I often find myself walking in circles. Repeating the same mistakes that lead me down this path.

I cant remember the last time i felt happy.

Its a funny thing to be all alone. In isolation. Completly surrounded by the silence, forced to face the demons inside you. 

Its a funny thing sprialing- 

sometimes theres a hole in the ground and i wonder how it feels to fall into. To crash. 

      And then i remember i ready have. 

Theres that constant reminder of security. A safety blanket forged in my head. And then it all just falls away and i can hear your laughter. 

    Its the same cycle everyday. I wake up, i eat, i stare at my phone for hours begging for you to call.  But you never do. Ive been told that its obbsession . 

Im not obbsessed.  Im in love. 

Is it so wrong for me to want to taste your lips again? To feel your body against mine? Your heart syncronized to me? 

Is it so bad to fall in love sll over again?