/ if you are a new reader , i recommend to you to read Burning Bridge and Stay before this /

Life is unpredictable , adventurous  and beautifully rich for everyone who didn't give up .
Love is infinite and eternal . Love can come from every direction with various shapes . If only you can leave your heart open , happiness will find you .
The story of true love between nam taehyun, kim jinwoo and lee seunghoon .

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”

Burning Bridge

Sequel of Sequel

Chapter 3-1

‘’Can you see me’’

                Winner’s  dorm is calm and peaceful for the first time after chaotic half a year. Kitchen and guest room all dark , only lights seen underneath of their bedroom doors . Everyone's in their own rooms , with their own thoughts  . They talked and solved and discussed million problems with each others, with the company, with their friends and with their family for monts . But some things are still uncertain. There is so many questions they can’t answer ,  so many things they can't figure out and wrap up their minds around it successfully .

Nevertheless, it is a time to wrap up past whether it is solved or not . Time will show, hard work will show the rest .

They were packing their luggages  for 2 days and 1 night vacation to japan . It is needed for the membets , time to easy anxiety and stress . So many things happened and changed after their last trip . It was always been 5 mics , 5 seats, 5 tickets , 5 passports , 5 luggages and 5 beds . Everybody feels how different it is going to be.

Time to stand on a stage is so close , to prove they can go through all of this obstacles more polished and more better than ever , but just when that time they craved and wanted for so long comes right in the corner , it feels somehow scary . Fear to not might meet expectations of fans, of public, of company and of collegues were so much . It’s like whole nation is waiting and watching them to make it or fail it .

          Seunghoon almost done preparing his luggage . He sent haute to his parent’s house . It was unsettling quiet without dog’s cheery spirit . He can’t stand the silence anymore , came out from his room . He gets excited when he sees the light underneath the older’s room and shuffling sound behind the door . Nowadays oldest room is always empty , makes him miss warm presence of oldest terribly, more than he can afford to himself .

• Wass up , hyung !
• Oh , seunghoonie . I don’t know which one to bring with me . Checkered one or mint one ? what do you think ? jinwoo offers two mtm  , shipting both of them on his chest , waiting for  his approval
• The checkered one , seunghoon drops on his bed , looking at jinwoo while he puts said one into his luggage
• You are losing weight hyung . seunghoon tries to sound nonchalant
• Is that so ? I didn’t know jinwoo hums absentmindedly while putting his belongings into his luggage 
• Are you... Did you even eat your dinners nowadays ? .., There.. ,where you always go ,... Is someone taking care of you  , Is someone cook for you ?
• Yes yes , I eat ofcourse . He , I , i mean my sister and her husband is very good cookers, you know . I just sometimes forget what time it is and  my stomach is not in a good condition nowadays anyway. It must be from overwork and stress and such . You know I don’t eat that much when work is hectic. jinwoo always easy to read, almost transparent but hard to crack
• But You never repused to eat when I cook 
• You are a good cooker seunghoon , and besides you  were experimenting your cooking skill on me though . 
• That too , but I still make sure you eat healthy stuff . If ... if you can stay in dinner time I can prepare it for you , everyday 
• You are busy seunghoon and me too  , but thank you . You sometimes amaze me
• Why ? 
• Nothing , just .., you doesn’t look like a someone that aware your surroundings but you give so much attention , without people’s knowing
• Of course I will give , I have feelings too . Seunghoon stands up from the bed , feeling awful suddenly
• No , I didn’t meant it that way , seunghoonah . You know I can’t express my thoughts that well , I was just trying to tell you , thank you for caring of me when it is not even your responsibility . Ugh , why I am so awful at this . You are not angry with me right ? , I always talks nonsense , I am sorry . Please seunghoon don’t leave like that .

 Jinwoo blocks his path to the door , looking at him guilty and puts his hands on his shoulders pushing him down to sit on the bed again . Seunhoon's shoulders suddenly so warm , blood warming up from where jinwoo’s hands lay , spreading through his whole body .

"Why it is always hard to be an ignorant in front of jinwoo" .

• Thank you seunghoon , I should be the one who takes care of you , All of you , but .. , I am thankful for everything seunghoon , I am so happy to have you , forgive me

Jinwoo always managed to make him an emotional wreck and it is really tiring to have so much hope and expectations from one oblivious person. Seunghoon wraps up his arms around jinwoo's waist,  who was standing in front of him, still waiting to listen something like forgiveness from him . But seunghoon can’t form right words , that words jinwoo was waiting from him . He might tell him something he didn’t want and need to hear .

