Chapter 1: this hurts.. had something like this with my ex for 4yrs and a half.. she just changed. idk why.. hidden relationship is hard. coz she be going on.dates with other people without me knowing god knows. she be vanishing for a month or few weeks.. comes back without discussing me where she went. what she did. she gets mad when i ask her.. and i shut up bcoz im afraid to lose her. afraid that SHE SPLIT UP WITH ME. But as times goes by.. i felt like she's just toying with me. and i let her do that to me. I visited her home..where her family was in. AND IM TELLING YOU.. IT ING HURTS... TO SEE HER WITH A GUY.. SEEM TO BE INTIMATE WITH HER TOO. SHE ING SAW ME. she was shookt. i left bcoz i saw her..having no intention of coming to me. Driving my motorcycle for 4 hours is tiring. but as i say..my mentality that day is STONED. I WAS MAD AND CURIOUS BCOZ SHE HAD NO COMMUNICATION WITH ME FOR A MONTH! THEN THATS WHAT I SAW?! I WAS WORRIED TO DEATH! I can't cry in home. coz its hidden relationship. i cried in workplace during break time going home with alcohol in my system. fam thought i was on drugs. i just shrugged. Then she called, she just said "Hi" i told her "took u long enough. care to explain?" she goes "its nothing, you shouldn't juge me like that" i go "ok. so then why turning off your number for a month? without saying a word to me?" she said "i need time and space". I go "THIS IS THE 3RD TIME YOU DOING THIS TO ME! WHAT'S WRONG? YOU CAN TELL ME!" she goes "you can't help me". Then i still forgive everything. .she told me she cheated on me. I told her "kinda have that feeling. i know im not an exciting or cool person.. i forgive you coz i love you". THEN BULL HAPPEN MY BDAY NOV. SHE WERE NO WHERE TO BE SEEN OR HEARD. MY FRIENDS KNEW ALL THE THINGS HAPPENED TO US. They just comforted me as i cried on my bday. Then xmas and new year came..she aint still around. Then i saw her younger sibling.. she told me everything, her sister was in another country with her fiance(same guy i saw when i visited their hometown) for two months. Her sister thought i was her big sis bff... and she thought i knew the said event. i told her i didnt i was busy at work (i lied). his fics hit home..bcoz it was almost same as my last convo with her. i love her so much but i need to love my self. I ask her everything she seem hesitant to tell me so i split up for the sake of saving my self. Well this been a log comment sorry.
Chapter 1: this hurts.. had something like this with my ex for 4yrs and a half.. she just changed. idk why.. hidden relationship is hard. coz she be going on.dates with other people without me knowing god knows. she be vanishing for a month or few weeks.. comes back without discussing me where she went. what she did. she gets mad when i ask her.. and i shut up bcoz im afraid to lose her. afraid that SHE SPLIT UP WITH ME. But as times goes by.. i felt like she's just toying with me. and i let her do that to me. I visited her home..where her family was in. AND IM TELLING YOU.. IT ING HURTS... TO SEE HER WITH A GUY.. SEEM TO BE INTIMATE WITH HER TOO. SHE ING SAW ME. she was shookt. i left bcoz i saw her..having no intention of coming to me. Driving my motorcycle for 4 hours is tiring. but as i say..my mentality that day is STONED. I WAS MAD AND CURIOUS BCOZ SHE HAD NO COMMUNICATION WITH ME FOR A MONTH! THEN THATS WHAT I SAW?! I WAS WORRIED TO DEATH! I can't cry in home. coz its hidden relationship. i cried in workplace during break time going home with alcohol in my system. fam thought i was on drugs. i just shrugged. Then she called, she just said "Hi" i told her "took u long enough. care to explain?" she goes "its nothing, you shouldn't juge me like that" i go "ok. so then why turning off your number for a month? without saying a word to me?" she said "i need time and space". I go "THIS IS THE 3RD TIME YOU DOING THIS TO ME! WHAT'S WRONG? YOU CAN TELL ME!" she goes "you can't help me". Then i still forgive everything. .she told me she cheated on me. I told her "kinda have that feeling. i know im not an exciting or cool person.. i forgive you coz i love you". THEN BULL HAPPEN MY BDAY NOV. SHE WERE NO WHERE TO BE SEEN OR HEARD. MY FRIENDS KNEW ALL THE THINGS HAPPENED TO US. They just comforted me as i cried on my bday. Then xmas and new year came..she aint still around. Then i saw her younger sibling.. she told me everything, her sister was in another country with her fiance(same guy i saw when i visited their hometown) for two months. Her sister thought i was her big sis bff... and she thought i knew the said event. i told her i didnt i was busy at work (i lied). his fics hit home..bcoz it was almost same as my last convo with her. i love her so much but i need to love my self. I ask her everything she seem hesitant to tell me so i split up for the sake of saving my self. Well this been a log comment sorry.
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