Standing alone at the beach, Myung Soo shut his eyes and took in a deep breath. He needed some time alone at this peaceful place. The sound of the waves crashing onto the shore, the cool breeze blowing inshore and the silence of the night pleased him. Then, a sound broke the silence. Myung Soo’s mobile phone was ringing. He took it out of his pocket and saw an incoming alert from his manager.

Switching his phone off, he dropped it onto the sand. He wanted to be rebellious for once. For now, at this moment he still did not know how to face his other members when he gets back. After having an heated argument with them just not long ago, going back to continue filming will make the situation worse. At least INFINITE has to stay close and happy in front of the television screen. Myung Soo was extremely upset. He shouted with all his might towards the sea.

“Aaaaahhhh~!” He shouted. He did not care at that time whether this would harm his vocal chords or whatsoever. He just wanted to let it all out. Being an idol had never been easy, especially as days go by and the fame goes up. Bonding close to each and every INFINITE member is not that easy. After all, it is a 7 boys group. Differences in opinions and ideas are inevitable. It was probably because today all of them were extremely tired from the long schedule. Therefore, all of them were kind of hot-tempered which sparked off the quarrel.

“Kim… Myung Soo, L from…INFINITE?!” Myung Soo heard a high pitched girly sound beside him. Turning around, he saw a young girl who is around his age jumping up and down. “Another typical fan girl.” He thought to himself. “I am not in the mood today so do you mind if you leave me alone?” L tried to say it nicely. He was really in a foul mood today and was definitely not in the mood to entertain fans. The girl did not seem to get the idea.

“L oppa! I am Park Eun Hae! Really happy and… happy to see you here!!! You know… You dance and sing really well. I really like you a lot! You are my idol~” Eun Hae went on blabbering excitedly. After all, she is an ‘inspirit’ who just saw her idol.

“Okay. If that’s all from you, you can leave already.” L said in a cool way, trying to suppress his anger and hopefully chase the annoying fan girl away. “L oppa! I …” Before the girl could say what she intended, L interrupted her. He erupted.

“Actually…You guys don’t really like us in that way. You only care about looks, don't you? If we are ugly, will you still be an 'inspirit'? The answer is a flat no. Face it. You are just a fan. The love you have for us is for our appearance, our image, not us." He said coldly to the girl before him. He did not know why he said those hurtful words but they just got out of his mouth. He was angry and the girl was pissing him off.

“No! We appreciate your talents! Each and every one of you. ”Eun Hae was taken aback but she rebutted him.

“Talents? Those people who have real talents are like millions out there but why don’t you support them? The answer is simple because they don’t have the looks. They may be better than us but they may never succeed at the same time. Talents are just a bonus points to our good looks. If image really didn’t matter, why would some of the celebrities go for plastic surgery? If looks really didn’t matter why do we put on make-up during shows and performance? And if appearance was not a key factor, why would we visit a dhermalogist? Face it. You guys go for the looks. You love… our looks.” He continued.

“No!~ we really love you as an individual not because of looks. Really!” Eun Hae felt tears escaping from her eyes as she heard him say that.

“Your love is not real. That is the reason why over the years old singers lose their support. This is because they are less handsome or pretty by then and the new bands take over. Every year new bands rise in popularity. It is just a matter of time when the fans will change their idols. The fan love you have will soon be shifted to another. This is a hard truth but it is the reality. Admit it.” He said in a calm manner. He knew that it will certainly happen years down the road since he embarked on his singing career.

She started crying. Actually, deep down inside her she knew that he is right. It was just that she refuse to admit it. Most fans are shallow. They go for the looks first before they discover their personalities and talents. She knew from the start that no idols see their fans more than a fan. They are just a source of income to them. The presents, the cards and the letters the fans stay up to make are probably just left aside in a room by the idols.

There are after all too many of them to read and unwrap. The songs that they sing are catchy, meaningful and have nice tunes so they become famous. They win some awards and release new albums. The old songs are then long forgotten. International fans may not know what they are singing but for the sake of the idols they enjoy the songs.

In the eyes of the idols, fans are probably just a bunch of crazy girls/guys who have fallen for them and are paying loads of money just to buy their albums/concert tickets/merchandise. A handshake, an autograph and a flying kiss can make them happy for months but the thing is they will never know. They don’t know how fans actually shed tears seeing them hurt and seeing them cry. They probably wouldn’t know how some fans go on websites everyday just to see how they are recently. Fans smile, laugh, cry with the idols but they never know.

“Maybe you are right. But…we also care about you. We remember everything about you which even your celebrity friends wouldn’t. We watch your videos. We laugh, cry and smile together with you. Maybe to you we look stupid but we really… do care. ” Eun Hae sniffed and continued. Tears were still streaming down her sullen cheeks. “During fan service maybe it is only a job to you but to us fans, it is a dream come true. ” Eun Hae thought to herself as she looked at the handsome face she always sees in pictures online.

“Everything?” L questioned. He did not know what she meant by that.

“INFINITE is a seven members pop boy band group under Woollim Entertainment. Members consisting of Sunggyu, Dongwoo, Woohyun, Hoya, Sungyeol, Myungsoo and Sungjong. Infinite held their first debut showcase on the 9th of June 2010, performing their hit debut song, Come Back Again (다시돌아와) along with various songs from their first single, First Invasion. They performed their debut track Come Back Again for the first time on the 10th of June 2010 on M!Countdown. Kim Myung Soo also known as L, born on March 13 1992. Birthplace is Seoul.Height is 180 cm and is of bloodtype O. Also, …” Eun Hae choked on her tears and stopped.

