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27^th of June, 2009. It has been 3 months already since Daehyun confessed his liking towards me and 2 months since I realized that I had feelings for him as well. He was still unaware of it, only Kyungmi and I knew…and my mom.    

The fact that it was my first time to actually feel something for someone made it hard for me to confess. I was afraid of the possibility that it might not work out well; I was afraid of the possibility that he might not be the one and both of us might end up getting hurt. I consulted my mom about this and she told me that nothing good will happen if I continue to deny and hide my feelings, I have to at least give it a shot. And leave the rest up to destiny…

It was a cold summer night and I spent it quietly reading a book on the window seat in my room. It was the perfect spot, I had my feet up and I was totally comfortable. I also had a cup of coffee on the little beside table and I constantly sipped on it to keep me awake and warm.

I had just finished the 7^th chapter of the book I was reading when my phone rang. Daehyun’s name and picture was on the caller ID. I immediately picked it up when I saw his name on the screen “yeoboseyo?”

“Hey, it’s me.” he answered from the other end of the line.

“I know.” I let out a soft chuckle. “Why’d you call? Is something wrong?”

“No, silly. I just… wanted to ask if you’re free tomorrow. So are you?” he asked.

“Tomorrow? Wait, let me see.” I stood up from the window seat and clamped my phone between my shoulder and my ear as I rummaged through my drawer, pulling out my blue planner. I checked tomorrow’s date and… “Daehyun~ah, I’m sorry. I have plans tomorrow.” I said, sounding apologetic. “What’s up with tomorrow, anyway?”

“Uhm, well…nothing really. I just thought that maybe, we could hang out. You know, with my friends. And I’ve also invited Kyungmi. But I guess you can’t come, huh?”

“No, I’m really sorry. Maybe, next time?”

“Yeah, okay. Next time.” His voice was so low, it was almost a whisper. “I gotta go, goodnight.” He added and then hung up.

I could tell by the sound of his voice that he was quite down. But I didn’t really feel sorry at all. No. Because it was all part of the plan and it was going pretty well.

28^th of June, 2009.  Late afternoon…Daehyun, together with Kyungmi and his friends, Yongguk, Himchan, Youngjae, Jongup and Junhong, went out somewhere to celebrate. Celebrate what?—Daehyun’s birthday. It was Daehyun’s 17^th birthday-- the reason why he called last night and the reason why he invited me to hang out with them. I actually knew that it was his birthday; I just pretended that I didn’t because, as what I said, it was all part of the plan. And little did he know that the six people who came with him were my accomplices. Earlier that day, I met with these people in the nearby park. I gave each one of them a white rose and politely instructed to give Daehyun one rose per hour. They were all pretty cooperative and it, somehow, made me really glad.

The plan practically started at around 4pm. They all met somewhere and Yongguk immediately gave the first rose to Daehyun. He made it seem like it was just a little birthday present from him so Daehyun took it without suspecting anything. Then at 5pm, Himchan gave the second rose to him. He was kind of still oblivious of what was happening, he just kept on laughing. At 6pm, Youngjae handed the third white rose and gave him a brotherly hug as well. At that time, he was getting a little suspicious. He playfully hit Youngjae in the stomach and asked him what was going on but Youngjae only winked at him and didn’t say a word. At 7pm, they were already having dinner when Jongup gave the fourth rose. He stood up from his seat, did a little handstand and handed the rose to Daehyun. At 8pm, Junhong suggested going to a noraebang and there, he offered a little rap song to Daehyun then gave him the fifth rose right afterwards. Daehyun firmly held all the 5 roses in his hands as they all got wild in the room, dancing and singing and whatever they were doing in there. At 9pm, Kyungmi screamed and shushed everybody. She took the mic from Junhong, who had his mouth wide open, still in shock…and greeted Daehyun a happy birthday before she gave him the sixth rose. She then gave the mic back to Junhong and the party went on.

I had been relying on Yongguk’s text messages the whole 5 hours. He was constantly giving me updates on everything. So I have not really missed anything at all. It was like I was also there, just not physically. Fifteen minutes after 9pm, Yongguk texted me that Kyungmi had already given the last white rose to Daehyun. In a flash, I changed into my favorite hoodie then pants and put on my shoes. I combed my long wavy hair and dabbed a little amount of powder on my face. Thirty-five minutes before ten, I started walking towards the place in which they were at. It wasn’t that far, just a few meters away from home, so I didn’t get a cab. It was about 9:50 when I arrived. I immediately texted Yongguk, telling him that I was already outside. He then told Kyungmi about it and she prepared the song on the dot. I stayed by the door and waited for my cue. And then the music was played. I slowly opened the door and Yongguk welcomed me with the mic in his hand. He, thereon, gave me the mic and I started singing the infamous song…Do you know by Someday. I felt extremely nervous because singing was not my thing. But when I caught a glimpse of Daehyun smiling, I suddenly felt better and calmer. His smile made me feel a lot more confident. When the song was almost finished, I calmly strode forward with my head looking down at the ground. I stopped in front of him and gently raised my head up. I then took out a red rose from behind my back and said, “Jung Daehyun, I know this might sound crazy but uhm…I really like you and uhh…” I scratched the back of my head and continued, “Will you go out with me?” I said the exact words he told me when he confessed.

