I don´t feel like I caught their interaction or charakters well, but I still hope you enjoy it.

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Falling for a guy when you were one yourself was bad. Falling for your best friend was even worse, but falling for the guy you saw every day and that was supposed to be like your brother was the worst. That was at least if you´d ask Jeon Jungkook.

Even before joining BTS he had suspected that he might be gay. He might have a manly appearance and even act like it, but he had noticed early that girls just weren´t his thing. They were nice and all but he never found them especially beautiful or anything. Instead of girl groups he had been way more intrigued by boy groups, the way their voices were much lower or the way their muscles strained with each dance move. His interest in girl groups on the other hand had been mostly limited to their dances which he spend hours practicing in his room.

Jungkook´s suspicion had gotten confirmed when he had joined the group. It wasn´t that being around the other member´s 24/7 was turning him on or anything but he had soon noticed that a guy´s chest after showering did more to his insides than any of the pictures in the photobook he had stolen from Namjoon once. In addition he had met Jimin. Jimin might not pass Taehyung as his best friend but Jungkook had still felt like the older was the best person to talk about it and he had been right. They had spent hours talking and in the end he had been sure that he was swinging the other way round. Not that he had cared that much, at least not until he had fallen for one of their members.

Falling for Namjoon would have been simply weird. The guy was an amazing leader: kind, fair, caring but sometimes Jungkook wondered if the older was able to feel anything more than friendship or brotherhood. If he did, he definitely didn´t know how to show it very well and it seemed Namjoon also had no idea how to react if anyone expressed their affection for him. That was at least if it was anyone else than their oldest member. It would probably have been like crushing on a tree or something and the thought wasn´t appealing at all.

Falling for Jin would have felt scandalous. Not only was there a five year between them but more than a brother their oldest member was like a mother to all of them. Jin would always listen to every single one of their problems, make sure they were having enough sleep or were eating well. It would probably have felt like falling for his own mother and just the thought alone was enough to send a shudder down Jungkook´s spine.

Falling for Yoongi would have been completely agitating. Not only had it been obvious that the rapper had a thing for Jimin since the start but he was nothing better than Namjoon when it came to expressing his feelings or even noticing them. Poor Jimin was spending years obviously crushing on the guy and not once had Yoongi noticed or mentioned anything about his own feelings. It would probably have been the same like it was with Jimin and just that thought was enough to get Jungkook annoyed already.

Falling for Hoseok would have probably been easiest. Jungkook had no idea if the dancer was straight, gay or maybe even bi, but it didn´t matter. The older was all about making people happy and keeping them from getting hurt. He would have been able to confess and Hoseok wouldn´t have laughed or be disgust, even if he didn´t return those feelings. No, he would have nicely explained before trying his best to make Jungkook feel better. It would probably have been pretty stressless and the thought caused a remorseful smile to slide across his lips.

Falling for Jimin would have been completely hopeless. No matter that he knew the older was gay as well, but there was no way anyone would have been able to miss the look the older had been throwing Yoongi ever since they first met. Well, everyone except said rapper himself of course. Still, there would have been no way to win Jimin over, not with the singer clearly having found the love of his life in Yoongi. It would probably have been like falling for an unreachable superstar and the thought alone was enough to imagine going crazy over it.

Yet, no matter how complicated it would have been to fall for any of the other members, falling for Taehyung was just solely stupid. Being the youngest of the group the two of them had gotten along well since the beginning, turning best friends soon after. It was like they had formed an alliance against the older brothers and it seemed to have gotten them even closer. Nevertheless Taehyung still kept behaving like the older brother he was, making sure Jungkook got a place to rest wherever they went or secretly passing him some snacks when he was wasted from practice. No matter how much Jungkook tried to fight it, it caused his heart to swell with affection every time. He wasn´t sure when it was that he had fallen for the older but he had fallen hard and he wasn´t sure he would ever recover. Normally he would have trusted Taehyung to catch him, to back him up but in this case there was a serious problem with that: Taehyung was straight as a pole, always watching girl group performances and going on about their beauty. And even if he wouldn´t be, there was no way Jungkook would ever mention anything. He was just too scared to risk their friendship or maybe even their future as BTS.

Letting out a soft sigh Jungkook snuggled a little closer into Taehyung´s chest, inhaling the sweet, earthy sense that was just so typically Taehyung. They had just finished “Run”-Promotion and were having the rest of the day off. He had planned to spend the time watching videos and surfing the internet and since Namjoon had left to watch TV in the living-room he was having the room all to himself. That had been until Taehyung had appeared, jumping on his bed and putting the laptop away. At first Jungkook had complained but Taehyung had just hugged him from behind, letting out a long yawn. It was only then that he had noticed how tired he really was and letting himself being wrapped up in the warmth of Taehyung´s arms, he had quickly drifted off to sleep.

