Chaeyoung's POV "Can I see him?" I asked Jin oppa as he pulled me away from the door of their room. After waiting for more than two hours, I decided to man up and look for Jungkook instead of waiting for him to come see me. The concert had already ended and we're now checked in on a hotel. Unlike how it usually is, Jungkook didn't go see me. Normally, he'd go tease me for one round of lovemaking, something about a reward for doing well for their concert. But then, we'll end up having a massive pillow fight which normally resulted to the rest of the boys joining in except Yoongi oppa, saying something about being too cool to do these . But now, he was inside their room and I haven't even seen him after he left off the stage earlier Now, my heart feels so heavy at the thought if it. "I'm sorry Chaey but I think it's best if you wait for him to take a hold of himself first." he told me, his eyes full of pity and I understand. Judging from the noises I heard when Jin oppa opened the door, the boys were having some peptalk, but I was so sure I heard Namjoom oppa asking for a bottle of beer to Hobi oppa. "Is Jungkook drinking?" My hands landed on the hem of my shirt, fiddling with it, afraid to hear Jin oppa's words. Seeing Jungkook hurting hurts me all the more. It breaks my heart into pieces and I feel like every bits of it had shattered across the whole arena - I don't even know how to put them back together. The whole concert period, Jungkook made a few mistakes and the rest of the group were obviously worried. He was out of focus and I felt so bad because I very well knew I was the reason for it. And when they did their speech for their fans, it broke my heart even more when he started crying, apologizing to their fans because he made a lot of mistakes, promising that he'll work even harder. It kills me. It breaks my heart inside because he was hurting for something that he shouldn't have, just because of his affection towards me. I wanted to tell him that it's okay, and not to cry because his fans will understand. I wanted to run to him, hug him real tight and tell him not to feel dejected because everything will be okay, that it's not his fault nor it will ever be. This is a battle that I have internally and I am just so thankful I have him by my side. After the concert ended, we all checked in on a hotel once again. Like always, I have a room for myself. The difference now, Jungkook never once visited me on my room unlike how he usually does. And I know it's not because he hates me. "He is, but don't worry too much. He's with us." he tried comforting me and I feel so bad because I know he had problems of his own. "Get some sleep Chaeyoung, you need it." he told me, messing my hair a little before turning his back to get back to their room. "Jin oppa," I called for his name and he turned around, raising an eyebrow at me, waiting for what I had to say. I gulped. "Please tell Jungkook I will wait for him," I mumbled incoherent words but I hope he understood. Soft chuckles escaped his lips. "Chaeyoung, I am sure Jungkook knows that. Just give him enough time." he looks at me like he wanted to tell me more until a long sigh escaped his lips. "Jungkook is afraid of the idea of being away from someone he cherish a lot. You should know because that's the reason why him and his sister drifted apart." he mumbled and I noticed the sadness that enveloped on his orbits with just the thought of Jisoo unnie. With heavy steps, I slowly walked away to head back to my room. I hope Jungkook doesn't take too much time because I miss him so bad. I miss him being with me. I have never realize thet his mere presence gives me peace. Once I have taken a quick shower and dried my hair, I quickly headed to my bed to