Jooheon stared at the piece of paper in his hands, reading it for what felt like the twentieth time.

To who ever is reading this...

Please, just read my words...

Let me feel as if for one second in time, my feelings were worth something...

To who ever is reading this...

This is my desperation...

I wish I could tell someone…

How I feel so empty…

How I can be happy and a second later be blinded by rage or overcome with sadness…

How I can’t stop worrying about the future…

How my anxiety cripples me from moving forward…

How motivation is harder to find than finding myself…

How I’m losing my passion for everything…

How I feel like I’m drowning…

How I feel so lost…

How scared I am…

How I wish I could believe in myself…

How I wish I could believe compliments instead of insults…

How I wish I could see that I’m worth something...

My name is Lee Minhyuk...

I am in love with Chae Hyungwon...

He is falling in love with someone else...

And right now...

I'm falling apart.

I feel so alone

and lost

and I feel like my world is caving in

and I've tried for so long

to chase this feeling away

but after three years

of desperation...

I think... this is going to be my last cry for help...

So, to who ever is reading this...

My phone number is on the bottom of this paper...

Please, let me say my last goodbye to you...

So I don't feel so alone.

I'll wait for you...

-Lee Minhyuk ×××-×××-××××