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This is Tiffany POV
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*Better than a pretentious greeting
Oh I’d rather be alone
I won’t waste my time*

September 2014

I never felt so empty like this, sure we have performed without Jessi before but this time was different. It was our first performance after Jessica’s departured in China. There wouldn’t be a late Jessi and I would never have an English buddy again to performed our Gee Song. When we sang ‘Complete’ at this Fan meet, I couldn’t look in to the audience, it’s hurt. When there’s a member that shed their tears I couldn’t help but feel worsened than ever. We would miss you Jessi, and when I turned my attention, Taeyeon stared at me and encouraged me that everything would be okay. I believe in her. Stay strong, Jessi.

February 2015

A lot has happened few moths ago. We finally made it, we could held our concert at Tokyo Dome, but sadly without Jessi. Our TTS second album was also released, too bad due to Jessica’s departure our second album didn’t get better result than our first album. We even had to made the fans understood and trust us once more. We still went strong, Life was never flat that was Taeyeon always said to cheered us up.
And this month, As a member of the Girls Generation's official sub group TaeTiSeo, we were in  New York city to represent the French fashion brand Louis Quatorze. The brand released elegant photos of us on the red carpet accompanied by bodyguards.

It was not the first time that we attended fashion shows in New York City. In 2014 we stole the spotlight at the Ralph Lauren runway show.

“I heard that Jessica is here too” Sooyoung told me on the phone.

“So? Will you meet her?” I asked her

“I don’t know, I don’t think so…” Sooyoung answered

Another silence, and Soo hang up her phone on me. So Jessi was here too? I wondered what was she doing here?. Before I could thinking more about her, Taeyeon touched my shoulder to have my attention. And soon we were busy with our schedule again.

April 2015

*This too shall pass
It always has been
I’ll be strong once again*

It was Jessi first birthday without us, but I was too busy with our preparation for our comeback as SNSD. And even after she had left the group, we never had any communication with her. We always have our time for any member’s birthday before but Now everything seemed different. Or was it only me?? I didn’t know.

July 2015

*Don’t call this like a beautiful farewell
That’s selfish
Because it makes me expect something again
But, of course you don’t*

Finally the day has came, for the first time we released our new album with 8 members. We became busy again, there always  a time when any fans asked us about how  we felt about this album, and Taeyeon answered it and said that this album was her favourite. Well after all we have to promoted our album so we agreed with Taeyeon’s statement. We held a concert, Phantasia was the title, and it was a big success. Few months later we heard that Jessica left SM and went to Coridel Entertainment, it was Tyler Kwon’s company. The guy that made Jessi left us, well that was what I thought about. I cursed Hyoyeon when she introduced him to Jessi. I wished they never knew each other. Now, seemed like Jessi  would never comeback to Our group again. I hope Soojung would take care of Jessi well. Soojung never talked to anyone of us anymore since Jessica left the group, even to Yoona, or was it only in front of us? I didn’t know.

March 2016

Fans suspect that SooYoung and Jessica met in the U.S. The fans assumption started from a couple of pictures on SNS of the photographers close to Girls’ Generation members.

One netizen found out while tracing where Girls’ Generation members go and what they do, and the speculation was posted on a certain online community. The netizen also wondered whether Sunny and I also met Jessica and SooYoung in the U.S. since we went to U.S., too. But no, we didn’t meet Jessi.
 

I was arrived safely at Paris and prepared myself cause tomorrow i would attend the Paris Fashion week. After attending the Fashion week, I was joined Kim Irene a model to have some drink. From Irene Unnie I would know about Jessica’s news.  Jessica often hang out with the model after she was out from our group. Moments later, I heard that Irene unnie has called Jessi to joined her at the party too, so I better bid my Goodbye now.

“Unnie, I get to go?”

“Already?” Irene unnie frown.

“Sorry unnie, but you know we couldn’t meet right? it would be awkward and who knows there would be a paparazzi that will see us together here” I chuckled.

“Yeah, I know. It’s . I hope one day the three of us can hang out together” Irene unnie said while hugging me.

I was in hurry and opened the restaurant’s door only to met Jessica’s figure in front of me. Both of us looked up and froze, I didn't expect this neither the girl in front of me.

*The rainy day, You & I
At the moment when we didn’t say anything
There was only awkward air between you and me
It pushed each other
There were only cold expressions*

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'Jessi..?' I was called her in my mind. We stared at each other, Jessica looked away first.
"Fany, you forget about yo- oh Jess you are... here already" Irene unnie asked awkwardly. She aware about the awkward tension.
"I i got to go, thanks unnie for bring my handphone back" I said nervously.
"I i'll see you around unnie" I hugged Irene unnie and bid her goodbye.
'She still georgeous like ever' I thought.

