Hating You More

Aleah Point of View

 

It's moving on time, este morning time. Ahrg! My elbow still aches so bad when I forcely using my hand. 

Ahh! I have this great idea. 

I'm thinking while holding my ears. Let's say it's one of my habit.

Bago paman mawala ang ideya na 'yon. I dialed my Tita Corazon's number. The one who was incharged sa pamamahala ng school here sa Pilipinas at the same time she's my favorite ninang and the worst school  principal in the world.

Dahil hindi mo malalaman kung ano ang gagawin nito, kapag may nagawa kang kalokohan na ikakahiya ng school.

 

"Hello Ninang." Sabi ko dito at napapansin kong kumakain ito. Kaya nagsalita nalang ako kung ano ang dahilan ng pagtawag ko.

 

"Ninang, nabalitaan niyo naman po siguro ang nangyari sakin kahapon. That ing , pinahiya niya ako. I want her to get out of my school."

Mahirap minsan pakiusapan si Ninang. She had this right judgement in every decision na gagawin niya and taglay niya minsan ang maawaing puso. But she cannot resist when I say "please"

 

 

"Oh! I can't believed this Hija, by doing that you're just giving me a proof that you're easily to be beaten." I heard her laughing. 

 

"Just do what I said, kung hindi I will—" I paused, she's my favorite ninang pala.

"Ano Aleah? You will tell your Dad to replace me?" I heard her laughing so hard. 

 

"Eat more sacks of rice Hija, before you can do that!"

Pati ba naman ang matandang to, stress sa buhay ko.

 

Nag iisip na muna ako ng pweding sasabihin kay Ninang.

 

"That girl was the daughter of your Father's bestfriend Aleah and by doing that parang kinalaban ko narin ang Papa mo Hija!'' 

 

Ha? Anong bestfriend?

 

Binaba kona ang telepono. What I heard was enough.  Wala naman akong natatandaan na may bestfriend si Papa ha?

 

Teka lang, medyo mahihirapan yata akong ma kickout ito sa skwelahang pagmamay-ari ko. 

Ahrg!Thinking her makes me. Me!

Isip brain. 

Isip kapa siguro naman may igagana payan kasi umaga pa oh!

 

Bago pa masira ang buong araw ko, naisipan kong mag breakfast na muna. Pinagmamasdan ko ang paligid parang may nararamdaman akong kakaiba sa loob ng bahay parang nababalot ito ng misteryo,

choss and oa eh no? 

Romance to horror real quick ganun?

 

Eh kasi naman. It was my first time na hindi ako ginising ni Mama. I'm pretty sure nasa business trip na  naman sila.

"Hija Ale, may sulat ang mama mo, sabi niya ibigay ko ito pag gising mo." Sad face turned to a wide smile real quick.

 

Yes, the one who's in front of me right now was my new Yaya. Pinatalsik kona kasi iyong isang dating kasambahay dito dahil napakalandi eh. I caught her and  our previous driver na pinatalsik ko rin doing some mahahalay. Ginawa pa talagang motel tong bahay namin. Kaya, itong si Manang Ester isang pagkakamali lang neto. Tapos talagang usapan.

 

Kinuha ko ang sulat and binasa iyon. 

 

"My lovely Daughter, 

I am so sad in the way that I can't wake you up for your wonderful rest. We will return soon. Were here at Palawan meeting our new financial specialist from France. 

Message me when you wake up. 

Deal with yourself my treasure."

 

How so sweet of you Mama.

In response to her message, tenext ko na ito. I am so grateful to have her as my mother .

 

 

 

"Yaya, where's my food?"

Agad naman nataranta si Manang Ester na kinuha ang mga niluto niya na mga ulam at iniinit ito. Ahrg! gutom na ako eh.

 

After 1233 years.

 

I am getting ready na for school. I wear my white fitted school uniform shirt and blue necktie on it as usual, plus blue stripes short uniform skirt showing my long white legs. Supposedly the school rules must be the uniform under the knee. And the hellfire I care for these standards. Let's just talk about fashion here.

 

 

~Nakarating na'ko sa school. I saw lampa students again. And I gathered already the names of those students na sinang-ayunan ang pagkatalo ko and ang nerd na Secretary ng Student Council. Kailangan maturoan ng leskyon ang mga stress sa buhay ko.

