Are you excited to be going back? - asked Mark

Yes, it has been years since I last landed in South Korea, I miss everything: the people, the food, the costumes, and most importantly I miss my mum- said JaeBum while looking outside the window of his flight.

What about someone else huh? - inquired Mark.

I might have someone in mind, but it’s just a wishful thinking Mark- responded JB.

After a long trip from the USA, Mark and JB landed and went to their hotel rooms, they were going to open a studio in Seoul. Mark explained the situation to JB:

Ok, we got 2 people already waiting for to work with us: we have Park JinYoung a composer, actor, model and business major; he found us a place to live in, the building where we are going to have the studio and our offices. Secondly we have Jackson Wang, he’s a music producer, composer, lyricist and model. Jackson is gonna help us with the scouting process, he’s got a million contacts and knows his way on the music business, he’s a social butterfly. Go to rest, see you tomorrow-

I’m not sleepy, to be honest I’m a bit jet lagged, I’ll go for a walk and then I might be able to sleep- commented Jae Bum.

Do as you please, this is your city after all, you know how to move around, just make sure to have plenty of rest. See you tomorrow at 10 in the lobby. Night JB!- said Mark.

JaeBum was in awe: his city was as charming as ever, full of life, sounds, colors, etc. Despite the hour lots of people were walking around. A horn made him jump, he was quickly enough to dodge the car that was speeding towards him, with a hand on his heart he looked around. A certain déjà vu attacked him…

A boy was walking in front of me, he was humming a song I couldn’t recognize, his movements were carefree, he seemed so happy while I was such in a bad mood… There you were standing unaware of the surroundings. I saved you from an accident, I acted before thinking, I wrapped my arms around you and I hugged you. When you looked at me I was a goner, your shy expression was like a ray of light for me, and you lit my day. Just knowing that we were going to the same school made me feel giddy. I offered my name and you gave yours, Choi YoungJae. I met you at the end of the Winter and you became the Spring. As time passed I just couldn’t shake the image of you flustered, with your face buried on my chest. I wanted more, but you were just too naïve, how could I have ever play a joke on you? You were just too cute. As the time passed my feeling grew stronger, just like the Spring I let my love blossom. However, I could not afford being with you, I was so tainted, so full of problems, with such a heavy emotional luggage while you were so centered, so full of life, you were the star that lit my dark night…-

JB kept on walking, all of the sudden he came across a café and decided to have a warm coffee while relaxing. Four cats gathered around him, he was happily petting each of them when a voice startled him:

Woah man! I’ve never seen all of my babies interested in the same costumer at the same time, you must be really a cat person-

You can say so, I have some cats too. By the way, what are the names of yours? I’ve been playing for a long time with them- asked JB

Well, they are called: Pudding, Cupcake, Latte and King- answered BamBam while pointing at each of his cats.

Is your café the inspiration behind the names? Do you have more cats? Is this a Cat café? – JB bombarded BamBam with questions.

Give time to answer: I do get my inspiration from this café, I only have them and this isn’t a cat café, they just came with me today. I take them with me whenever I feel they need fresh air. But as I was saying before they never gather around any costumer, this is nice. I am BamBam and your name is..?- BamBam was interrupted by Yugyeom:

BamBam-ie!! Come here right now, you forgot to clean up my kitchen, you better do it now before we close or else I’m not helping you to take back the cats-

Arasso, I’ll be there, sorry I gotta rush. You can visit this café whenever you want. Tomorrow is the Music Day, came and find about it, Bye! -said BamBam while standing up.

This is an interesting place, I’ll be definitely coming back, Bye! - Added JB, he finished his coffee, stood up and headed out while waving at the owner.

The next day found JB in a line waiting for his order. A youthful voice greeted the costumers, hi everybody, my name is Kim Yugyeom and I’m one of the owners, welcome to Miracle Café, today is Music Day and that means we are going to play music from local artists, if you are interested in knowing them please go to our Music Corner and ask the DJ about the singers, have a great day!

I’ll be coming as a regular costume that’s for sure- some music was being played while JB took a seat, his order arrived and he started to enjoy the environment, he made sure to write down the names of the song and the singer, he was going to contact them soon.