"Com come in, Jess" Irene told Jessica.
"Su sure" Jessica answered.

I heard them talked awkwardly when I passed by Jessi.

‘How I missed you Jessi, I know you must be angry with me, please forgive me’ Tiffany whispered.

May 2016

*Now, you & I
Can we go back again?
I still miss even the last time
All the same*

After their first encounter since Jessica's departured from GG, they never met again. That was when SM told Tiffany to released her mini album this month, a week earlier than Jessica.

I knew we would never meet each other in any music show cause SM has blocked her, it was part of her agreement with SM when Jessica wanted to left the company. But Fans really apreciated her music and her first album sold well, even better than me but deep inside my heart I was happy for her too. We have different taste in music but blended well when we singing together.
"I missed singing with you, Jessi" i said whisperly.

I was so busy after my first mini album, I did many promotion for my debut Solo, Soo helped me with the lyrics and Taeyeon and other members also cheered for me. I feel so blessed. And I also has another single project with a group called ‘Unnie’ from my variety show, they choosed me as a leader. The songs also performed well on charts.

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August 2016

*To the midst of rain
Into my tears
Bring me back to the summer storms
With you and I*

On my birthday I was so happy cause I could celebrate it with my fans. I was disguised my self as a pig, cute pink piggy!!  it was so fun and I really enjoyed it. Taeyeon bought a beautiful necklace as a gift for my birthday. Oh my god, and it has my initial name in it, Taeyeon was so sweet, she always be. I hugged her and kissed her cheeks, she was blushing, how cute. And I posted it in my SNS, our TaeNy fans went wild, Taeny indeed real I guessed.

I cropped Jessica's picture from our debut photo and posted it on my instagram to celebrate our 9th anniversary. And Fans blamed me for that pic. They said that I didn’t cherish Jessi as member of GG for seven years. I didn’t do it cause I hate Jessi, but I only want to avoid any misunderstanding but instead I created another chaos.

“You should use our picture as 8 members, Fany” Soo told me.

“I know, I’m sorry okay” I left her and went into my room.

And finally I had a nightmare, those nightmare also haunted me on my real life. My emoticon issue about Japan’s flag were spreading everywhere. All haters attacked and blamed me, although I have wrote 2 letters of apology they still blamed me. I was so scared to meet anybody, and when I was in SM building after my controversy, I met Soojung for the first time. I was there to talked to my CEO, he told me it was better for me to left ‘Unnie Slam dunk’ and another contract with some brands. A tears rolled down from my eyes, it was so hurt to hear that.

“Soojung…” I said weakly

“I feel sorry for the news, unnie. But at least you still have your others 7 member to cheer you up. It was better than Jess unnie who didn’t have any support from her member” Krystal said coldly. I could only cry, she was right. Jessi was alone at that time without us, or maybe it just me? I don’t know but I have this feeling that Soo and Yoong still in touch with Jessi.

“Jessi…”                            

January 2017

Lucky for me that I still have my members and other friend that support me through all of this nightmare. The only activity that I have was my group activity with SNSD. I really lost a lot of job after all those issue. And now SM asked us about our renewal contract, some of us didn’t agree with SM agreement so we hold it for a moment until we have a deal about the contract.

I rarely used my SNS now. I must be careful to use it now. I have tried to post any update but the hateful comment still there. Taeyeon did try her best to consoled me but still I feel empty, what was that ??

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March 2017

Last month was Sooyoung Birthday, together with some members including Taeyeon, we came to her party. I hoped that I would get some information about jessi from her, I knew that she must be still in touch with Jessi. Actually this past few months I tried to find any news about Jessi after my encounter with Krystal, even I also tried to attend another Fashion Show just to meet Irene unnie wiyh Hyoyeon, but none. There was no news about Jessi. I felt bad cause this month also Taeyeon’s Birthday, but I almost forgot about it. We celebrated it together like always, but my mind was nowhere.

“I’m Sorry, Tae Tae…”

June 2017

*I believed the way it is
I think I’m stupid
Because I have useless memories
And I live in there*

Jessica has released two mini album, eventhough SM blocked her performance, she still went well. And me? i didn't have any schedule other than my group's activity after my emoticon issue and some Photo session with some megazines. I read the news about Sooyoung and Yuri was being friend again with Jessi, was that true? I wondered about it.