Somehow it was always like that with Taehyung. No matter what, Tae constantly seemed to know what he needed, sometimes even before Jungkook knew himself. Whenever he was feeling hungry, the older would have already organized a snack or something for him. In addition Taehyung would always have found a place for him to rest, even before he felt the exhaustion from some long recording or practice. The older even seemed to notice when he was getting homesick or was just in need for some affection. To be honest he wasn´t really fond of being hugged by the other members. It wasn´t that he didn´t like it, but it always felt like they were belittling him. Like he was still a little child and even though he knew that wasn’t true he couldn´t help it.

However, there was no way he could decline any of Taehyung´s hugs. The way the older´s warmth seemed to transfer straight into his own body or the way his smell seemed to lessen any of Jungkook´s worries was just too addicting. Every time he would feel his heart accelerating its pace and ever so often he needed to keep himself from snuggling closer. He wished he could just hug Taehyung whenever he wanted, whenever he needed comfort but he was too afraid to give away his feelings, to disgust the older. However, Jungkook never had to wait long until Tae would be there wrapping his arms around him, just like he was doing now.

It must have been at least two hours since the older had come to his room and a while since he was awake but he wasn´t ready to let Taehyung go yet. Instead Jungkook stayed as still as possible as he pretended to still be asleep, hoping to enjoy their closeness for just a little longer. Suddenly he heard the door open and Jimin´s loud voice cut through the silence of the room. Jungkook´s whole body stiffened as Taehyung seemed to lift himself onto his elbow beside him. Feeling cold almost instantly his heart told him to grab the older´s shirt und pull him back beside himself, but thankfully his brain stop Jungkook from such a foolish gesture. There were a few minutes of silence and some more movement from Taehyung before the door closed again. Almost holding his breath Jungkook waited for what was to come next and to his relieve the older lay down again, passing a hand through his hair. The action caused goose bumps to break out on the younger´s skin and he had to keep himself from purring like a cat as his heart started to beat wildly against his rip cage. However he couldn´t stop the silent sigh that left his lips at the ministration. He wished they could stay like this forever but he knew that the moment he opened his eyes, it would be over and the little space where he could pretend that there was something more to this would be filled with nothing but friendship once again.

»Uff! « Taehyung flopped down beside him on the floor of the practice room, immediately winding his arm around his shoulders and Jungkook had to keep himself from letting out a nervous giggle. No matter how much he enjoyed skinship with the older, it always made him a little jumpy as he couldn´t help but worry about how to react without giving anything away. »I am definitely needing this break… «

They were once again back to practicing. Even though they had just finished their promotions a week ago, there was still no stop to endless days of practice especially with their next promotions and the concert tour lying close ahead.

»Yeah…« Jungkook agreed as he let his gaze travel through the room. Jin and Namjoon were caught up in some sort of discussion while Hoseok was trying out some dance steps in front of the mirror. That guy seemed to have an impressively endless amount of energy and more than once had Jungkook watched him inventing some choreography. This time though it were Yoongi und Jimin, sitting together in one of the corners that caught his eyes. They seemed to be completely caught up in their own world as Yoongi handed a bottle of water to the younger, other arm wrapped tightly around the singer´s waist. Jimin´s answering smile was blinding and Jungkook felt the jealousy creep up into his heart. It wasn´t that he felt like they didn´t deserve it or anything. He had been more than a little happy when they had finally confessed to each other, after all everyone had been able to see what they were feeling for one another. It was just that it kept reminding him of what he and Taehyung would never have and it made him feel incredibly lonely. Before he could at least share his feelings about never being able to confess to the person you love with Jimin, but now the older was all about Yoongi and Jungkook totally understood. Heck, he would probably be the same if he was in that situation, only he knew that it was never gonna happen.

His thoughts were interrupted by said man´s hand massaging his ears before going lower and tickling his neck. Trying his best to hold in his giggles, he could hear Taehyung laughing loudly at his tries to escape and it immediately sent shivers down his spine. Tae´s laugh had always been one of the things he loved most about the older. It seemed to carry so much happiness in every single sound, that it always warmed Jungkook´s heard, coaxing him to laugh along even when he was in a bad mood. The older´s tickling got stronger and he finally let his own laughs escape his mouth freely as he quickly turned around to start an attack himself. Not caring about the other members they kept up their little fight until they were both lying on the floor, breathing hard, their legs tangled.

