Let's talk." 

I still ignored her and continued walking

Then I felt her grab my wrist and pin me on the wall.

 

"Minari...." she called lovingly.

I can feel my tears again.

 

"Don't do this, Chaeyoung...." I weakly stated.

"Don't do what?" She asked holding my hand.

 

I quickly retracted it.

 

As much as I want to hold her, I don't want her to be a pathetic like me.

 

I don't want her to do the same thing I did.

 

"This!" I snapped.

 

I was crying and she just looked at me, longing still evident in her eyes.

Those eyes that I used to drown in.

 

That nose that I used to poke.

 

Her plumpy lips I used to kiss.

 

Things I used to do that, now, I can't ever do again.

 

 

"Stop that!"

"Stop what?" She asked.

"THAT! LOOKING AT ME AS IF YOU LOVE ME!"

 

 

It ing hurts. 

 

 

"Mina-"

"I AM SUCH A FOOL. OF COURSE YOU WOULD FIND SOMEONE BETTER THAN ME. IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS. OF COURSE YOU HAVE MOVED ON"

"Mina-"

"I am so stupid thinking that I could still make you mine! I am such an idiot for still loving you after all these years! I mean who am I?"

"MINA!"

"I am just a stupid woman who cheated on-"

 

Suddenly, her lips crushed onto mine.

 

I tried resisting but she was stronger.

 

I tried punching her chest but she held it still.

 

After a while, I gave in. Pouring all my feeling into this kiss.

 

We parted panting.

 

I cried even more.

 

"What are you doing...."

 

"Happy anniversary. Mina."

 

 

My heart clenched. She still remembered our anniversary.

 

"Please Don't do this. Chaeyoung. You have a family! You have a kid!"

 

"She's not mine. I tried explaining earlier, but you snapped." She smiled.

 

Those dimples that I miss.

 

She held my hands and leaned her forehead on mine.

 

"Good to know that you still love me after a long time."

 

"How could I not. You are the best thing that ever happened to me."

 

We stayed like that for a while.

 

 

I miss this.

 

 

"So you are interested on woman with a child now?"

 

"What?" She chuckled.

 

"Is she not your girlfriend?"

 

"The heck no!" She pulled.

 

"Sana unnie will kill me."

 

I thought for a while.

 

"Sana? As in Minatozaki? My best friend?"

 

she chuckled again.

 

"Yeah. We stayed in touch ater you moved."

 

 

She looked at me. Tucked my hair behind my ear.

"You're so mean you know. Not telling your Best friend where you moved."

 

".......I'm sorry."

"I still celebrate our anniversary at the restaurant you know. Hoping you would show up." She pecked my lips. "Happy twelveth anniversary."

 

"But..... we broke up...."

 

She sigh.

 

"Mina...... I still can't understand why you moved, but now..... you are so smart and so stupid at the same time."

 

I looked into her eyes.

 

"I asked for space. Not for break up. I would never give you up for the world."

 

She kissed the back of my hand.

 

"I wanted to fix our relationship so bad. But before that, I have to fix myself first. When I felt like I'm in a good condition, I went to your apartment, but you're not there. I even went to your work. But you resigned. So I contacted Sana unnie. That's when I learned you moved. I searched for you everywhere. That is why I'm here. To get what is mine back." She smiled

 

I cried even more.

 

What did I do in my past life to deserve her.

 

"Why would you want me back? I cheated on you! Chaeyoung. You're even with the most beautiful woman in the world!"

 

"And again, Sana unnie would kill me. And, why would I want the most beautiful person in the world, when I have a person who can make my world the most beautiful." She smiled and She hugged me.

 

She grew taller by the way.

 

"Then the kid...."

 

she sighed.

 

"Where have you been all this time, you didn't show up at her wedding, Sana unnie's she will kill you for sure."

"Then the kid..."

"Yes it's hers."

 

I pulled back.

 

I stared at her.

 

"I thought you already have a family. I thought I ruined my dream to have a family with you, to get married with you. I tho-" she silence me again with a kiss.

It's just a slow, gentle kiss.

But it's enough to make my stomach churn.

 

"You will get that dream tonight."

 

".........what?"

 

She nodded.

 

"I'm planning to marry you when I saw you. The thing is I never thought I would meet you in a cafe so I left it in the hotel. The ring."

 

I cried for the nth time

 

"Do you........ really...."

 

she wiped my tears. "Still a crybaby."

 

"What would you do If Im already married then! It's been five years!"

 

"I'm fine being a mistress."

 

I slapped her.

 

I love her.

 

Her dorkyness.

 

Her sweetness.

 

Her cheesiness.

 

Everything.

 

 

"I love you."

she said

I hugged her tight.

"I love you too."