 Jinwoo stiffens for a while, not knowing what to do with such sudden close proximity . They hugged and even kissed in front of fans from time to time . But it was first time he feels seunghoon’s strong arms around himself so thightly and his head on his stomach , without a camera, without a reason . Jinwoo mostly don’t know what is going on inside of seunghoon’s mind, he was a keeper and jinwoo knows some people are need to keep some secrets inside , so he don’t ask .

Jinwoo hesitatingly his hair softly , not knowing it is ok to do that . Although seunghoon was the one who were hugging him , he looked like a butterfly he can’t shoo away . Seunghoon might look calm to jinwoo but his inside were in a turmoil . "Why i can’t have this , why i am the one who should step aside" . After good 5 minutes , seunghoon let go off him and says

• Sorry …
• No .., I liked . are we good now ?
• We are always good jinwoo , hyung
• Yes we are , thank you for staying and smiles softly making seunghoon’s brain form  hundredth  different feelings he can't quite catch up . And all seunghoon let out  was a sigh and a chuckle. He loved to love jinwoo, even it was often hard to swallow 1000 different words and feelings that burn inside of him .

• Remember our first time traveled to japan ? It was our first overseas activity
• Yeah , it was my first time to rode a plane . I almost vomited when it is started to take off and land . I was such a pumpkin xaxa . Also remember how taehyun was so clumsy to prepare his luggage , although he learned so much tips from the internet . He even forgot to pack his toothbrash

Jinwoo didn’t notices seunghoon’s face went dark from laughing ,  still rumbles about taehyun and his days with him in japan . This Taehyun , that taehyun , it felt really unfair for seunghoon . Suddenly seunghoon throws down his luggage he was preparing , making it shed all over his room floor . Jinwoo is shocked at seunghoon’s sudden movements

• The heck , seunghoon , are you crazy ?

Seunghoon looks down mess on the floor , shacking all over like he was trying to not lose control . Jinwoo never saw him like this before . Seughoon never lose his cool , always making sure his emotions are under control . Jinwoo doubted seunghoon had that much bottled emotions . He always moves forward , without regret , without  doubt , just learning and accepting his mistakes while jinwoo always looked back. Chasing his mistakes , trying to solve and learn where everything went wrong . Now looking at him , jinwoo is sure he missed something important from seunghoon . 

• All you think and talk is taehyun . Look around . Look around yourself . Looks at us . Not only me but seungyoon and mino . We are all hanging here looking into your empty room, your empty spot on the sofa, your empty chair behind dinning table with untouched meals . Don’t leave us looking at your back . Look at how much we need and miss you jinwoo
• But I am here , I didn’t go anywhere . Jinwoo is confused but guilt never misses a time to settle on his heart 
• But you are not seeing us jinwoo hyung , we need you here the most , right in this moments,  to be feel strong and complete . Don’t , please hyung just don’t go further away . I am scared . I feel like losing you . We need you too, more than anyone . I don’t think I can go through this alone. Jinwoo's eyes burns with unshed tears , his voice is shaky and desperate and stubborn 
• But you have mino and seungyoon . I can’t always sit there just to make you feel at ease . I need to be there … for someone , for myself 
• why him , why I can’t but he can . Jinwoo looks at him terrified , who is he ? no one knows , he slowly starts to feel something was really wrong there , with him , with seunghoon 
• you , you are tired seunghoon , let’s forget this , go to your room , I am tired . Jinwoo gives his back to seunghoon 
• what he have that I don’t have . what is it ? tell me just one reason .
• I don’t know what you are talking about , just leave me alone please 
• he is not good for you , he is not for you . So it was really about him , how did he know about it, who again knows about them ? 
• you know nothing . no one can understand me and him . We are just different,  seunghoon . I am so different . I am not what I look like , you know it 
• if only you give me a chance , I could be the one . I could treat you better .     

‘’No way’’ was all jinwoo could think , seunghoon had a feelings for him ? since when ? for how long? How many times he hurted him without even knowing ? Something really sharp thing penetrates right through jinwoo’s heart . All this time he had been oblivious . Jinwoo knew better than anyone what seunghoon is going through , he was on his shoes not long ago . He knew through and through .

‘’What to do with you , seunghoonie’’

• Sometimes it is not about good or better , it is just something we need to have, that way we can feel really living . I am happy seunghoon , I wish you find your happiness soon too . You deserve so much and I am not the right one .