»Hey, have you heard about this new girl group? Their lead singer is kind of cute. « And there went his good mood! Instead he felt anger filling his veins. What was it with Taehyung and this girl groups?! He guessed all straight guys just where into girl groups but why did it always have to be at moments like that. This moment where something special seems to pass between them, where Jungkook felt like he could just grab the older´s hand and Tae wouldn´t resist. It always made him feel stupid to even think like that and he couldn´t help but getting angry at himself for getting his hopes up again and again.

»Yeah…« he hoped Taehyung would just leave it like that but obviously the older had other plans as he got out his phone.

»Look! « the older singer almost shoved the phone into his face. »She looks a little like you, don´t you think? « He laughed and Jungkook was finally having enough.

»Damn, I don´t care about her or any of your stupid girl groups!! « Shoving the phone away angrily, he quickly jumped to his feet, almost falling over in the process. Stomping back to the middle of the room he tried to ignore the confused expression on Taehyung´s face. Instead he turned towards the other members. »Let´s continue. I don´t want to be here all night. «

He didn´t wait for an answer as, getting into position as the other member´s quickly joined him. They were casting him questioning gazes, but Jungkook decided to not pay them any attention even when Hoseok shot him a weird look he didn´t know what to make out of.

So for the rest of the time the black-haired put everything into practice, trying to not think of anything other than turns, jumps, melodies and the perfect pitch, but it was hard. Hard with him being able to see every move Taehyung made in the mirror, the straining of the older´s muscles luring him to touch. Hard with the way the older singer seemed completely out of it, messing up the steps, missing his cue and even singing out of tune. It caused guilt to finally fill Jungkook´s heart and it was becoming harder and harder to concentrate on the practice.

He hadn´t meant to lash out on his best friend like that. It was just that he was having enough of constantly being reminded that he would never have any chance. Even more so because Taehyung was right and most girls the older talked about were having a slight similarity with himself. It knowing he seemed fitted to be Tae´s typ but that he would never have the possibility to be with the other just because he was a guy. He had never been unhappy to be a guy but at moments like that Jungkook always wondered if it wouldn´t be better to be born a girl so that he could be with the older.

Nevertheless, the longer the practice lasted and the more Taehyung seemed to mess up, the guiltier he felt. Thus when Namjoon finally called it a day after long hours and the older went to pack his bag without a single smile on his lips Jungkook knew that he needed to apologize as soon as possible. Throwing his best friend another glance he noticed him to be packing his stuff almost in slow motion as if he was willing Jungkook to leave first. However the younger was having none of it as he set for an even slower pace, hoping that the other members would already leave so that he could catch Taehyung alone for a few minutes.

It seemed that luck was on his side this time because soon the other member started to head out for the van, their manager´s joining as well. Hoseok was the last one to leave the room throwing them another unreadable gaze before closing the door behind himself. Taking a deep breath Jungkook turned towards his best friend, but Taehyung had already jumped up and was rushing past him. Yet, before the younger could think of anything to stop him, Tae had already come to a halt in front of the door, eyes widening as he tried to open it again.

»Damn! « Taehyung´s voice sounded incredibly tired and the raven-haired wanted nothing more than to comfort his best friend.

»What´s wrong? «

»They locked us in. « the older groaned as he tried to open the door again.

»You´re serious? « For a moment Jungkook wondered if Tae was messing with him but the serious expression on his e told him otherwise. »Wait, let me get my phone to call manager-hyung. « He quickly went to grab his bag, but his phone was nowhere to be found. »I think one of the members took mine. What about yours? « He looked at the older singer hopefully, but Taehyung just let out a long sigh.

»Battery´s dead. « he lifted up his black phone screen before trotting back to the back of the room, flopping down uncerimonally. »Great, so we are locked in without a phone to call anyone. The perfect end for this day! « the brunette let out another groan and for once Jungkook didn´t care if he was giving himself away. Instead he slumped down beside the older, winding his arm around Tae. Not caring for their sweaty clothes, he placed his head onto Taehyung´s shoulder, the tiny smile he could see on the brunette´s lips enough to calm his nervous heart.

»I am sorry for earlier, Hyung. I didn´t mean to. I was just … stressed. « Jungkook quickly lowered his head, not wanting the other to see how guilty he felt. However Taehyung just shook his head, before looking at him with sad eyes.

»No, I am sorry for being annoying. I know I am weird sometimes. «

»You´re not weird! Ok, maybe you are…« Trying to break with the serious atmosphere Jungkook let out a laugh, bumping their shoulders together. »…but it´s what makes you special. And, it is one of the things I like about you. « He hadn´t meant to say that last bit and he froze slightly in fear of the older´s reaction. However, Taehyung just joint in on the laughing before turning serious again.

