Luhan, 

When i first met you, i thought you were angel who fell from the skies, i thought that you were the one for me, but i was wrong, so wrong. .

I fell inlove to the wrong person. I fell inlove with you Luhan. It was hard to be around you, 'cause when i look at you, i can feel butterflies in me, like my body is vibrating, wanting to kiss you and tell you that i love you...

But then. . Minseok-hyung came, when he approached you, your eyes  started to  sparkle, when i saw the two of you happily interacting, i feel  jealousy, wanting you to be away from him, but no..I decided not too. You felt so happy-your smile was so wide, not like the same as you did to me.

Then when i found out the two of you are dating, my whole body started to fall down like sand, my heart is hurting so bad, like i want to scream until i cant..

I locked myself in my room and cried  my heart out until the pain is gone, but it didnt, it just stays that way.

I tried to let go and move on but i cant and  i dont know why. Maybe because i was so into you.              When i hang out with the both of you, i feel like a third wheeler between the you both; like i was forgotten and ignored, useless. .

After all these years Luhan, I'm still inlove with you! Why?! Im becoming miserable and a loser who cant let go . When you gave me your wedding invitation, all of me, shut down..heart full of scars that you unknownly made. But its not your fault, its mine