TWO UPDATES IN ONE WEEK AFTER A 6 MONTH HIATUS? DAMN RIGHT. COMING AT CHU LIKE SUJU NEXT FALL 

I wake up to find a pile of used tissues around me. I don’t remember what happened after I got home. Ahra wasn’t here when I got home last night. I checked my phone and saw five missed calls from Yesung. At this point, I just don’t want to talk to anyone anymore. I tried to make friends. I tried to act as if I could handle it. I tried. One friend. And I blew it.

Yesung honestly made me happy. We went out. He saved my ‘first date’. He made me feel like I feel welcomed for once. I honestly don’t know how I feel about last night. I made him angry. I made him sad. All because I read Yesung’s secret note to Ryeowook. Did I go too far? I mean no one really got hurt from this. Chanyeol doesn’t know. I didn’t tell anyone. Not even my sister. Yesung shouldn’t care, right? Unless… did I do something wrong?

I don’t know. I only know that I know nothing. I get up from my bed and change from yesterday’s uniform to today’s uniform. Picking up the tissues from my bed, I realized how sticky my face was from the tears that dried on my cheeks last night. I feel really confused. I don’t understand feelings. Today will honestly just be a day where I pretend to be alive. That’s pretty much how I lived up until this school year.

I’m walking up the street towards school, sipping on my strawberry milk. Just the thought of having to deal with people at school today makes me anxious. I see Siwon and Ryeowook talking by the gates of the school and suddenly I feel extremely nervous. I almost made eye contact with Ryeowook, but I’m pretty sure I looked away before he could get to me. Just as I thought I would get through the gates unnoticed, I feel a huge amount of weight jump on me, making me scream in agony. Seriously?! Who the hell jumped on me-

“KYUHYUN I’M SORRY I WAS SUCH A JERK TO YOU! PLEASE FORGIVE ME,” ah, okay. Well there goes my plan of staying away from Yesung. We were both on the grass, him on top of me. He had his arm wrapped around me for God knows what reason. Do people really do this? I look up (down?) at Yesung who, oh no, has tears in his eyes. I’ve never seen anyone cry this close to me other than my sister. But she’s, you know, my sister. This is someone else. This is my best friend-NO. This is someone who hurt me. Or did I hurt him? I don’t know, but I realize Yesung gave me a strange look.

“K-Kyuhyun?”

I blinked three times. I honestly didn’t hear what he said, “s-sorry… what was that?”

“Mr. Cho! Mr. Kim! Get up off the grass and go to class!” I hear a teacher yell. We both get up and the second we straighten out our clothes, Yesung hugs me again.

“Kyuhyun, I-I overreacted yesterday. I mean yean, you invaded my privacy and then kept it from me, but you also watched out for me and made me have a really fun night so I’m really sorry but also I wish you would realize what you did, Kyuky-“

“Woah, that’s a lot of words!” I pushed him away gently before realizing how upset he got at that, so I kept my hands at his shoulders, “I-I… I accept your apology… I got a little upset last night and I guess this makes me feel better.”

Yesung looked at me with a rather hurt expression, “what do you mean, ‘I guess I accept your apolog