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HomeThanks for waiting! Here's the first and final chapter. Btw, I'm going to use Yunho's POV. どうぞ~!^^
I was excited and giddy as I left the General's office and on the way to leave the camp. A lot of fans must be waiting outside to me. Sorry to keep you waiting, my Cassiopeia. Just a little more and you'll see me. I was a bit more conscious of myself because I wasn't wearing makeup on my face and I could see my facial hair. Ugh, I look like my real age. I just hope that the fans would still love me despite my bare face. I am also looking forward to seeing my family again. I wonder how Jihye is dealing with her married life, is she happy? She better be, or else I'd beat up that punk she married. My friends & colleagues, I miss seeing them. I miss Changmin, although I still have for a little bit longer before I can see him. I miss my hoobaes & sunbaes in SM. I am definitely looking forward to working with them again. I miss Yoochun & Junsu. I heard that Yoochun's getting married, I hope that he's happy and I'd get invited to his wedding. Also Junsu just entered the military, I just wish him his safety as he go through the training. Anyway I wonder how he is knowing that Yoochun's getting married. I know how close he is with Yoochun, I even thought that they're a thing just like me & Jaejoong back then. Speaking of who, I miss Jaejoong the most.
Months after the split of the group, we broke up. Jae cannot handle the stress anymore so he let go. As much as I don't want to, I have to. Just like what they say, when you love someone, set him free. I may have set our relationship free, but my heart, it can't.
Flashback:
"I'm tired, Yunho", I heard Jaejoong say while we were at the living room of the apartment we bought for the two of us. We bought it so that the fans would not see us go to each other's apartments and renting a room on a hotel is too hectic. His body is on my lap and my hands are on his waist. I felt him start to rise up after he said those words but I tightened my grip. "Then you can sleep here. Just lean on to me", I said. He shook and quickly rose up, making me let go of him, "Let's break up, Yunho". I felt the world shatter and crumble upon me as he said those four words. No, I must've misheard him. "I'm sorry, what did you say?", I asked. Jaejoong head was down, but I know he's crying judging from the shaking of his shoulders and the fist formed in his pretty hands, "I want to break up with you, Yunho", he said. This can't be. Lump formed in my throat as I stand up as well and hold him tight, "No, no no no no no. You're joking right, Jae? You can't be serious. I know you're tired but this is not the way to relieve your stress. We can cuddle, we can eat somewhere, or go somewhere, name it. But I can't do this. I can't, Jaejoong-ah. I love you too much for me to let you go. I'll be strong for us. If you can't be strong anymore, then I can. We can go through this, Jae. Just a little bit more", I told him. He pushed me a little and spoke as tears continue flowing in his eyes, "Exactly why I'm breaking up with you, Yunho. I can't see you giving me what is left of your strength that should be given to Changmin, to your fans. You can't give it to someone who is a weakling and a coward like me. You can't give it to me, who gave up and left the group. I don't deserve you, Yunho. I can't make you happy anymore. All I give you are problems and additional stress. I can see it in your eyes. You're tired, too. And yet when I'm with you, you give me this façade and I'm tired of seeing that. I know you don't love me anymore, you pity me". I tipped his chin up and wiped his tears with my thumb, "I am tired of everything except you, Jaejoong-ah. And I don't pity you, I love you, you of all people should know that. A coward and a weakling? How could you say that to yourself when you're the one who stood up against SM? I am in awe of you, Jae. Please, don't leave me". Despite those words, all I heard was his apology as he removed my hands and left the apartment
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