Chapter 31: Freedom?

I couldn’t stand being in the room when they were acting like that. I felt sick to  my stomach, this was exactly what I was trying to avoid.

They wouldn’t pay attention to me! I screamed and screamed for them to stop. And as of now I gave up. I couldn’t handle the fact that maybe this fight might become something huge, and in return be something that is my fault.

I can't handle that, yes I may sound selfish, but to tell the truth I'm scared.

I like to hide away from the problems hoping it will go away by the time I come back. That’s why on my report card I get S (Satisfactory) for Problem Solving. Im a chicken.

But, at the same time I don’t think I can stay here any longer.

Somewhere deep down, I don’t feel like I fit in, and at the same time I feel as though I'm not wanted.

Or am I just manipulating myself? A manipulation that’s true intention is to leave this life and go to a normal one?  Yes it is.

I really need to go outside, experience the world, and clear my mind. Then I can comeback…if I'm still wanted. Right the answer to my problem is to go out and be free.

 Freedom for me, as well as the other members. They won't have to take care of me anymore and L and L.Joe….I wouldn’t cause anymore problems.

Yes, leaving is the right thing to do. I turned to the balcony door and ran, without one look back to the two men yelling.

I was running fast as