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October 2014

“YAH! Myeon? Let's call it a day.” I encourage the guy in front of me

“Aiissshhh… You go if you want to.” He lifelessly answered as he poured himself another soju shot

“It’s 3AM, I need to go home, We both have to rest, We have work tomorrow.” I said as I decided to gather the trash off the table

I stood up to put it in the can when he spoke harshly to me, causing me to stop at my place

“Why did you do it? Why did you kicked Jessica out?” He accused me, looking at me like what he is saying is true

My chest is heaving, what happened to my group is beyond the pain I’m having than he has and here he was accusing me because of his one-sided love to Jessica Eonnie, I looked at him straight in the eyes and trying to find that he doesn’t mean to accused me but I failed, his eyes are glaring and ready to fight for his love to her

“You don’t know what happened, So don’t give me that look.” I tried to compose myself, he does love her, he really is

He stood up from his seat and followed when he saw I’m leaving, taking off the spare slippers he lend to me and now wearing my flats, he grabbed me harshly back to his living room of his own apartment, I knew this place, he did brought me here when we are still trainees, his rich father gave him the apartment as his temporary house for him to stay near the agency

He was holding me in my arms, towering his height to me, he is pleading with the words he only want to hear

“Tell me is she coming back? I need to tell her my feelings.” That words stabbed me straight to the heart

I cupped his cheeks with my warm palms and tried him to stay looking at me, I’m trembling but I need to give him the right answers, the real ones

“I don’t know.” I nervously tell him the truth and with that he let his guard down

He cried in front of me, the JunMyeon that I least want to see, the JunMyeon who’s lost and weak, the JunMyeon who is hurting too much because of loving someone who doesn’t know if he has a chance or does she love him back

He slowly let go of my arms and he trapped me with his embrace, face resting at the crook of my neck, wet because of his tears, I can fell him shuttering against me, How I wish I can have all his pain, I can endure it for him

I felt him move away from me, his hands traveling from the small of my back up to my neck, both hands under my jaw, his gaze are different

“Help me to get over the pain.” He pleaded as he close his eyes and puckered his lips and i remembered how we end up in this kind of set up

We did make-out a lot when we are trainees, its such a routine for the both of us since we promised to focus on our careers and will just have each other for pleasure and stress relief purposes, this relationship goes on before I debuted as a Girls’ Generation member and also that is the time we stopped because of the different  schedule and I need to take good care of my new career, we lost contact since then, I am out working overseas back and forth to Korea, while he was busy to debut soon, then he did debut, I was the happiest for him if he only knew, I was silently watching him, his progress in his career and as a person, he finally made it

I thought when he debuted he at least make the move to at least give our friendship another chance, a fresh start but he is too prideful, he didn’t acknowledge me at all, only when the cameras and my members are present, he always made me feel like it was my fault we lost the connection, we lost the friendship; like I lost a lover

But then somehow it change, When MinHo invited me to the 1991 club’s drinking session, I was not in the mood actually but MinHo’s perseverance got me, so after that awards show, the atmosphere is good and I have no work tomorrow, the members decided to go to their own that’s why I ended up accepting MinHo’s ambush invitation

“Yah! Choi MinHo, I decided to go hone you know.” I mocked my long time friend as I sat across him

“Jin, You are no fun if you did that, besides its the best time to drink and its been awhile since you last join.” He reason out as he handed me my shot glass with poured soju

MinHo announced to the group my arrival, so I was obliged to stand up and bowed to everyone, the thing is I was to comfortable in what I wear tonight, well, I’m just having a late night Frappucino party at Starbucks when MinHo called me, just wearing a long sleeves white blouse tucked on my shorts and wearing just a plain Steve Madden sandals

I was talking to MinHo about the performance we had and the other artist earlier at the event when I felt someone sat beside me, I take a lazy turned of my body to my right to look who it was and when I saw JunMyeon is the one sitting beside me, I felt all my blood drain out of my body

I let out a sigh before laughing to myself, I can fell two pairs of eyes watching me

“This is too sudden, Goodnes!” I’m loosing my sanity

The two lads just kept on judging me

“Don’t you think I’m crazy?” I tapped JunMyeon’s arm making him change his gaze to me to a worried one

“A bit? Yeah, knowing you.” He manages to answered me

My laughter died down and just stayed looking at him, did he really think I’m crazy, this is just my initial reaction seeing him this close again, I was dishearten with his words

Then he suddenly flicked my forehead king me blink for a thousand times, did he just initiate skinship on me, right now?