A week passed and Jae Bum went to his meeting with his investor and friend Mark, the business manager JinYoung and the producer Jackson.  The meeting went smoothly, they discussed their plans and schedule, everything was settled, his studio was about to be established. JaeBum felt like having a coffee so he decided to visit Miracle Café. Indeed a Miracle was waiting for him…

Oh !! I’m late!! I got to rush- YoungJae was running towards the café, he was so focused on arriving there that he forgot to pay attention to the bike path; Just as he was about to walk a bike was coming in full speed, a screamed was heard and YoungJae lifted his eyes and saw the bike, fearing the imminent crush he shut his eyes waiting for the impact, but it never came. A pair of arms hugged him, he was suddenly turned around, YoungJae collided with a warm chest, a familiar smell invaded his nose…

Oh my god! Are you ok? - a worried voiced asked

Huh? I’m fine, thanks for helping me- answered YoungJae detaching himself from the security of his savior, he was apologetically bowing - I was too distracted, I’m really sorry for troubling you-

Nah, it’s ok, I just have quick reflexes- said the voice. YoungJae stood straight and met his savior the impact was major, in front of him there was an older version of JaeBum: the disarming smile, the attractive moles in the eye, the broad shoulders, dark red wine hair, under cuts, ripped jeans, plain black shirt, black leather jacket, a more mature image greeted YoungJae. He was in shocked. JaeBum was feeling just the same: the face of the person he had missed for years was standing in front of him, and he was the first one in breaking the silence:

My, my! You haven’t learned yet little one, you were not looking around. I’m glad to meet you again YoungJae, do you remember me? – asked a hopeful JB.

How could I forget you! - wanted to screamed YoungJae, but it was a lost battle: YoungJae was sure JB was just being nice, Ye- yeah! JaeBum hyung, good to meet you- he shyly said.

It’s been a while, how are things going? Why were you running? – inquired JaeBum.

You’re right it has been years, uh, I’m doing great, I got to run now. I’m late for one appointment, it was great to see you. I’m sorry I got to leave. Bye have a great day- YoungJae didn’t give JB time to answer back, he bowed and started his way towards the café, it was his turn to open the Song Day and he was already late, he didn’t want to keep on talking with the only man that had broken his heart. On the other hand, JaeBum couldn’t believe his luck: this was a sign. He was not gonna let YoungJae out of his sight; it happened before and it was not going to happen again. He chased YoungJae and saw him entering Miracle Café. He quietly entered it, fearing that perhaps YoungJae’s reason to run was a date with someone. JaeBum couldn’t find YoungJae inside, he was nowhere to be seen. Where are you little one? - JaeBum decided to get a coffee and wait for YoungJae to show up, it was getting darker outside. The same voice from the previous week called his attention:

Hi, welcome to Miracle Café, I’m Kim Yugyeom. Today is a very special, it’s our tradition to have live music during the Song Day. Let me introduce you the singer of today: he’s a Music Therapist and a great friend, let’s give a warm welcoming to our dear “Ars”-

What??? Ars??? Is it possible that..? - JaeBum was starting to make the connections when the sound of a piano was heard, the spotlight was illuminating a male figure, and a sweet sad song filled the air:

Even if I close both eyes. Even if I cover both ears, I can still feel you…It’s hard for me, because of the Trauma, the trauma you left in me…

JaeBum was in awe: such raw emotions, such deep lyrics and the voice of YoungJae made him almost faint. He was just beginning to process everything when the song ended.

Hi dear audience, I’m Ars and this song was called “Trauma” I wrote the lyrics and music. I hope you had liked it. It’s a message from my heart to your hearts. This one is my most recent, it’s called “Nobody Knows”

…You probably thought about it lightly, that person is probably happy. Oh! But you are wrong. Nobody knows, you don’t know anything…

!!YoungJae is Ars!! He was the ghost writer of the school newspaper!!How? Why? I don’t get it! Damn, his songs are so beautifully painful. I really want to know YoungJae, who made you feel like this? Was that Dong Min guy? I thought he was perfect, he was exactly what you deserved little one. I swear to god I won’t let you go, even if you are with someone now I want to help you, I want to see the light back in your eyes. I’m a better version of me now, I won’t step back until I see you happy- meditated JaeBum.