Before jinwoo could touch the handle , to get out maybe to run away  , seunghoon holds him back.

• It is late hyung , we have early plane , sleep now . It is midnight already, I will leave . Before he can close the door seunghoon whispers
• forget everything what I said , I am .., just tired and you too .
• ok,  seunghoon .  The time when the door closed, jinwoo’s tears runs down on his cheeks . He wish it wasn’t because of him . He recalls everything he did with seunghoon . And he wishes he wasn’t the the one who seunghoon thought about while cooking for meals and the reason behind his bright smile and cause of that defeated shoulders of his .

Chapter 3-2

‘’In Between’’

• Jinwoo hyung ?
• Taehyun?

They both stares into each other’s eyes, without saying single things . Just like how jinwoo pictured years ago . But it wasn’t that silence jinwoo predicted . They talked through with their eyes . The feelings weren’t changed and familiarity didn’t died .

Flashback

/ - Because I hate the thought of someday after years , maybe by a conscidence when we meet at convenience store or at coffee shop , I afraid we can't have a conversation more than greetings . Not knowing what to say more than that , hesitates to say more than polite greetings , trying to remember the old times we spent together. And regret it after i got home with my unspoken words and wonders . Time changes everything , i know it taehyun . I went through this more than i can count . When time flies everything we had ,our bond will just lose importance and vanish . We won't feel anything towards each other . I afraid we would fall apart taehyun /

• How are you doing? 
• I am fine . How are you doing ,
• I am good
• I heard your new album , I loved it . I buyed one .
• I saw your drama , I watch it every day
• You look happy
• You look happy too
• Days are getting better . I am matured
• You have always been
• No , I did losed so many things
• Me too , Live teaches us everyday in every way
• Seems so
• Bye hyung
• Bye taehyun
• Until see you again in my dreams 
• Until then 

       Taehyun closes the distance between them in one step and his arms circles behind jinwoo’s neck , jinwoo welcomes his warm arms and leans into his chest , his secret place. It was just 30 sec hug but it felt like an eternity for them . Taehyun kisses his lips corner like for the first time. The corner of their secret, promise and safety . Between lips and cheek . They are not lovers , they are not friends either. They are in love but not lovers , lovers but not in love. They happened , but not finished . They are each others escape from reality , day dream and somewhere in between . Place they created between hell and heaven .

Jinwoo and taehyun,  their short lived but powerful romance was something humanity crave and dream for . Like a ‘Romeo and Juliet’ . The difference was they didn’t needed to die for nothing . That time taehyun was inevitablely something jinwoo wanted and needed in his life and he was sure taehyun needed him as much as he needed him . Without  each other they couldn’t found themselves. Sometimes some people are in love but not together while some people are together and not in love .

They and their story, it was something special although it ended with so much regret and pain . They sacrificed their love for the future, for the people they love and for each other . And it was worthed . Everyone was happy . After they brokeup winner continued as 4 for again 4 years . After that jinwoo went into army . When he comeback from the army two years later, he didn’t renewed his contract as a jinwoo of winner. Maybe because there was so many gossips followed after him . About him and taehyun’s relationship and his gender . Netizens found their blurry pictures from their date . No one can prove it was them but no one also couldn’t prove it wasn’t them . But jinwoo recognized himself and taehyun and totally remembered that day . It was their first open date where they went to drive in movie teather . It was a memory he cherished to death . 

Whole scandal buried like it was nonsense but some fans wasn’t that easy . Maybe just through the years jinwoo lost that spark . And after talking about everything openly with members  , he signed with yg as a actor again . Seunghoon is now a solo artists , he is preparing for his first solo concert . Also he is working as a producer of survival program of upcoming yg’s new boy band’s . Seungyoon and mino works as soloist too. Mino is preparing to enlist after his art exhibition  . Seungyoon is one versatile artist . He sings rock , r&b , ballads and do drama too.  They often collab with each other , sometimes jinwoo would feature them when they need him .Jinwoo works as a full time actor , and he loves it more than anything . He started it from the bottom . Small sufforting roles and all . After 2 years constant hard work he finally started to get the lead roles . Taehyun did world tour with his band . His band is something korea never had before . They are making many Korean people proud for representing this genre of music and gaining much attentions from music world , everybody is keeping attention at South club band’s next album . It will probably shook korea and international fans . 

Life is unpredictable , adventurous  and beautifully rich for everybody who didn't give up .