And I heard MinHo and him laugh at my silliness, causing me to look at them back and forth

“Finally guys, you start to talk again, for good old time sake, Let’s be friends forever.” MinHo made his speech as he hold up his shot glass in the air, JunMyeon followed him and I latter joined them, we made a toast before gulping down our own ones, and the awkwardness between me and JunMyeon got to ashes just like that, We talked all night, and catch up with the years we loose as friends

As the night end, He offered to take me home in my own apartment, he walked me until to my apartment door

“Goodnight.” I shyly bid to him

“Neh, Goodnight.” He also said, I can sense he was about to say something more but he was hesitant so I politely close the door but he stopped it with his y arm

“I miss you so much.” He mumbled and I lost myself and pulled him inside, kissing  him passionately

I jumped on him as he support me with his strong arms, he closed my door with his feet and we focus on what we started

“Myeon…” I moaned as he bit my sensitive spot, he pinned me on the wall, as he busy himself ing my blouse and just tear it apart for being so impatient and throwing it away with his sweater

My skin his tingling the way he touch my sides going at my back to unclasped my bra and he was professional to do it easily, he tossed it too landing at the top of one of the lampshades in my living room, then he pressed his body closer to mine, brushing his chest against my s, feeling the radiating heat from his God sculpted body, He put me down and he trailed butterfly kisses on my throat down to the valley between my and stopped on my left abused by his tongue and teeth making me arched my back in pure bliss then his tongue my s making a loud pop before he goes back the trail of my stomach as he knelt down

He was looking up to me while ing my shorts and hook his fingers on the loops pulling down on my legs along side of my underwear, I kicked it as the last pieces of garments pooled on my feet

“Can I eat you out?” He asked permission and I nodded, who wouldn't resist if the man is using his puppy eyes on you

He made one of my legs hook on his shoulders, and then he place his palms on my pushing me closer to his face, I can feel his hot breathes fanning my wet core, he let out his tongue and started to me, in and out, circular motion and nipping my once in a while, his tongue is amazing and I couldn't help feeling my insides churn

“Myeon, I’m close” I confessed and he did stopped after he sip all of my juices

He got back to his feet and removed his pants with is underwear, his sprung out against his stomach, the tip is red and I bet it does ache, he told me to jumped again on him and he catches me, he walk us to my room and placed me on my dresser, big mirror behind us

“ me now, Myeon.” I begged between our lustful kiss and I felt him smirk

He aligned himself from my entrance and brushed the tip before he inserted his full length in me

“Myeon…” I called his name because its too much, I can feel myself tearing apart

He cupped my cheeks and brushed my tears away with his thumb

“Endure it please. The pain would not take long.” He consoled me and I nodded for him to go on

He did and he snapped his hips on mine, I bit his shoulder, this is too much for me, he hold me closer. one hand on my lower back while the other one is at the back of my head, pushing me closer too deepen the kiss and made me forget the pain of first time, he swallowed all my whimpers and those whimpers are gone and now place with my subtle moans of pleasure

JunMyeon bucked his hips harshly, causing his balls to slapped on the skin of my , he goes faster, rougher and I’m going crazy as he held up my ankles to his shoulder giving me an new angle of pure heaven

“I can’t…” I mumbled between my shrill cries of pleasure

“Let go, Jin.” He groaned as he felt my walls tighten around him

And I need what he said causing my eyes to roll back on my head, my ever first hit me, I’m panting and let JunMyeon continue to follow his own one and latter hit his too

He placed his forehead on mine and God knows how many times we ed each other that time and leads as our “exclusive stress reliever”

Present

Last night is different, we ended up in his bed without having , I'm not stress, he is not stress, just some smooches happened but he is very gentle with last night, he just let me rest my head on his chest and we talked about their upcoming concert this November , which he is too hype about, of course I’m happy, being his best friend and hearing things like this from him makes me giddy because it means he trust me

I was telling how the arrangement of the group since my three members decided to not to renew their contracts when I looked up to him and he was not listening

“Are you okay?” I asked as I propped myself up with my elbows

He looked at me and he looks uneasy but manage to speak about this urgent topic he has in mind, I let him first to talk before I propose to him that I want a serious relationship with him

“Well, I think this for a long time, I’ve been single for a long long time.” He started and him proposing to me got my hopes high

God he truly knows the timing, I was grinning and got closer to him; He chuckled on my eagerness

“You told me to be in a  relationship so someone will take care of me, So I have decided to pursue someone.” He teased me with his cliff hanging sentence

I was always waiting for him to go on, he patted my hair lovingly and I was blushing madly, I knew since I felt my cheeks burning

“I decided to court…” He stopped looking at my eyes, I nodded for him to go on but he was to slow so I said my sweet yes to him

“Yes?” He sat up

“Of course. Yes.” I followed him sat up

“Jin, You are the best! Finally I got your blessing.” He said making me confused

“Blessing?” I asked as we let go of each other

“Yes, I decided to court JooHyun.” And those words make all the life out of me

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