Shattered

                                               One week later

Taeyong realizes nct wasn't at the peak of the fame but for him half of the rode was skipped, he was sure two years, or maybe one and a half or maybe a full, complete year the band would have made it, he had that feeling of relief, that feeling he got from working his path so he won't have to look back or go through the difficulties he dealt with before, repeating it is a big burden and now he has that feeling that he didn't move, he didn't do anything, he didn't achieve anything..... 

He has to go through that again... 

He is on zero point.....

True or not,he feels his past years were for nothing.... 

The new members are a bless to his situation, too nice, too caring, too understanding..... 

Taeyong wanted to be in the same unit with ten and they talked about it long time ago and wished from the bottom of their hearts sm would add ten to nct127... 

Taeyong wanted to scoffed how ty the situation got for him, he is finally in one team with ten and he didn't get to be happy about it, he is ashamed how he was kicked out,how he was told he wasn't a good enough leader, he was ashamed how his friends did not have a second thought about throwing him under the train.... 

Taeyong looked around the room from his pace around the table, the tallest of them all was seated next to him, Lucas focused face while learning korean made taeyong crack a smile although the angry sea inside his head,the two are currently having some kimichi soup with some rice meanwhile kun was trying to give a Chinese lesson to ten who looked confused and out of hope.

Yangyang is watching something with hendery and Renjun ,the three were laughing hysterically earning a half hearted glared from kun who is trying to be the perfect teacher.

Jeno and jaemin were glancing at taeyong direction every once in a while,it was something on their phones,taeyong wondered what's wrong with them,he was about to ask but the two were already heading to their rooms. 

Letting a sigh out Taeyong averted his eyes away and continue eating his food as Lucas let go of his spone and grabbed a pen and circled some random words on a paper and a book he has already brought before sitting to eat, taeyong wonders what is he doing? 

Lucas catches taeyong's eyes,the man pushed the book toward taeyong before he push his chair away,he kneeled before taeyong's cha