Chapter 3-3

‘’Say you love me’’

• Jinwoo , what took you so long
• Oh , i wanted a good wine, took me long to choose , sorry
• Really ? I like your taste in wine , you always choose the best . I will make something delicious then
• Sounds good
• You look happy , something good happened ?
• No , I just happy to found what I was looking for long
• Really?
• yeah , what is with your face
• nothing , I was just thinking you look kissable
• you always says so
• but right now I really want to kiss you
• seunghoon geez , you are becoming more lovesick
• can’t help , come here

Seunghoon pulls jinwoo into his side , jinwoo still embressed from such little things in public . Jinwoo still checks through the car window to check if someone is watching them although seunghoon’s car had very heavy black tent .

It was hard battle for seunghoon to win over jinwoo . It was worthed all the wait, patience and countless try . He won’t lie . He had thought about  to gave up on him , too many nights he decided to end his one-sided love . But every morning when he found jinwoo sitting on their kitchen table with his bed hair and his oh so adoring sleepy smile and every time he found him drenched with sweats and tears in training room, his heart starts to beat all over again for him.  Only him and only for him again and again . He was a very determined man . He is thankful he didn’t give up and run from his feelings .

From his childhood up until now people often praised him for having kind and big heart . It must be true . His heart must be really big . He had two lovers . And he loved them equally but with different kind of love . With taehyun it was passionate ride or die love but with seunghoon it was gentle, caring and a feeling that you are breathing after long dive .

• did you changed your cologne ?
• no , why
• it smells different
• oh
• are you perhaps cheeting on me jinwoo
• what are you talking about seunghoon , don’t play like that . it hurts me .Something pricks on jinwoo’s heart . It wasn’t cheat . It was something were there, from the start . Seunghoon know this , Taehyun know this . It was something will last with him until death . Ofcourse he loves seunghoon . With much more purety , like how love should . But his heart had that part for taehyun . Nobody could touch it or provoke it . It should sleep there eternally . And other parts of his heart wholly beats just for this man in front of him , Strongly and powerfully . Life was really generous to him with this love . He feels blessed every morning  to  wake up and every night  to sleep in this man’s arm and with his soft , loving searing  kisses .
• I am sorry baby , I am bad boy . Please don’t be hurt . I was just kidding . it is always my mouth
• Your mouth always works before your mind
• It is true , I guess
• And,… I met taehyun there , just briefly . He looked good and healthy even . I was worrying about him , those news tabloids should burn in hell . Always writes such nonsenses .
• And you two met ?
• Yes , we did
• What did you talked ?
• Nothing much , just … almost nothing
• And ?
• That is that
• Mhm . Now jinwoo can read seunghoon much more and better . He should make it clear again . How many times seunghoon needs it , he will going give it to him .  Jinwoo won’t going to sit back and look how seunghoon’s heart is being wrinkle again because of him . He will iron every wrinkle and kiss every line of doubt .
• Seunghoon … I love you very much .

• I love you too / but you still loves him /
• You know , people and those paparazzi always follows him . We hugged briefly, just for … old times sake. And  just in case tomorrow maybe you will see 'nam taehyun hugs his former bandmate , actor kim jinwoo or  former bandmates of winner reunites in supermarket' or whatsoever titled news on the news tabloids. I should tell something like this to you right ? ,  or am I making too big deal out of it
• No no , you did right . I am happy you told me this . I might be get jealous if I found this from news .
• Oh , seunghoon . we are not in our 20s anymore
• Cant help , you still looks like a boy in his early twenty . I always should be in alert
• Oh my god , you are such a cheese . Who will approach me when I have this big sign on me
• It is not that big , I should choose more big to give them clear sign
• People will make fun of me . I already having a trouble to wear it everyday . I feel like people are watching at it always
• They should and get clear idea that you are taken
• You are way too territional than I thought
• Is it bad ?
• No , I kinda like it . Just don’t make it bigger than this . I sometimes getting hypnotized by it . Too blinding . I cant take my eyes from it when lights hit it . Really beautiful
• I am happy that you liked it
• I will always love everything from you
• You are mine forever
• And you are mine forever  
• Will you marry me
• I said my answer hundred times
• Say it again , I love to hear it
• Yes and yes and yes
• Thank you for choosing me
• No , I am more thankful that you chose to love me through all that hard years . You saved me seunghoon . I won’t choose anyone in this life time other than you . / In earth you have me compeletely /  

