I want to laugh at my misery… but I can’t.

Not if I am hanging by the cliff with only a vine that keeps me from falling towards the pointed rocks and dark, cold waters down below.

But despite everything, my impending doom felt so surreal.

One minute I was inside my tent and the other, I am here hanging by the cliff.

I wanted to smile thinking how funny and absurd this looked like… but as I glanced at the person hanging beside me. My smile turned upside down.

She was crying, no, yelling for help.

I want to comfort her… I want to tell her that everything would be all right… that we would be saved… but I can’t.

I hate her.

Because of her,

Tabi cheated on me.

My Tabi cheated on me.

I closed my eyes and tried to calm myself but there are a lot of emotions in my heart that kept me from being calm.

I looked up and saw Tabi looking down at us, he was reaching down to us, unsure of who he would save first.

He can’t save both.

We were both drifting away and one second too late will be the end of either one us.

I bitterly smiled.

I wondered.

Who will he save?

Me or her?

Me, his girlfriend, who loves him so much and willing to sacrifice everything for him

Or

Her, the new girl, who he just met and gave him a new purpose, a new thrill in life.

One of the vine's roots snapped and I let out a loud gasp.

And as if that intake of air made me realized the gravity of the situation.

I started to shake, the fear of falling and dying at the same time the pain of seeing the one you love in the arms of another started to invade my body and my mind.

Tears started to fall out.

‘Tabi… save me please.’ I cried.

Memories of our time together started to flash in my mind, giving me the reasons why he would save me. That maybe, with this, he’ll realized that he only needs me in his life. It gave me strength to hold on.

‘Tabi loves me.’  I reminded myself. ‘He would save me. He will not let me go…’

But when I looked up, my heart broke into a million pieces.

He made a choice.

He chose her. 

I bitterly smiled for my misfortune.

It was painful… but it was the truth.

I should have listened to my friends… but I didn’t.

I was blinded by my love for him that I closed my eyes and ears to whatever they have to say about them.

I guess that’s what love is.

All of my senses started to leave me and it was replaced by a gnawing, dark hole in my chest.

It was becoming unbearable and breathing too became unbearable.

I felt the vine that kept me in place slowly started to separate from the ground.

I closed my eyes and decided to accept the fact that this may be the best way.

I looked up and saw him hugging her while crying…

I bitterly smiled.

He made a choice.

I should make mine too.

With all efforts, I called on to him.

“Tabi!”

His eyes snapped open when he heard my voice.

“D~dara?” He looked at me confused.

He pushed the girl in his arms away and looked at her, his eyes widening even more.

He glanced at me horrified and terrified.

I smiled at him.

“Tabi… Saranghae.”

I felt the root completely snapping but before it can successfully deliver me to my death… I closed my eyes and let go.

I heard him call my name and I smiled as I felt the sudden pain as darkness and coldness consumed my whole body… and my broken heart.