After recording the After School Club episode with some guest, Jimin checked her sns accounts to see some feedbacks from the viewers. She likes reading people opinion about the show and especially about her MCing. Regardless the hate comments she got and those harsh remarks about her personality, she tries her best to shrug it off. As it always quoted, "You cannot please everyone" basically she just need to distance herself from some of those obsessive fans and their fave idol groups whenever they guest on ASC.

For almost two years of being an MC she learned from her mistakes and took noted to those viewer suggestions. She's now famously known for her MCing career than her singing. She won a reality singing competition, gain some recognition from international media yet here she was translating English to Korean and doing her best to stay tough despite everything. She doesn't like it actually but she loves doing it, too. Her main goal when she was young is to be a singer but she fall in love in hosting. So she decided to be the best of both profession, why not just enjoy both?

"Jimin let's go eat some snacks, I'm starving." Jae called her out from the door of Arirang's waiting room.

She did not notice that she’s been staring in her phone, lost her minds with full of thoughts.

"You know I'm on diet." she whined. 

She's starting to loathe the word diet. Her manager and nutritionist coach have been stricter about her eating lately. She cannot just eat any food that wasn’t on the diet list. They we’re trying to slimming her down in the way they think are the best for her. She actually thought it was good for her at first but when she started to crave those foods that she usually ate.  She can’t take it no more. One time she bribed her friends to invite her with them and just eat something more carbohydrates and delicious but they got caught.

“Then don’t tell your –”

“I’m sorry but I still can’t. Thought you have a practiced session after this?”

“Yeah but it starts at five. I still have time to kill.”

"Then just go. I want to drown myself with my misery." she wanted to answer Jae but she doesn't want to burden him.

"I have to... do some practice for the Nation. I'm just waiting for manager Oppa to come." she gets off from the couch and tried to leave him.

Suddenly Jae blocked her way. "You've been so distant lately. What's wrong? Do you want to talk about something? C’mon," 

"Nothing really, I'm just sort of tired and all. I never have this hectic schedule before and I’m kinda getting used to it." she tried her best to smile and make herself sound bubbly.

“I still think there something weird about you lately.” he was staring at her intensely.

“I’m always weird you know! You don’t have to tell me something I already know since the beginning of my birth.” brushing him off was not easy.

“Whatever. I’m hungry I’ll be eating with just myself cause someone’s been so cranky.” finally he leave her alone. “Call me if you need anything.”

“I don’t need anything at all. Just enjoy your food!” as she wave goodbye.

JYP PRACTICE ROOM

She’s alone in the practice room. It is her and Yerin’s practice room but 15& the name of their duo are on hiatus for the moment. Yerin is focusing on her musical career and so is she. The company decided to let them grow by themselves as an individual artists and to find their own musical color.

She’s been singing for the past few hours and are getting strenuous. She decided to put a loud music on the stereo and start swaying her body. Apart from vocal lesson during their trainee days, they also have a dance lesson. However, dancing seems not her forte.

She dances when no one’s watching.  If she’s so tired of singing, she dances herself to the point of exhausting. It’s her remedy of releasing some stressed and getting out some extra fats. She knows she's not the best dancer but who cares? It's just her dancing moment.

Jae is very right though; she’s becoming strange lately. Her wanting to lose weight and pressuring herself with all the changes she needed to have in a matter of time is very stressful. Yet she can’t complain because it is what the company wants. Her contract is at stake in this comeback. She still has six more months from now until her contract expiration with JYP Entertainment. This dieting is making her more mentally ill with the whole preparation she’s been doing. From the JYP Nation concerts to her comeback, it’s draining her.

She sat on the floor and just stares at herself in the mirror. Sweats are dripping all over face and body. She tied up her hair, free from cosmetics and all. Her lose sweatshirt is soaking wet, she wore her not so usual jogging pants and the lace from her shoes has been untied from her moving. She definitely looks a mess. If anyone can see her now, they might think she’d gone crazy. Why would she look like a soak puppy when all she was supposed to do is just sing? Good thing is that she have the room for herself, she also locked the door for safety.  For a good thirty minutes she just sits there and stares at her complexion. How much more can she lost?  It becomes her daily battle. How long will it takes her to get the desired number? She doesn't know.

Taking a deep breath and looking for a positive vibe is what she always does after having this kind of thoughts. But for now she just wants to face it and try to make a bet with herself. In six months... Six months and if still won’t be able to achieve anything then she will call it quits.