Now jinwoo were on his lap facing him, although seunghoon still can smell other man’s cologne on him . It didn’t mattered anymore . He boldly palmes his and  pulls jinwoo’s body into him, dismissing air between them . His breath getting ragged and heavy with need and so much emotions he can’t describe . He hugs jinwoo behind his small back , while jinwoo’s hands on his head, it gently . Seunghoon nuzzles on jinwoo’s warm neck, relishing the feeling of his soft skin . Although he don’t leave marks because of jinwoo’s acting career he wanted to leave it tonight . He wants that feeling of knowledgement and possession over him . Seunghoon stars to nibble on his end of a neck . Nibbling and little bit harder. Jinwoo lets out something between laughs and moans when his tickles his neck . Seunghoon chooses the place where he wants to leave his mark  , he there with his tongue over and over again making jinwoo keen like a kitten . When he harder on him , jinwoo’s whole body jolts . Jinwoo pulls from his hair , still groaning

• Seunghoon , ah , not there , you can’t ahmmhm

Seunhoon didn’t stop there . When jinwoo pulls from his hair to make him stop, he went into different more visible spot on his neck . Jinwoo stops struggling , only and hugs his head tightly when he it down again . Seunghoon easies the pain with his tongue over it and his neck till to his mouth . Kissing him breathless , forgetting about their surroundings .

• You are getting really bad , seunghoon . how can I work like this . jinwoo spends more than 30 min in front of bathroom mirror . Concealer didn’t working that much , band aid looked suspicious .
• It suits you babe . And it does , but jinwoo won’t going to tell it to him . They can’t make it habit , not when he needs to film often nowadays . He liked the feeling when he received it , maybe they can discover some other places they can keep hidden from camera . Everytime he catches those sights, it makes him excite all over .
• Think rationally hoon , where is the guy who always talked about responsibilities and all that rational reasons
• That guy fallen in love
• Ugh , we are not teenagers anymore
• But are you my teenage dream . wanna hear me to sing
• No . jinwoo went to the kitchen, opening his fridge taking out some milk when seunghoon hugs him from behind startling him . His voice soothingly low and y . Seunghoon sways both of them in rhythm

‘’You make me feel like I am a living on

Teenage dream

The way you ..

• I gave up , just shut up

‘’My heart stops

When you looks at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real’’

‘’Lets go all the way tonight

No regrets just love

We can dance , until we die

You and I , will be young forever’’
 

• You didn’t sang it all,
• I thought you didn’t like it
• I love it Now, sing it more . Jinwoo loves when seunghoon sing . His voice can be very sensual and touching . Seunghoon loosens his hug from the back and twirls jinwoo , taking his hand in his . They dances in the light of a refrigator

‘’My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real

So take a chance and

And don’t ever look back

Don’t ever look back’’

• I think I am falling in love with you again
• Good , I will make you fall in love with me over and over again until only thing you can see , hear  and feel is me , understood ?
• You are very possessive seunghoon ,
• Because it is you . I want no one but you . In my whole life I will make sure you can’t breath without me
• You think yourself too highly sir
• Are you challenging me ?
• Maybe ,
• Challenge accepted , next spot bedroom baby  . Seunghoon scoops jinwoo over himself , jinwoo wraps his legs behind his hips , they both sings

‘’I’mma get your heart racing

In my skin thight jeans

Be your teenage dream tonight’’

When seunghoon enters their room jinwoo kicks the door to close behind them . Seunghoon dumps him on the bed making the bed and jinwoo bounce . He starts to take of his clothes with very careful movements, observing how pink dusts forming on jinwoo’s cheeks. But despite that jinwoo looks at him lustfully . Over the years jinwoo gotten more masculine and defined . It was crazy how he can manage to become more desiring and beautiful . It was really unfair . And thankfully he is all his to worship . 

Seunghoon changed too . His voice changed more manlier and now he sings more than rapping and body thicker thanks to many hours training . With his height and muscular body he looks very westernish  . A body that only underwear models have and jinwoo loves to death .

• Gosh I love this song now , you should sing this song on your concert
• Do you think ?
• Yes , but probably mino and yoon are going to make fun of it , but sing it for me there .
• Then what is my reward?
• Hmm .., I will give you a full rights to make your way with me that night . No complaining,  no request . Just your want and need and words . I will be at your request
• That sounds ing good . Deal ?
• Deal , now come over here daddy
• Coming baby …

A/ N 

i am working on my jinyoon and planned it for may . But this Burning Bridge just won't leave me alone , i had to do this ...