Hey, I know these songs are sad ones. I’ll light the mood don’t worry. We are humans made with different emotions. It’s ok to feel happy but it’s also ok to stop, breathe and feel sad. We are a mixture of positive and negative emotions. We need to find the balance, don’t put too much pressure on yourselves, life is for learning and growing, arasso? Remember: to live, love and learn. Now I’ll be trying a different musical style, the next song is called “At the usual time”

It was indeed a lighter song with a rocker style. The clients flock to the stage, the café was full. JaeBum was speechless, he had no clue of how to approach YoungJae, and an idea popped in. He stood up and went to talk to BamBam.

Hi, how are you doing? - JB asked.

Oh! Cat lover! It’s you! Hi, I’m doing fine. How about you? - inquired BamBam.

I’m fine, your café is amazing. Uh, I was wondering if there is any chance for me to get the contact information of the singer that is on stage now. I’m a producer and I’m interested in working with him, he such a talented person- said a super nervous JB.

Huh? You wanna work with YoungJae hyung? Yeah, I guess you can have his contact information, here’s hyung’s number- BamBam took a piece of paper and with a pen he wrote the information for JB- Here you go man-

Thanks a lot BamBam, you have no idea how much this means to me- thanked JB

Chill out bro, anything to make that golden voice famous. By the way, I still don’t know your name, who are you? – asked BamBam

Me? Oh, I’m sorry if I was rude. My name is Im Jae Bum- answered JB

Hold on, are you perhaps familiarized with my hyung? Have you met him before? - BamBam was getting suspicious, the look in JB’s eyes was telling him a long story.

Uh, um, well, you can say so. I went to the same high school as him- said JB while feeling shy all of the sudden his confidence was diminishing this BamBam guy seemed to have read him well.

You are him!! Oh My God!! YoungJae hyung is gonna kill me!!- Lamented BamBam.

Sorry, what is that? Do you know me?- a curious JB inquired.

I can’t believe I sold my hyung to you! I’m so reckless! I know you, I know what you did. Give me back that number you aren’t allowed to call YoungJae hyung. You have no right to contact him- BamBam was angry with himself, it wasn’t his intention but he apparently made a huge mistake. JaeBum was left impressed to say the least, the change in the attitude of BamBam was too much. Why is this boy familiar with my name? - JB wondered.

Sorry, I can’t give it back. This means the world to me. But, really, tell me how do you know me? - demanded JB.

You are him, I can’t let you near hyung. He’s my baby, I have raised him well, I’ll do anything to protect him- BamBam was in his famous maknae protector mood- I know you because hyung told me about you, !! I’m talking too much- BamBam was getting angry, not at JB but at himself, he was revealing too much information.

This must be a misunderstanding BamBam, please let me explain. Can we have a word? I swear I have no idea of what you are talking about- reasoned JB.

BamBam was in a dilemma, JB seemed desperate for contacting YoungJae, but just thinking about his hyung suffering he wanted to punch JaeBum. A thousand thoughts were overheating his head, BamBam thought: Maybe this is the chance for hyung to have a proper closure, maybe he can really move on if he gets to talk to JB.

Fine, let’s meet up. Today to be precise, we are closing in one hour. After that we stay here for another hour, come back then. We will talk under one condition: please don’t show yourself to YoungJae hyung, let him finish in peace-

Ok, whatever you say. I’m really curious, I’m gonna go and hide- said JB. Two hours later the café had closed and everything was prepare for the next day. BamBam and Yugyeom were waiting for JB to show up. When he knock on the entrance door Yugyeom opened the door:

Hi, you must be JaeBum hyung, my name is Kim Yugyeom, come in-

Hi, nice to meet you, uh is BamBam around? - asked JB

Yes, follow me please, we have tons to discuss- declared Yugyeom in a less friendly than usual way.

