Hoseok and Yoongi were having one of their regular past midnight meals whilst working on songs and lyrics at Yoongi's studio. Usually they would stay up all night, and to gather enough energy they needed a fair share of noodles and talk about random things in order to get the stress out of their system. Or at least that's what have been planned, until Hoseok decided to bring up a delicate subject matter. 

JH: What's this mess you and Jimin have going on right now, hyung? He keeps leaving the room in the middle of the night, then he always comes back early in the morning looking extremely miserable. I know I should not be forcing you to talk about your private matters, but Jimin is our younger brother, hyung. You can't expect me not to but in his business too, specially when it is clearly making him suffer.

YG: It's okay. I understand... - Yoongi answered simply with a mouthful of ramyun - It's kind of the same thing we had, except... Jimin has feelings for me. - he stated with a shrug, as if he was talking about the weather or something like that.

JH: No , Sherlock! - Hoseok retorted sarcastically, clearly not up to Yoongi's bull. He could try and fool anyone with his "I don't give a " facade, but Hoseok knew better than that.

YG: Don't get sassy on me. - Yoongi said coldly, giving the younger a bored stare.

JH: Sorry. But seriously, hyung... You should have known better than to mess with people's feelings when you have no intention in reciprocate it. I shouldn't be telling you this in the first place, because it shouldn't even be necessary to do so.  

YG: I'm not playing with his feelings, Seok. I do like Jimin a lot, and it's pretty obvious. I have always favored him, actually, otherwise our fans wouldn't be shipping us or whatever since debut. But... you know I can't simply start a relationship with him, and that's not even up to discussion.  

JH: Fine. You know how I feel about this kind of things, so you know I'm with you in this. But my point here is: what about him, though? Does he agree with it? He is aware that this, whatever this means, is all you two will ever be? - Hoseok then stared at him with eyes filled with concern, his noodles already cold and soggy in his hands.

YG: From the very beginning. I was totally honest with him, Seok, trust me. He knew where he was getting into and yet he agreed. I'm not doing him dirty, you know I wouldn't do it; actually I've tried to stop this long time ago, but he just keeps coming to me, and... well, you know the jazz. 

JH: If you truly wanted it to stop, then you would have stopped him. I know it's hard to say no when someone as attractive as Jimin is trowing himself at you, but if anyone is capable of turning off everything in order to remain rational about something, it is you. - Yoongi then looked away and crossed his arms over his chest defensively. If Hoseok wasn't 100% sure of what he was about to say, now Yoongi just made it really easy for him. - Hyung, I've seen the way you look at him. We have all seen it. Whatever you have with him, it's a whole lot more than what we used to have, and you know it. You are just in denial, and it's not even unconscientious. - He then sighed deeply before reaching out to caress the older's knees affectionately - Look, I'm not judging you nor anything like that. I'm just really concerned, and it's not just about Jimin. I just really hope you guys can find a healthy way to deal with it. For heaven's sake, one chaotic couple is troublesome enough! - he finished and then got up, grabbing a grumpy Yoongi by the wrist and dragging him back to their work station. 

TH: What happened this time? Hobi hyung went to my room and told me you were crying before he left to the studio. - Taehyung got into JiHope's room only to find Jimin curled up in his bed, sniffing softly while hugging his pillow tightly against his chest. 

JM: Of course he would... - he scoffed rolling his eyes, and then scorched to the side in order to make room for his best friend to lie down and cuddle him - it's just... I don't even know why I even bother, you know? I should be used to it by now, but I guess being ing stupid is a 95 thing - he joked humorlessly getting Tae to hug him even tighter, pulling his face flush against his neck and caressing his hair.

TH: Chim, you said you were going to stop this mess with Yoongi hyung, like, six months ago. You knew from the beginning that it wasn't supposed to go any further than that first kiss, specially after hyung himself told you he wasn't going to reciprocate your feelings.

JM: I know. I should have, but when do I ever do what am I supposed to? - he joked again and Taehyung poked at his ribs, finally feeling a small smile forming against his neck - I thought that maybe with time my feelings would disappear, like it was just platonic or some like that. This is how this things always work: you meet someone, you develop platonic feelings, you eventually start confusing these feelings with love, but then when you finally get to tap that ... BOOM! The "magic" disappears and you realise that at the end of the day you were just and lonely. - at this Taehyung actually laughs, because it was like having his entire teenage years described in one simple sentence - but obviously with Yoongi just had to be different, so my stupid feelings started to grow instead. ! I'm so damn dumb... - he blew out as new tears started to prickle the corner of his eyes. 