»Next time tell me, if anything annoys you, ok? «

»Ok, just no more girl groups, ok? Except maybe about them having an amazing choreography. «

»Deal! So what are we gonna about this now? « The brunette motioned towards the closed door.

»No idea. Maybe someone will notice soon. « He said it reassuringly but deep inside Jungkook was starting to like the idea of the two of them being trapped together. There weren´t many moments were it was just the two of them, but he always enjoy them. Suddenly he hoped that whoever was going to pick them up would take a while to arrive.

His pondering was interrupted when Taehyung moved beside him, reaching for his bag. »I got some energy bars and chocolate. Let´s eat something and then we can practice a little more since we are locked in here anyways.

Feeling his own stomach rumble, he quickly agreed even though he wasn´t really fond of the whole practice idea. Instead he just wanted to spend some quality time with his best friend. To his relieve Taehyung seemed to have given up on the idea soon after eating and they just spent some time talking, the older´s arm winded tightly around his shoulders. There must have been something about being trapped together because for the first time Jungkook didn’t really care what the older would think, as he snuggled just a little closer into the hug. His heart was beating wildly with tension as he did, but Taehyung didn´t seem to care.

Without a phone Jungkook had no sense for how much time had passed when the older suggested for them to take a nap as it didn´t seem like anyone was coming to save them soon. It must have been at least an hour and even though he felt kind of tired he didn´t want this moment to end yet. However the older didn´t wait for any answer as he jumped up, getting one of the mats they kept stored in one of the corners of the room, in case they would have to practice any complicated jumps or whatsoever.

Nervously shuffling from one foot to the other Jungkook watched Taehyung letting out a loud yawn as he turned off the light, before flopping down on the matt. Unsure of what to do the younger just stood there but the brunette sent him a bright smile before motioning him to lie down as well. Hesitating for a moment Jungkook took a deep breath before lying down as far from the older as possible. The whole situation was becoming more and more absurd and he felt like he was caught in a dreamlike bubble. A bubble in which everything suddenly seemed to be possible and irrational actions were easy to be made.

However, Tae was having none of it as he scooted closer, wrapping his arms around the younger from behind and pulling his jacket over them. »You´re gonna get cold. « he whispered quietly as he tightened his arms around him and Jungkook felt his heart reassume its wild pace it started whenever Taehyung was near. Something felt different this time though.

The street lights from outside were the only source of light as the younger turned around in his best friend´s arms and their eyes caught, locking. Suddenly this special, kind of weird atmosphere was back and the raven-haired expected the other to rant about some girl group again, but instead Tae surprised him by pulling him closer to his chest while he ran one of his hands through the younger´s hair. Jungkook wasn´t sure if it was that affectionate gesture or the unreadable, unknown look in the older´s eyes but something tipped him over. Gulping hard, he pressed out an almost unhearable whisper.

»Tae, I love you. « Before his brain could stop him, he planted kiss onto the older´s lips. It only lasted a second before the bubble, he had felt himself in, shattered and he pulled back immediately, panic filling all his senses. »I…I…It´s…I…« He tried to find an explanation, but his brain only screamed for him to run.

However before he could, he suddenly felt warm lips on his again. It was nothing more than a soft, asking touch but it was enough to make the raven-haired´s brain go from the panic state of “Run!” into a squealing state of “Oh my god, he is kissing me”. They stayed like that for a moment before Taehyung started to slowly move his lips. The simple hint of a kiss was enough to set fireworks of in his whole body and he felt himself melting into it, when he was suddenly reminded of something. Pushing the older away forcefully he couldn´t help but stare at his lips longingly as he spoke up confusion lacing his voice.

»What are you doing? «

»I…You started it. « Taehyung seemed even more confused than himself and Jungkook couldn´t blame him for it.

»Yeah, but you…the girl groups…I mean…« He had no idea how to explain what he was feeling in that moment, he wasn´t even sure himself.

»I…You know sometimes there was this strange thing happening between us and I suddenly felt like I could kiss you but I didn´t want you to know. So I thought it would be safest to talk about something straight guys would so that you wouldn´t noticed I have fallen for you. «

»That´s…Wait...! You have fallen for me? « Jungkook´s voice showed every of his emotions he felt in that moment, but Taehyung didn´t answer. Instead he just connected their lips again and the younger´s didn´t complain as he felt his body relaxing into the brunette´s hug. They could still talk later. As for now all Jungkook wanted to do was to relinquish in the feeling of Tae´s body against his, their lips meeting. When the older asked for entrance and their tongues met for the first time, he couldn´t hold back the little moan that escaped his lips and a thought manifested itself in his head: maybe falling for his best friend wasn´t too bad. Maybe not falling for the older would have been even worse.