If there is anywhere I could pen my thoughts down, it would be Asianfanfics.com. I mean, no one would know it's a true story and dedicated to Zico, right? I clicke on the familiar Start writing and starting writing.

Zico oppa, I don't know what I'm going to say but I know I have to let it out.

Back in 2009, do you still remember the promise that we made to each other? We made plans for our future even though we are only 15 and 17. Kekeke we were so naive. Sorry for breaking the promise, oppa. I didn't mean to leave you first, but I have to. My dad.... Aish. He doesn't want me to date until I'm older. But now that I'm 18 and you're 20... We're older right? But why are you leaving me again? We can finally be together right....?

Is this karma? I left you back in 2009 so now you're leaving me? I moved on, that's why you're leaving me with another girl right? Is she better than me? Like Minjung? Taller, prettier, slimmer? I hope she is the right girl for you ah Zico oppa.

All these time you were with you, you suffered. Tolerating me with my nonsense, you didn't complain a single thing. Thank you oppa, and I'm sorry..

Zico ah, do you really intend to hide the truth from you? The truth that you already have someone else. Who is she ah Zico? Can I know who she is? Why are you not telling me the truth? It involves me right? I have the right to know oppa.... Am I that unworthy of knowing it?

To tell you the truth, it hurts. It hurts so badly... I built walls within me around my heart to protect myself but you melted them down. It was hard to do so but you did, oppa. I opened up to you, I loved you. But now you're leaving me. Now, I have to build them up again... You've hurt me. It hurts to know that the person you've been tweeting about isn't me anymore. It was once for me right? Right? Please tell me they are... No wait, don't tell me. Don't tell me the truth, I'm afraid of it. Let me just assume that they are for me. Let this be the happy memories of ours, yes oppa? ^^

I still can't believe that everything that we have shared have ended and are fading away. Was I right about not getting together with you? Wait, we weren't even together in the first place ah.. Since there's no start, there's no end too. You made me feel like the happiest girl around, then you threw me back into hell. Cheesy, but that's how I felt.

I couldn't tell anyone how I felt, because no one seems to care anymore. Those smiles on my face are fake, and how many of them actually bothered, how many of them actually saw through those smiles of mine? None. I used to fantasize about how future would be like with you around. Guess I'll never find out. The only thing I know is how future would be like without you.

And those things that you told me about you loving me, are those fake? Are you love fake right from the beginning? Please tell me no, please..... You told me you have never stopped loving me. Is it real oppa? But then again, if you have never stopped loving me since 2009, the love between us would not have ceased that easily. I guess you've never loved me the way you told me you did? Or did you? Tell me, oppa....

Oppa, I'm still waiting ah. Not waiting for you to be back though, but waiting for you to tell me the truth.

And oppa, I love you. Even if I moved on in the future, I'll never stop loving you, a part of me will always be loving you. Just like the tattoo you have of me, it will never be gone. You'll always be my Zikitty oppa, my Woo Jiho oppa. We'll always be Zi-nona together, forever.....

Goodbye my love. Goodbye the love of my life.