He stood up, with a serious look on his face and looked me straight in the eyes. I did the same. And the next thing I knew, the serious look on his face had already turned into a big grin. I smiled and said, “So does that mean…yes?” He didn’t respond and grabbed my hand instead. “Hey guys, thank you so much for today. I really had fun. This was yet, the best birthday ever. Uhh, we’ll see you guys tomorrow!” he said then he gently dragged me towards the door. I was totally caught off guard.

We were almost outside when I stopped and pulled his hand. “Ya, where are we going?” I asked.

Again, he didn’t say a word and just smiled. He intertwined our fingers together, making sparks shoot up my arm. Then he began walking again. I gradually picked up my pace and walked beside him.

We walked the streets together under the light of the silvery moon, still holding each other’s hands. We only came to a halt in front of a large, rather newish looking building. He opened the door quietly and said, “Let’s take the stairs.”

“Huh? Up to what floor?” I asked.

“Fifth.” He answered.

He looked so excited when he answered and I didn’t want to bring his mood down so I just nodded and said, “Sure, okay.”

We were already half way there when I stopped and took a deep breath, my legs were already hurting. He turned around to face me and asked, “Are you okay?”

“Eo? Ahh, yeah. I’m fine.” I nodded and gave him a reassuring smile.

He let go of my hand and tapped his back twice, “Do you want to ride on my back?”

“What? No. I’m fine, really. Let’s go” I walked passed him, quietly enduring the pain. Then suddenly, I was lifted off the ground. I gasped as Daehyun carried me bridal-style. “Uh-huh. Let’s go.” He said.

“Daehyun~ah, I’m seriously fine. Put me down, eo?” I pleaded.

But again, he didn’t say a word. He only looked at me and smirked.

“Why did we have to take the stairs? We could’ve taken the elevator instead.” I asked, giving him a confused look.

“Well, because taking the stairs is healthier…and I just thought that maybe, I could spend more time with you if we take the stairs.” He said, slightly embarrassed.

I felt my cheeks turn red and my heart beat faster. This guy sure knows how to flutter a girl.

After what seemed like forever, we finally reached the 5^th floor. He took me to a little room and slowly put me back to ground. It was a music room; a beautiful, huge one.

“This is my favorite place. This is where I go when I feel sad or extremely happy.” He said.

“So are you sad? Or extremely happy?” I asked.

“What do you think?”

I smiled at him and shrugged my shoulders, trying to be nonchalant.

“And you know what? I’ve always wanted to bring someone special here. I’ve told myself a thousand times before that someday, I shall bring the girl I like here.” He paused for a while, looked at me and continued, “Oh wait, she’s already here…”

*inserts happy and sweet moments together here*

17^th of July, 2011 Time flew by too fast, it has already been 2 years since Daehyun and I started dating. It went better than I expected. Although, we had some small fights and misunderstandings like other couples do, we were still mostly happy to be with each other.

It was almost noon when mom asked me to go to the supermarket to buy some groceries. She gave me a short list and instructed me to go back before lunch. Since I was still in my pajamas, I hurriedly changed into my casual clothes and directly went on my way.

As soon as I arrived in the supermarket, I didn’t waste my time and did the grocery shopping right away. The supermarket was quite full of people, young, and old, male or female…they were all present. After just 20 minutes or so, I had already got everything on the list except for milk. I quickly went to the dairy section but on my way there, I saw a familiar figure…Daehyun’s mom. “Mrs. Jung, annyeonghaseyo” I greeted.

She turned around and smiled as she saw me. “Hyesoo~ya, annyeong.” She came closer and added, “I’m glad I met you here, I really need to talk to you about something.”

Her smile faded and the expression on her face didn’t look good. It made me feel uneasy.

“Hyesoo~ya, did Daehyun tell you already?” she asked.

I shook my head, not sure what she meant by that.

“Really? Well, you probably already know that he auditioned right?”

I remembered Daehyun telling me something about him going to audition so I nodded.

She placed her hand on my back and faintly pushed me for a little walk. “You see, dear. Daehyun got a call this morning that he was accepted.”

“Really?! That’s great!” I cheered.

“Yeah, it sure is. But…” She stopped her pace and turned to face me. She placed her hands on my shoulders and continued, “Daehyun…ever since he was young, always wanted to be a singer. He has always dreamed of becoming one. But I don’t think it’ll be easy for him to reach that with you on his way...”

“Uhmm…I don’t get it.” I interrupted.

“Okay, I’ll be direct to the point…break up with him, Hyesoo.”

“What? No. Why?!” I retorted.