She was never top in school but she made an effort to remember things and information relevant to INFINITE. It took her many days to memorise those information. She wanted to be a real ‘inspirit’. She really like infinite and had finally saved enough by eating less food each day. Sometimes she skipped meals just to save up those money. She is finally able to go to their concert tomorrow but everything is ruined. The Kim Myung Soo in her imagination was not like this. He should not have told her such things. It was too harsh, for a fan.

Looking at the girl who is still crying madly, L felt bad. He knew he has spoken too much and was too harsh on her. “ I am sorry. I think I have spoken too much. I will leave now.” Myung Soo said to the girl as he took a few steps back and turned around. Picking up his phone from the sand, he walked away without turning back. Leaving behind the devastated fan girl, Myung Soo felt a sense of guilt building up within him.

“She will probably not be an inspirit anymore now?” Myung Soo thought to himself.

Through the film of tears, Eun Hae saw the figure disappear into the darkness. He is the idol she always yearned to see. He is the one that she sees smiling only at her on the internet. He is the one that always is the knight with shining armour in fan fictions. He is the one who brightens her day with a happy smile in his videos. But… He is also the one who shattered all her fantasy towards idols.

The next day…

Holding onto the ticket, Eun Hae could not make up her mind whether she should go to the concert. The incident from yesterday was still fresh in her mind. It was a severe blow to her especially when those words came out of her idol’s mouth. “Park Eun Hae, you were an inspirit. And you will always be!” She thought to herself. Taking out materials, she made use of the time before the concert to make a sign board. After writing a few words on the board, she was ready to attend the concert.

She got changed and left her house. There were many inspirits gathered at the concert venue when she reached. Everyone was eager to see their idols and excited to see them perform. Eun Hae smiled to herself seeing their popularity. A girl walked up to her. “You are here for INFINITE concert too? “ She asked her politely.

“Yea. I came alone. How about you?” Eun Hae replied with a smile. “Same here. Let’s go in together later!” She exclaimed. Then, they heard loud screaming on the other end. “ INFINITE is here!!!” A fan girl shouted. “They are so handsome!!!” One of the girls screamed. “OPPA! SARANGHAE!~” Another of them screamed her lungs out. The seven of them got off the van and walked in. They were really handsome and cool.

The seven of them walked together with security guards guarding them by the sides. Woo Hyun gave the fans a flying kiss and a few almost ‘fainted’. The rest just waved and smiled. Myung Soo however has a weird expression on his face. He was still thinking of the girl he hurt yesterday.  Then, he looked up and spotted Eun Hae standing with another girl at the far end ahead.

Eun Hae saw Myung Soo looking at her and immediately held up her sign:

Once an inspirit, always an inspirit! Believe in us.

Your loyal fan.

Myung Soo read and smiled to himself. “It is her. She is here. ”Myung Soo thought to himself. He looked at your direction and smirked before turning in and leaving with the others. The weird expression was wiped off his face completely. He is happy. He is happy that she is there still to support them. Knowing that Myung Soo has probably read her message, Eun Hae smiled happily to herself.

“Hey. Are you ok? Shall we get going?” The girl nudged Eun Hae and started walking. They entered the hall which was filled with fans. They were screaming, jumping and waving their lightsticks. The concert was about to start. Then, the screen started a count down. All of the fans started counting down together with the numbers flashed on the screen. Then, at the count of 0 the stage lighted up suddenly. The seven angels were standing on stage smiling at their fans. The fans were still screaming and shouting. Some waved their signs and lightsticks eagerly. Others started shouting the names of their biases. As the song started, the fireworks exploded on the stage, bringing the atmosphere to the highest. Myung Soo was the first one to sing.

I’ve watched over you
over all your loves and your long breakups
if you’re always going to get hurt, it’s better to be with me
look clearly- I just don’t like it when you cry
it hurts me to see you in pain

be mine, I will love you
I will worry about you
I will take responsibility for you till the end

be mine, you know me
you’ve seen me for all this time
I will protect you till the end

do you hear me
do you hear me oh

all those tear drenched memories-
I hope they will all die within my embrace
even if I hear you softly swallowing your tears
with your broken heart, I will hide it

you are overflowing, as you’ve always been to me
as your scars increase, my love for you increases
please come to me, because I love your smile
because I want to make you comfortable
at least for me to you

be mine, I will love you
I will worry about you
I will take responsibility for you till the end

let’s go together, don’t walk the hard path
it wasn’t easy for you
I just don’t want you to go through that again

be mine, I will love you
I will worry about you
I will take responsibility for you till the end

I worry if you’ll fight again
I worry if you’ll be hurt again
in your painful helplessness
this silent battle is too much for you
with my shield of worries in front of you
like a moon I revolve around you
take your extinguished love and look at me
I will cover your deeply wounded scars
I will make you smile, I will make you mine

As you listened to the song, you felt tears streaming down your cheeks. You felt stupid crying but those eyes weren’t listening to you. You looked at them sing, dance in sync and everything. You knew they put in a lot of effort. You were really afraid that one day they will eventually be gone like the old bands, just like what Myung Soo told you.

After the song finished, Myung soo spoke into the mike. The 6 other members shot him a shocked glance. This was not pre planned.

“You are just a fan. But INFINITE loves you!” He said into the mike and smiled. Screams immediately rose from everywhere. Wiping away her tears, she smiled.

Author's note:
This is my first one shot. Hope it didn't turn out too bad:X Do comment and tell me how's it ?:) Thanks for reading !