dont go! Im scared dont leave me alone!  

I woke up sweaty and panting, I wipe my face with my hands. Its eating me 

I look at the person who is sleeping beside me, I caressed her cheek.

"Im sorry for everything" I whispered to her ear 

I walked my way to the roof top climbing the stairs silently thinking of what should I do. 

I look at the dark sky. there was no star.

I feel the wind pass by as if it was calling me 

I took a step closer to the edge, I close my eyes and feel the wind 

"Jump" someone whispered 

I feel myself falling fast 

I close my eyes preparing for the impact

-[-]-

here I am now standing in front of her dead body, tears was flowing down my cheek 

"Wendy ah why didnt you tell me?" I held her hands

it was cold as ice

"I will always love you" I whispered to her ears and kiss her lips for the last time 

I held on the letter that she left on the side table 

" dear Joohyun,

my love im sorry for leaving you this early but I cant handle it anymore. its eating me, I tried so hard to fight it but I cant. I didnt want to tell you because I dont wanna be a burden. dont let my death be the lock of your heart. please let someone new live the new chapter with you. Its not that I dont wanna be with you anymore but my emotions is the one controlling me, this depression wont leave me alone. Im sorry and I will always watch over yo