“I just don’t think that he’ll be able to focus on becoming a singer with you always on his mind. He even had second thoughts about it because he doesn’t want to leave you. Hyesoo~ya, I love him. And as his mother, I want him to be happy and I want the best for him. You breaking up with him will certainly leave him down in the dumps but he’ll eventually move on. I just can’t let his dreams go to a waste. So please…”

I felt my heart sink; on the inside, my heart was beating, my mind was racing and my eyes were holding back the tears. “I…I gotta go, Mrs. Jung.” As I turned my back, tears started racing down my cheeks.

“Hyesoo~ya, please think about it…If you love him, you’ll also know what’s best for him.” Mrs. Jung added.

No words could express what I felt. At first, I was angered by her words but overtime, I began to hear what she was saying.

I threw myself out the door and walked all the way to the park. Once there, I plopped myself onto a swing and sat there, with my head on my hands…crying. I felt so sick and confused.

I raised my head up and stared out at nothing in particular. I was momentarily shaken back to my senses when my phone beeped. It was a message from Daehyun and it read, “Hey, where are you right now? There’s something I really need to tell you. ^___^ ”

“I’m at the park.” I texted back.

My phone beeped again and it was another message from him, “Okay. I’m on my way.”

I quickly wiped my tears and slapped my cheeks. I took a deep breath and practiced smiling. I didn’t want him to see me in that state. Then all of a sudden, I heard dead grass crunching under someone's feet. When I looked up, in front of me stood Daehyun, looking at me happily. I gave him a weak smile in return. He then sat on the swing next to mine and grabbed my hand. “Are you okay?” he asked.

I took my hand back and didn’t answer his question. Instead, I asked him, “What is it that you need to tell me?”

He sat straight and said, “Ohh, remember the time I told you that I was going to audition? I got a call this morning from TS entertainment. I got accepted!” He looked so happy and excited.

I, on the other hand, felt my heart sink again. Mrs. Jung’s words snuck their way into my head. “But I don’t think it’ll be easy for him to reach that with you on his way...” “Break up with him, Hyesoo.” “I just can’t let his dreams go to a waste. So please…””If you love him, you’ll also know what’s best for him.”

I tried to look happy for him but then a fresh wave of tears rolled down my face again.

“Ya, are those tears of joy?...or are you sad because you think that I’m going to leave you? Well, don’t be ‘cause I’m not and I won’t.”

He attempted to wipe my tears but I stood up before his hand could even reach my face. I looked up to the sky to stop the tears from falling yet they still flowed on. “Hyesoo~ya, what’s wrong?” he tried to move closer but I stepped back. “Daehyun~ah…” I managed to speak. “We should break up, I’m sorry…” The words just slipped out. I unknowingly turned my back on him and left. Then I broke down.

It was past 2pm when I arrived home so my mom greeted me with a yell, “Kang Hyesoo, do you know what time is it?? Where have you…” She stopped as she saw me crying. “Honey, what’s wrong??”

“Eomma…” I instantly collapsed into my mother’s arms and tears continued pouring out of my eyes. I felt so numb, emotionally and physically…

I closed my diary as I finished reading the last entry I wrote. Memories of pain started coming back to me and I could feel tears starting to form in my eyes but I strongly held them back.

Although that was the last time I ever saw him and the last time I’ve ever spoken to him, there was never a time in the whole 6 months that I didn’t think of him. I still love him.

He was my first love and most probably, my last.

He changed my perception towards love and with that, I am grateful.

And he made me feel special in ways I couldn’t explain.

I went back to the place where Daehyun and I spent our first date together, the music room. His favorite place. It still looked the same but it, somewhat, felt empty. I slowly walked over to the organ and carefully opened its cover. I pressed some keys and was surprised to hear that it still had that beautiful sound. I pressed some more keys and started playing a song. You probably know what song it is, right? Yes…Do you know. The song that started everything. I closed my eyes as I listened to the perfect sound of the instrument. It was so soothing to the ears, it made me feel better and lighter. I finished the whole song, satisfied with my own performance. Then suddenly, from behind, I heard someone clapping. I turned around and my eyes widened as I saw…

“Daehyun~ah…” I mumbled. “What are you doing here?”

He still didn’t change; he didn’t say a word and just smiled.

He came closer and sat next to me. “Can you play that again?” he asked.

I wasn’t able to hear what he said, I was still in shock. I stared at him for a while and pinched his right cheek.

He winced in pain. “Ow, what are you doing?”

“Are you real?” I asked, sounding a little bit stupid.

He giggled at my silliness and replied, “Of course, I am.”

“Yes, you are.” I smiled, quite astonished.

“Yes I am.” He also smiled. “Now, can you?”

“Huh? Can I what?”

“Can you play it again?” he said slowly.

“Ohh. Yeah. Of course. Of course, I can.” I stuttered.

I pressed the keys again and played the song one more time. And Daehyun sang…

And that’s the end of our little story ;)

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A/N: i knooow, it's like a long story cut short or whatever. i'm sorry :/ you guys might be disappointed, i'll try better next time :) i'm not good with endings XD

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