my heart,

it's there.

or is it not?

 

i am trapped.

 

you were my escape.

 

now i am in a room filled with darkness.

 

i still don't know what's tougher,

is it to endure my pain?

or to take in that you've suffered?

 

they say the best actor 

are those who cry in films.

 

to me you are the best actor.

 

i still don't know you, Kim Jonghyun.

i never knew you existed.

 

they call out to you.

it's not your name.

or is it?

 

i want to imagine us together

but i still can't see you 

 

i am alone.

do you exist?

do I exist?