i closed my ears not believing

how could you do this to you?

 

i rushed to fly back home 

thinking 

what if your soul had flown too?

 

as i trailed the head mourner,

in this nightmare I was still asleep.

 

i buried my face into his shoulder

thinking of how you would be buried

 

i pulled the key and screamed

 

where are you

 

i looked to my right,

thinking you would be there

 

if not to my call,

at least to my tears,

but you were out of sight.

 

so i closed my eyes 

 

trying 

to walk to utopia

but you weren't there to be found

 

thinking 

which one of your smiles were feigned

but I lost count

 

straining 

to hear your voice

but there was no sound

 

if i couldn't open my eyes,

if i couldn't close them,

should i wait in pain for

someone to tell me what to do?

 

i waited for you,

but you never answered.

 

how long more till my escape?