TH: No, you're not. We can't chose who we love, and YOU is the one who told me this many times before. - he reassured while pulling Jimin up to whip his tears - You were fine, though. I mean, did something happen last night? Out of the usual "you can't stay the night, go to your room or Hoseok might get worried"?

JM: That idiot always kicks me out after we make out... I swear he makes me feel like a e sometimes! - Jimin blew out, kicking the pillows to the floor.

TH: But you guys already talked it through, though. He told you he won't let you stay because sleeping together feels too intimate for him, so it's too hard to keep things "simple", as he likes to say. - Jimin only nodded and then sighed - Okay, so you wouldn't be this hurt over this. What else happened?

JM: Well... do you remember how Yoongi hyung twisted his ankle last week during rehearsal, right? Yesterday when we were coming home he complained that it was hurting, so I offered to go to his room later and massage it, like I always do with Hobi hyung when he is in pain and vice versa. Anyway, so you know how one thing always leads to another, and then... well, we ended up kissing, and then I took off my shirt, he took of his, I got into his lap, he grabbed my ... well, you know the jazz.

TH: So? You guys always make out, what's new?

JM: I... might or might not have asked him to... me. - Jimin said and then covered his face with his small hands, dipping his head into the mattress in a failed attempt to create a black hole and disappear into it. 

TH: Uh... okay. Gimme a second. - Taehyung said trying not to lose his because his self proclaimed straight best friend (he swore whatever he had with Yoongi was totally no homo. Denial at its best, you see) just confessed he was willing to - his brains out with his no-homo bro in a totally just-bros-being-dudes situation - First of all: you know you can't possibly touch a ing and then give people this no-homo bull ever again, right? Second: you said so yourself you guys never even thought about going anywhere beyond face, and it's not like anyone bought it, but you still said it like a ing mantra over and over again. And third: is this your idea of "keeping things simple so no one gets hurt", Park Jimin??

JM: , Taehyung, I know I ed up, okay? I don't even know what the got into me, it was like I was possessed or something, I don't even know! - Jimin stressed, running his fingers through his hair messily - but that's not the ing point here, okay? The point is... - he stopped mid-sentence and looked up at the ceiling, letting out a heavy breathe and snapping his knuckles anxiously before starting over - the mothering point is Min Yoongi, that er, simply stared at me like I had grown another head and then unceremoniously dropped me from his lap and walked away. Just like that.  walked away after I offered him my ing without a word! 

TH: Wow. Uh... okay, that's... all levels of ed up. 

JM: Hold on, because that's not even the worst part! - the smaller stressed further, gritting his teeth between his words - Obviously I wouldn't just stay put and have it, so I followed him to the bathroom and he was casually brushing his teeth and washing his face like he didn't just ing turned his back on me as if I was nothing! Then I snapped and asked what the was his problem, and you know what he said? "I don't see you like that, Jimin. Sorry."

TH: He... Oh no, he didn't. - Taehyung was as shocked as Jimin now. He knew Yoongi could be a pain in the sometimes and act like an idiot on purpose, but that? Well, that was just another level. - So you are telling me Yoongi hyung told you he didn't see you ually after expending over six months with his tongue down your throat while having a in his pants and his hands up your ? - Jimin then just shrugged and threw hands, just as pissed and confused - Listen, I don't know what in the seven hells got into him, but I'll be giving him a piece of my mind real soon.

JM: Good look with that. - was all he could offer before resuming his sulking state into his friend's arms. - enough of Yoongi. What about you? How are things with Bogum? 

TH: It's good. Better than good, actually. You know him and how nicely he treats me. Actually, just the fact that he respects me enough, to... Well, wait for me.

JM: If he's not pressuring you to have , than he already has extra points with me. But we already know he's a nice person. What I mean to know is how are YOU feeling.

TH: I'm fine, Chim. Seriously. I really like him, I enjoy his company, he's smart and polite and we can literally talk about anything. Plus, he's gorgeous and a great kisser. - Taehyung answered simply with a happy face, but Jimin could see that his smile failed to reach his eyes.