JaeBum entered a new room with minimal furniture but stylish. BamBam was sitting on a small couch and motioned JB to sit in a chair place in front of him. Yugyeom took a seat next to BamBam. It looked like an interrogation room more than an office.

Ok, we’re here because we want our YoungJae hyung to free himself from his past. We have been friends since college: Yugyeom and I have adopted him as our baby. He told us his story the other day, and it looks like we have a very difficult case here- BamBam finished his explanation, JaeBum’s confusion was still evident, and these people seemed to have information that was essential for him.

Ok, let’s get to the point. I hate beating around the bush. What did YoungJae tell you? Why you both are mad at me? What have I done to you? Did I do something bad? If it is so, I’m deeply sorry- explained JB.

You have done nothing to us, just to our YoungJae, we are mad at you in his behalf. YoungJae hyung told us everything, since the day you two met until the day you graduated. We are well informed of who you are, after all the sufferings you made our sunshine live we are on guard-said Yugyeom. BamBam started to tell some parts of the story he heard from YoungJae, JaeBum was listening with all his attention to every detail, a mixture of emotions were shown in his face. Yugyeom was studying JB; his reactions, his movements, it was part of the plan: BamBam was going to do the talking and he was going to do the analysis. This Jaebum was not the heartless one they had pictured, this man in front of them looked broken, with sad looking eyes. JB gave Yugyeom the same vibes as YoungJae, a person with the burden of one untold story, with a longing for a past love that was never possible. He finished his examination and signed BamBam to stop. JaeBum was unable to utter a word, his mind was messy, and nothing made sense; so YoungJae’s Confession Song wasn’t meant for Dong Min? His love wasn’t one sided? But then, if YoungJae heard him that night it could only mean he hated him now. Sensing his distress Yugyeom talk to him:

I know this is a lot to process, but we would like to hear the story from your perspective, from what we have seen, you have a different version of it. Even though it’s hard please do tell us your side of this whole thing-

Taking his time and drinking the warm cup of tea offered by BamBam, JB gather his thoughts and recalled his story: from the moment he felt for the cutie that got almost crushed, to the moment he saw Dong Min carrying an injured YoungJae, to the fatidic conversation with Momo, JaeBum told them everything, even the internal struggle to become better, to be the man worth of YoungJae’s love. JB assured them it was never his intention to hurt his beloved little one.

I think I have the whole thing figured- started to say BamBam- That girlfriend of yours must have been involved in all of this, from what YoungJae hyung told us she was a petty girl that always humiliated him. She must have somehow made her dirty job, it’s a pity that she was successful though, she made you do wrong assumptions, breaking two hearts and YoungJae ended up with Dong Min-

What? So they ended up together? At least one of us got a happy ending. Of course YoungJae chose him, that guy was just too perfect to compete with, they both were good for each other. I’m glad my little one got his happy ending- declared a heartbroken JB.

I don’t think so, I mean YoungJae hyung loved Dong Min but he was never in love with him. As a matter of fact they broke up even before YoungJae hyung went to college, although they remain friends- clarified Yugyeom. JaeBum felt hopeful again…

Does it mean YoungJae is single now? Is he dating someone? - asked JB

Nope, he isn’t dating anyone, he is married to his job. Are you still interested in my hyung? – asked BamBam

Interested is an overstatement BamBam, the moment I landed in Seoul I couldn’t just shake the ghost of him, and when I saw him today I felt my heart beat for the first time in years- explained JB.

Do we have to assume you’re going to go after him? - questioned Yugyeom while crossing his arms around his torso, looking at JB.

Yes!! I mean, if you let me explain myself, if you allow me- JB was a trying to justify his answer.

Our interrogation has finished JaeBum hyung, we believe in fate and if this café brought you together, we are here to help both of you- said BamBam

We just want our YoungJae hyung smile for real, we have known him for years but the sight of his lively eyes is darkened by sadness. Perhaps he loves you, perhaps not. It’s your time to fight for him- added Yugyeom.

I’m doing it! Thanks a lot for hearing me out, for letting me explain. You have no idea how much this means to me. I’ll do whatever it takes to make him fall in love with me- declared JB.

