I walk throughout my daily life pondering how this happened, that there must be some explanation.

Why did you leave me? Why do you haunt me?

I walked down the streets lost, not knowing where I was, or what I was doing.

Your voice echoed through my mind like vinyl stuck underneath a record players needle.

“Where are you going, Ji Sung? Where are you going?”

“I don’t know!” I want to choke out. But my throat constricts tightly, again and again, my heart convulses painfully in my chest. The rain had completely soaked my clothes and bone-deep chills racked my body as I tumble down the empty street.

You’re gone. And I can’t learn to accept that. Because I don’t know why.

I never left your side. I never strayed from you, I tried to make you proud of me, and I did. But it wasn’t enough, you were strong for me for too long and you crumbled so fast I couldn’t fix you. I tried so hard to keep you stable.

Tae Min was pronounced dead late last night at 10:40 p.m. He was found in the apartment he and his boyfriend shared in the Gangnam district. The cause of death was an apparent suicide, no sign of struggle and DNA evidence prove that Tae Min had shot himself in the head at around 10:00 p.m. that night. Friends and immediate acquaintances say that Min wa