To: [email protected]
From: [email protected]

Yo, Jongin!

I have no idea if you're still reading this, especially after all my emails where I gush about Jongdae (i just realised I sent you one, like, everyday, how did you not block my email yet?) but you'll never believe this. I told you before that Jongdae asked if we could hang out, right? I just thought he meant the whole group. But, oh, how wrong I was.

It was the best day of my life, forget Christmas 2003 when I got my gamecube. Yesterday was and will be the best day ever until I die.

So we took the bus and it got really nice and warm, none of us talked but it felt so comfortable. He was smiling the whole time. 

I'm really an idiot, I didn't notice what it was before it was all over. It was a date! Yes, I, Oh Sehun awkward extraordinaire went on the date with Kim Jongdae. He asked to hold my hand again and it just felt so natural. 

He walked with me until we arrived at my home and I was so anxious because, what if he wants to kiss? I'm not ready for that. I can't even go out properly without freaking out.