We might be able to help you with that, we know hyung and what he likes, just let’s plan this- proposed BamBam. The plan was simple: a romantic approach with small details; flowers chocolates, messages in the café’s board for YoungJae, even some pictures JB took of YoungJae while being in high school, he was an avid photographer and YoungJae was his favorite subject in the past. The grand finale was music, the same way YoungJae wanted to confess but this time all the way around. JB asked for help to his new friends BamBam, Yugyeom, Jackson, Jinyoung and his old friend Mark.

YoungJae was feeling strange, apparently he had an admirer. A person gifting him every other day. The gifts were not expensive but well thought. He was sure BamBam and Yugyeom were helping to whoever the person was. His trips to Miracle Café were now getting more interesting, he expected every day to meet his admirer, but 3 weeks had passed and he was getting impatient. He couldn’t deny the fondness he felt. Maybe he was falling for this man, it was the first time someone was trying hard to get to him, the wall he built around his heart was stating to crack.

It was his turn to start the Song Day and YoungJae was about to go to Miracle Café. Something in air was telling him it was gonna be a different Friday. YoungJae didn’t fight the bizarre text of BamBam telling him to dress nicely, he didn’t question it because after all the fashionist knew better than him. He arrived to the café and his gut feeling told him something was odd: everything was nicely decorated with snowflakes, some roses were placed in each of the tables and lights were dimmed giving a dreamy sensation. While walking around YoungJae noticed that most of the clients- if not all- were his patients, they were happily chatting. Yugyeom greeted YoungJae and took him to sit down.

But I got to get ready to sing- tried to argue YoungJae

Not immediately hyung other singers are going to perform first, just relax- said Yugyeom. BamBam appeared in front of YoungJae with a coffee, a muffin and a letter:

This is for you YoungJae hyung, read it please. It’s time for the show- said BamBam.

Hi YoungJae, I know you must feel a bit confused. I’m your admirer, the person behind all the details. I was dying to meet you and tell you how much you mean to me. But I’m afraid you will hate if you see my face. I just want to let you know that you are perfect, you were always the person I looked up to. If I hadn’t been so immature I could have told you before how much in love I was. You are the best person I have ever met: brilliant, intelligent, talented, truthful, with the voice of an angel, always caring about others. I have no words to describe my admiration for you.

Mianhae, if you ever felt bad because of my reckless behavior. Please accept this song as a Confession of my feelings for you.

Saranghae YoungJae

The letter made YoungJae feel nervous and a bit nauseous. This was a serious matter, he had some doubts, he didn’t want to assume but there were clearly some indicators of who this person was.

Is this a joke BamBam? Please don’t toy with me- pleaded YoungJae.

Hyung, this isn’t a joke, we have not the heart to hurt you. Would you like to listen to the song? Would you like to meet the person who is behind this? It’s your choice hyung, Yugyeom and I are going to respect your decision- said BamBam.

Biting his lips and playing with his fingers YoungJae looked like a puppy, he was so excited but at the same time so fearful. Indeed, he trusted his maknaes, he was sure they meant good. His heart was beating fast and his pale mocha cheeks were starting to get pink. It was matter of flea or fight and sincerely he was curious, he wanted to know if the man he was falling for was the same he fell for in the past. He made his mind:

I want to meet him, I’d like to listen to his song-

Awesome! Please wait a bit, we are part of this stage presentation. Fighting hyung! - added Yugyeom.