 

Nakipagtalo pa ako sa buong Council kanina at sa President nila.

Ayun! nalaman ko may lihim na pagtingin pala ito sa Candy na iyon. Well, too bad sa relasyon nila cause I crushed her Candy already.

 

At dahil sa stress na kay-agang sumalubong. Tiningnan ko muna ang sarili ko sa beautiful mirror ko. 

 

"Wala pa namang wringkles!"

I caressed my face checking if there's any signs of wringkles dahil sa stress. "Ahh wala pa naman!" I sighed when I saw it's ing perfect.

Ang ganda ko talaga.

 

Holy crap! 

Napaigting nalang ako nang  may narinig akong nagsalita sa likod ko.

 

 

" Ang lakas ng hangin ngayon huh!" Eh sino ba ang asungot nato. I scanned his posture, face and entire being. Hmmm not bad! He had the looks and a killer smile. I saw him smiling looking at me. And the uniform of the school suits on him very well.

 

"I'm Stephen Hidalgo and you?" Inabot niya ang kamay neto kaya natameme naman ako. Another stress na naman bato? Ahrg!

For petesake stress, please be enough for this time!

 

"Excuse me?

Hindi moba ako kilala?"  Sabi ko dito pero hindi ko nalang hinintay ang sagot niya at hindi nalang pinansin, walk-out muna ang body ko. Palalampasin ko muna dahil may itsura.

 

"Hey! I really wanted to know your name. I saw you yesterday sa gate. And I can't stop thinking about you till now." He said.

 

Nalaglag naman agad ang panga ko sa early confession niya. Well, I'd heard a lot about that lies.

Same words, same face and same intentions.

 

"Pwedi ba, hindi ngayon? "

Muntik ko nang masabuntan ang sarili ko dahil sa mga taong mapapel ngayon sa buhay ko. Isa pang bruha na iyon.

 

"Please..?" Nangungusap na ang mga mata nito. Ang ipinagtataka ko, all students know me here. But why he didn't know me?

 

Binalingan ko lang ito at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad at sunod naman ito nang sunod at tila nagmamakaawa kulang nalang lumuhod ito sa harapan ko.

 

Well, I can't blame him. There's hundreds before him.

 

"Please Miss, I want to know your name. I want to know you better. I am a transferee at wala pa akong kaibigan dito ." He's smiling at tila nahihiya pang sabihin ito.

 

 

"Look, I am not interested in you. At isa pa—."

Naputol ang sinabi ko nang makita ko si Laiza papunta sa kinaroroonan namin. She's wearing a school uniform with  a volleyballs varsity color black jacket on her waist. Naka headset ito at nagbabasa ng libro. Why I found her so cute today?

 

"Hey! Are you alright?" Ay! nandito pa pala ako sa harap ng tagahanga ko. 

Iwan ko ba at ano ang nakain ko nang ngumite ako dito sa lalaking asungot nato at nilakasan ang boses ko para marinig ng bruha saying, I'm here still alive, notice me, I still don't forget what you've done.

 

"I'm Aleah Winston. I'm the only goddess here so make sure to kneel before me!" Bakas naman ang ngeti ni Stephen daw ang pangalan sa sinabi ko.

 

"I'll make sure to adore you with all my life." 

 

Teka! Oh My! napayakap ito ng mahigpit sakin.

Oh no!! Microbio stay away from me.

Nakita ko naman si Bruha na nakatingin sa amin. Naagaw ko pala ang attention niya. 

It's worth it. 

Maliligo nalang ako mamaya.

 

Nakipagplastikan nalang muna ako kay Stephen at hinintay na maka alis muna ang papalapit na bruha sa kinaroroonan namin na nagyayakapan. 

 

Bwesit! Why I'm doing this by the way?

 

When she's passing through us. I can smell her scent and it's making me smell her more. Its smells like a bunch of rose petals in a bowl that you wont take off your nose on it.

Mala-slow motion pa ang paglalakad nito na lumalapit.

At nagulat ako nang dahan-dahan nitong nilalapit ang mukha niya sa tenga ko. 

 

"Ang landi naman!" What?