JM: So... if he's really that great and awesome and handsome and his kisses are the bomb, then why wouldn't you, y'know, get intimate with him? Don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm saying you have to just because you are dating, it's nothing like that. It's just... It would be natural to want to. Right? - Jimin pressed carefully, knowing exactly where this conversation was going. He knew it was a delicate subject, but he couldn't help but to try and be honest with his friend, and seeing how Taehyung's face fell just confirmed it all.

TH: He is. He is all of that and more, Jimin. - Taehyung answered, eyes trained on the wall as he released a deep sigh - And that's what makes me so ing mad at myself, y'know? He truly is perfect, and yet... It's like I can't bring myself to fall in love with him, and I don't know why. I'm stupid. - he finished, exhaustion clear in his voice. Jimin then untangled himself from the other and sat down, rushing Taehyung to sit as well and grabbing both his hands between his small ones.

JM: Tae... you do know why you can't fall in love with Bogum. - he started - I don't even need to voice it out for you again, so I won't bother. Also, we have talked about it so many times already, and I know that you have already made up your mind, so it's pointless to take it any further. Yet... I can't just stay put and watch. You are torturing youself over something you have absolutely no control over or whatsoever, and everyone can see it! You can't just keep beating yourself up for not being able to choose who to fall in or out of love with, and you know that I'm talking from experience here. - Now it was Taehyung's time to cry, warm tears running down his face as he was forced to face the reality he as working so hard to deny - If you don't want to work things out with Jeongguk, I understand and I respect that; it's your life, your choice, and no one get's to tell you what's best for you but your own self. But to keep this relationship going... Tae, it's only going to hurt the three of you even further. You know Bogum can see right through you, and he knows that he's not the one for you; yet he keeps trying because he loves you and he has hopes that you might reciprocate his feelings someday. But is it fair? Don't you think he deserves better? You know... people can choose for themselves, and he chose you even knowing it all, so it's not like anyone can blame you for it; but when people are in love, they can't see clearly, and sometimes it's for the best if someone else do it for them instead. You can choose not to let him go through it, Tae. - Jimin finished as he brought his hands to whip Taehyung's tears before pulling him in for a tight hug. 

TH: I miss him so ing much, Jimin... - he let out between sobs - Even after all he's been putting himself through, and even knowing that he's doing it all just so he can hurt me like I hurt him... I still love him the same. I don't care how many guys or girls he's met, I don't care about the hickeys he's making sure to expose, I don't care about the nights he spends out nor that stupid group chat he got into just so he can make me jealous. Nothing matters, Jimin, and that's what scares me! I was supposed to hate him, goddammit! I was supposed to yell at him and call him out for being such a immature little , but I... ! - he blew out while sobbing in Jimin's shoulder. 

JM: Shhhh... it's okay. Cry all you want, let it all out... - he kept trying to soothe him, heart aching and tears fighting their way through his eyes as well. Seeing his two brothers suffering like that was actually harder than suffering himself; the worst part is that there's nothing he can do to help. Jeongguk kept pulling all that self-destructive , trying to wash away his feelings with alcohol and meaningless , while Taehyung was so damn depressed he couldn't even remember the last time he saw an honest smile in his face. Yet both insisted on keeping their stupid poker faces, acting out like everything is awesome and nothing hurts, acting out like they were not still madly in love with each other and it was ing killing them. - How about we both make a promise? - Jimin spoke up getting Taehyung to pull away from the hug and look at him with swollen eyes. - I promise that I will work this out with Yoongi hyung once for all, even if it means I have to put an end to it. And you promise me you will come clean to Bogum and try to work your with Jeongguk, even if it means that you have to get back together. 

TH: But... Chim, Jeongguk and I, we can't-

JM: Nope. Enough with that already. - he interrupted the younger harshly - you know what you and Jeongguk can't, Taehyung? You can't keep ing killing yourselves like that! That's what you both can't do! I don't give a if it's hard or not. You guys broke up in order to try and feel better, in order to try and live happily and freed from fear and concern, but how did that work? You idiots are feeling even worse! When you were together it was stressful, frustrating, exhausting and all that jazz, but at least you were ing happy, even if just for a couple of hours. Now you are miserable 24/7 and we are all done with it. - Taehyung remained silent, filled with shame. He wasn't ashamed about the decision he made, because at that time it was the right thing to do. He was ashamed because even after realizing that neither of them was going to get over each other like he planned, he still chose to be a coward and not fix it. 

TH: I promise. I'll fix everything.