You woke up because you heard a noise coming from the bathroom. You tried to ignore it and turned around in your bed. You stretched your arm out just to find the other side of the bed empty. Where was Hoseok, you asked yourself. While grabbing your phone you slowly sat up and took a glimpse at the screen. It was 6 in the morning and you rubbed your eyes. I’m going to get up and look for him, you mumbled to yourself and went out of the room. As expected you found Hoseok in the bathroom. He was standing in front of the mirror just wearing a towel wrapped around his lower body while brushing his teeth. „Good morning.“ You yawned and sat down at the edge of the bathtub. „Why are you up so early today, honey? It‘s Sunday.“ You yawned once again and waited for his answer. „I’m having a dance lesson with Su today because of our upcoming concert.“ He told you after he spit out the toothpaste. „Oh ok.“ You were a little bit surprised and also disappointed. „I thought we could have breakfast together today but I didn’t know that you have practice today.“ 

The two of you have been dating for almost six months now and you totally respected his work. You always understood when he couldn’t spend time with you because he had to be with BTS. The first times of your relationship it was easy for you to accept it especially because Hoseok always tried to spend enough time with you as it was possible for him. Whenever he had free time (which was sometimes really rare) he spent it with you and you did almost all the things other couples did. But in the last few months he distanced himself from you and you two spent less and less time together. It really made you sad but you didn’t want to express your feelings because being a part of BTS was his passion. You knew what you got yourself into when you started dating him and you never wanted to get between him and his biggest dream.

„I’ll see you later, babe. I’ll be back at around 7.“ He breathed a short kiss on your forehead and then he left the dorm. You sat on the bed and stared at the wall. Sometimes it was really hard for you dating an idol like him but on the other hand you just loved him way too much. You decided to get yourself ready and prepare breakfast for the other members who were still sleeping in the dorm.

„Woah, what’s that smell?“ A sleepy Jimin entered the kitchen and sniffed around. „I made breakfast for us.“ You turned around and gave him a big smile. One after another entered the kitchen and they all sat around the table. „Thank you for making breakfast for us, Y/N.“ Namjoon said to you and also the other members thanked you. At least a few persons appreciated your work. „Where is Hoseok?“ V suddenly asked. „He wrote me earlier that he’s practicing with Su today.“ Namjoon explained and you just stared at your plate. How much you wished that he was here right now and could have breakfast together with all of you. It has been such a long time since you spent time together.

After breakfast you started to think what you could do today. You didn’t want to make too many plans since you thought that you could spend time with Hoseok in the evening. Maybe reading a book would be a good idea to spend your time until J-Hope comes home. You remembered that Namjoon recommended a book a few days to you and so you went to his room.

„Yes?“ You heard his voice after knocking on his door and entered. „Ah Y/N, what’s up?“ He looked at you and you asked him about the book. He nodded, stood up and took the book out of his shelf. „Is everything ok, Y/N? He asked you while handing it to you. „Ehm, yes? Why are you asking?“ You looked surprised at him. „You seem sad today. Is it because of J-Hope?“ You didn’t say a word and looked on the ground. „You’re missing him, right?“ You still weren’t able to say a word and just nodded. „Did you tell him?“ „No.“ You shook your head. „I don’t want to make him feel bad. He should concentrate on his dream and I don’t want to stay in his way.“ A tear rolled down your face and Namjoon just nooded like he understood what you mean. „That’s really sweet of you, Y/N, but sometimes you should also express your feelings and tell people how you feel. It’s ok to look after other people but you shouldn’t forget your own happiness over all this. You should talk to him and tell him how you feel.“

You listened to his words and came to the conclusion that he was right. „Thank you. I think i will talk to him when he gets home. I’m going to prepare an awesome dinner, we can spend the evening together and then I can talk to him.“ You smiled at the leader. „Good idea, Y/N. I’ll make sure to get the boys out of the dorm today so you guys have time to yourself.“ He winked at you and you felt really happy now. Talking to him really made you feel better and now you couldn’t wait for the evening to come.

Dinner was almost ready and now you waited for him. The more time went by the more nervous you got. How should you tell him how you felt without making him feel bad? Would he understand you or would he just think that you wanted to stand between him and his dream? Time went by while you were reading the book. It was half past 7 and you started worrying if something happened to him. „The person you have called is temporarily not available.“ You looked at the screen of your phone and felt a tear running down. Did he really just forget about you? After one more hour of waiting you put the cold dinner in the fridge and went to bed. There wouldn’t be a use to wait any longer for him. While you were going to your room the other boys just came home again. „Hello and good night.“ You shortly smiled at them and threw yourself on the bed.

A knock on the door made you look up just to see Namjoon’s head in the door. „He didn’t come?“ You shook your head. „Don’t be too mad at him, ok? He’s just really eager with those dancing lessons because he wants to give his best.“ You nodded again and Namjoon wished you a good night but you could hear in his voice how sorry he felt for you.

When you woke up the other side of the bed was empty again. You felt a short pain in your heart but slowly you got used to this feeling. You got yourself ready and went into the kitchen. Nobody was there and you sat down at the table. Right in that moment you got a message from Namjoon inviting you to a coffee shop near the dorm. Obviously they all went out to have breakfast today. You took your bag and hurried to get there.

When he saw you entering the shop he waved at you and you went to their table. Surprisingly only him and Hoseok were sitting there. You looked confused when Namjoon stood up. „Finally, Y/N, now have a good time together.“ He hurried to leave the shop and you looked confused at Hoseok. „Have a seat, Y/N.“ Hoseok pointed at the empty chair and you sat down. The table was full with different food and beverages and you wondered what was going on. Suddenly Hoseok interrupted the silence: „Namjoon told me about your feelings. I am so sorry for not spending so much time with you in the past.“ He looked regretful on the table and you couldn’t hold you back anymore and grabbed his hand over the table. „Don’t be sorry, baby. Actually I’m sorry for feeling this way because it is just unfair to be such a burden for you.“ „You’re not a burden for me, honey.“ You took a deep breath. „But it’s selfish wanting more time with you when I know that your job is the most important thing in your life. I don’t want to stand between you and your dream.“ He tightened the grip around your hand and you looked in his eyes. „Y/N, you and Bangtan are all I ever wanted in my life and I couldn’t bare the thought to lose either one. I love you, Y/N, with all my heart.“ „I love you, too.“ You whispered. „Let’s spend the day together and in the future I will try to spend more time with you.“ He gave you his typical sunshine smile and you felt butterflies in your tummy. Surely, it would not always be easy to be with him but this man was worth all of it because you just loved him more than words could ever express.