The sound the piano filled the air, and a sweet voice was heard: a guy dressed in white shirt started to sing:

For me it was an especially cold freezing kind of day…

His voice was so soothing, it made YoungJae felt relaxed. Suddenly Yugyeom appeared and sang his lines:

You were standing in front of my by accident, it was like a ray of light for me…

Woah! My little Yugyeom is so talented, YoungJae was smiling at him, but the lyrics were pulling his heart strings, the same guy from the beginning came to sing again:

At the end of the winter, I met you who become the spring. Oh miracle! It such a miraculous thing…

Oh God! This can’t be, is it?- YoungJae’s internal monologue was interrupted with a voice he recognized, dressed in warm cozy clothes Im JaeBum was about to sing, they made eye contact, YoungJae was speechless:

Ever since you came, this winter is not cold as it used to be anymore, because I have you who is looking at me, yeah…

A gasp escaped YoungJae’s lips, this was really JaeBum, it was real. The song was meant for him. Unable to elaborate more YoungJae kept admiring the song played on the stage. A raspy manly voice started to sing:

My mind, nobody would check on. My room, no lights would work…

Yet another deep voice appeared:

I remember to this day, my dark sky…

YoungJae was on the verge of tears, a million of emotions clouded his heart, and Yugyeom came to sing again, with a sweet smile. Then JaeBum sang again, YoungJae had no idea what to think or feel. Surprisingly Bambam started his part:

Baby, without you I can’t even imagine my everything. You are all of my dreams now. Walk this path with me, stay until the end with me…

More lines were sang, the singers were all together gathered around JaeBum hitting high notes as if it was simple. The lights faded and the music finished. YoungJae felt his heart beats on his ears, he stood up and went backstage only to find JaeBum waiting for him:

Hi little one, it’s been a while. God you look so handsome, I’m sorry, I mean, I just can’t… uh.. well.. Did you like the song? Did you like the lyrics? I don’t want to pressure you, but I meant every word of the song- JaeBum was a too nervous, it was endearing, YoungJae would have coo at the sight but he schooled his expression:

Hi JaeBum hyung, Thanks for the song it was beautiful. But I have too many questions and no answers. Could you explain yourself a bit, this is confusing- said Youngjae trying to sound calm but he was blushing so hard that tomatoes were put to shame.

I just want to tell you that I love you YoungJae, I have always loved you and probably I would always will. I’m sorry I wasn’t brave enough to fight for you, I’m even more sorry to you because I’m aware you were braver and wrote Confession Song for me. Whatever you'd listened from my conversation with Momo was just my broken heart speaking. I thought you loved Dong Min, and that the song was meant for him. I was so mad  I said all those hurtful words, I’m sorry. I want you to know that you are my miracle. Please accept my confession and apologies or at least let me court you properly- explained JB.

This story is so twisted JaeBum hyung, it will take time for me to heal my heart- started to say YoungJae.

I can wait, I have all the time of this world to wait, please just don’t disregard this confession- pleaded JaeBum. He couldn’t care less if he came out as needy or cheesy, his mind was set on getting YoungJae.

Hyung!! You just can’t do this to me!! You made me fall in love with the JaeBum of the past, and now it’s the same. Why can’t I get rid of this feeling? Why I am still attracted to you? - YoungJae was frustrated, even though he wanted to hurt JaeBum he couldn’t.

I’m glad to hear we are in the same page, can you forgive me? - asked a hopeful JaeBum.

I did it long time ago hyung, I could never really hate you- YoungJae was pouting, JaeBum was using all his power not to kiss that pout away.

There’s one last question though: do you accept my song? - JB knew that an affirmative answer meant he was gonna get YoungJae by his side.The young man took his time, he looked straight into JB’s eyes and answered:

Yes, let’s walk this path together. Once he finished his sentence JaeBum told him:

Can I kiss you now?

I thought you’d never asked- replied YoungJae

Finally, two broken hearts became one, sweet lips met. A kiss closed the old story of JaeBum and YoungJae opening a new page in their lives. The kiss was interrupted with applauses, whistles and screams:

Yah! You better keep your dirty hands to you, don’t taint my baby- said BamBam

I’M YOUR HYUNG BAMBAM! - screamed YoungJae

It doesn’t matter, you will always be my baby, tell him Yugyeom! – added BamBam

Sorry YoungJae hyung, but you will always be our beloved hyung, our precious baby, and it’s our mission to block JaeBum hyung until he makes up for the lost time and his stupidity- explained Yugyeom.

You two are crazy- said YoungJae with a fond tone.

Yeap! - They screamed.

Miracle became the most played song in the café and became the most meaningful for JaeBum and YoungJae.