Alam mo iyong feeling na kumulo agad ang dugo mo at hindi makapag salita?

 

At nang mawala na sa paningin ko ang bruha. 

Here I am pushing Stephen and giving her my evil look.

 

"I'm sorry, nadala lang ako. But, I am so happy Aleah!" He said na nakapagpakulo again sa dugo ko. Ahrg!

 

" Stop the nonsense. I will never ever consider you as a friend."

Napansin ko ang pag-iba kaagad ng awra niya at bago pa siya makapag salita. Umalis na agad ako.

 

~Pumasok na ako sa room ko. Accounting ang subject ko ngayon. The room was full of students na already. At tila ba ako nalang ang hinihintay para mag start. Lumingon- lingon naman ako sa paligid. At nakayuko lang ang mga ulo ng nga lampa students. Ganyan nga!

 

I saw a vacant seat sa likod. And when I got there I stretched my back before I sitted. Nakakatulong daw ito to relieved stress.

 

"Okay Mrs. Uchiha, you may start now the Queen was here!" I said to the woman who's standing in front of us. I guess she's a newbee here. How I know it? 

She's writing her name on the whiteboard and her face was new to me.

 

 

"Ohh.. sorry—." Nauutal na sambit niya. If I know, lampa din to. 

 

"Okay class. Let's start our first encounter with a question on what's the common purpose of taking a  Business Administration course.

Anyone in the class who would like to answer?"

 

Nakikinig naman ako sa mga lessons. Kasi hindi dapat sitting pretty lang. Gusto ko din naman ng fairplay. Except for the P.E subject. Hindi naman sa hindi ako sporty pero parang ganun na nga.

Eh sa ayoko lang kasi na makipagplastikan sa mga bagay na ayoko. Ayokong kausapin at ayoko sa mga pagmumukha nila.

 

Bago paman, may tumaas ng kamay para sumagot. Nagulat ako nang makita si Laiza na sinipa ng pinto sa loob na hinihingal pa. 

 

Another stress? Ahrg! I need to go to the doctor tomorrow.

Bakit classmate na naman kami?

 

"Sorry I'm late Maam!" This girl we had something in common. We don't care about what people say. We're not afraid of judgments and wala kaming hiya. 

 

"What's your name?" Mrs. Uchiha asked. Tumaas naman ang kilay ni Laiza.

 

"I'm Laiza Pr—." Hindi na pinatapos pa ni Mrs. Uchiha ang sasabihin pa sana ni Laiza. Ahuh! that's the rude part of you huh.

 

" Okay Laiza, since you're late. Can you answer my question?"

Hindi naman nag patinag si Laiza and she's giving us a statement by her facial expression that any questions will do.

 

"Again, what's the main purpose of taking a Business Administration course?"

Tingnan nga natin ang level of IQ mo Laiza Probst. Huminga muna ito ng malalim at confident na humarap samin. Nagkasalubong naman ang mga mata namin and I only gave her a death glare dahilan para mapatingin siya sa ibang direksyon.

 

"People with business administration degrees are being used in numerous parts hindi lang sa  business. There are so many sectors  like healthcare or including our government needs this kind of service and positions in their organizations. Students can learn about this subject that they can put into real setting that business administration programs have variety of settings and in a variety of roles, from accounting to human resources." She paused. 

"It's my opinion by the way." She added. 

 

Napa-nganga naman ang mga lalampa-lampa students sa sinabi niya at nag-palakpakan lang sila nang may isang pumalakpak and that was Mrs. Uchiha.

 

Sus para iyon lang!

 

Lumingon- lingon na din si Bruha. She's looking for a vacant seat. And I have a vacant seat sa left and right side ko.

Nilagyan ko ito ng bag. And the other chair ginawang tambayan ng mga paa ko.

And when she noticed what I'm doing. Inirapan niya lang ako.

 

"So relaxing!" I said and the lampa students giving me their sympathy look for Laiza.

Wow! Another stress ?

 

"Laiza, dito kana maupo oh!" Said the guy who had the guts to break the silence.

Umupo naman itong si Laiza without saying thank you dito.

 

What in the world!

 

 

What a boring day!

 

What a boring people.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I miss my inner peace.