"Slowly killing me"

Have you ever had this feeling where immense sadness rush in? and the worst thing is, you feel like no one is there for you to help you or talk to you?  Yes I have friends whom I can trust and/or be the outlet of my dramas but you know THEY'RE NOT ENOUGH, no I dont mean to offend them in any way, they have been with me ever since I can remember through bad times or good times but when it comes to drama, it seems like they are not the one who can be the great trashcans to throw my s in. I have a serious problem (mild for some) and I need someone who I can talk to, but the funny thing is, I dont want that girl who will say "You can go through all of that, just be strong" or "I am always here for you" all those shenanigans nor person who will say "you deserve that" or "Its okay lets just hop in my car and club it all out" sometimes I cant even understand myself. I may be in the process or already in the state of being depressed who knows? Ugh. days passed and Im slowly getting detoriated.

[a/n: Sorry for my wrong grammars and lack of proper punctuation, I cant even pull myself together so what do you expect on my writings? lol byeee]