His lips were on mine. In a dark hall of the venue full of people, it has been a long night. Why all the sudden does this happen to me I am so confused. Not that I don't like this but what the hell is going on. I thought he didn't like me now here he is kissing me with more passion then I can handle.

Earlier that Night...

"Red Velvet!" A man in a suit said. Everyone around me was clapping for us and fans were cheering in the audience. I still couldn't believe that we won even though we were told days in advance, it didn't exactly sink in until now. I walked up to the microphone and grabbed the award with my fellow members, my sisters. I didn't want to seem completely shocked so I composed myself as gave a small speech of appreciation.

It was our first MAMA and I will forever remember the first time we won a major award. I know the fans will remember this moment. The rest of the night was entertaining with all the performances, I was rather tired after since it does the energy out of you like a concert always does. Well this wasn't a concert, it's bigger than that. The night was at it's end and it's about 11:20. Time to head back to the hotel and get really for the next schedule for tomorrow. The other girls didn't seem exhausted at all from earlier. Joy and Seulgi were playing games on their phones. Wendy and Yeri were talking about something but I couldn't hear them since they were in the back of the car. I was just looking out the window thinking about what tomorrow will bring. The drive back was long and I looked on my phone to see that the MAMA awards were trending on twitter pretty quickly. Especially the hot topic of the night 2ne1 appearance and Seungri sitting on Sehun's lap.

"Irene. Ireneee!" Joy said trying to get my attention by tapping on my shoulder. "Huh?" I blinked twice at her. "Irene are you thinking about someone?" Joy teased. "Nope. No one at all" I said. Joy looked at Seulgi smiling like they have a little secret. "Say Seulgi" Joy said. "What Joy" "I know a little secret that Irene doesn't know" "What is it Joy" Seulgi played along. "Did you see Sehun Oppa he kept looking at some girl all night. He wouldn't stop looking at her" Joy said with cuteness "I think he likes someone" "Who? Tell me tell me" "Here's a hint her name starts with Ir and ends with ne"

"Hahaha that's funny" I said sarcastically. "I saw that too he kept looking at you for some reason kinda like how Baekhyun kept looking at Taeyeon" Yeri mentioned. Now that I come to think of it there were times when I would catch him looking at me but I didn't really think anything of it. I thought maybe he was just looking at our unnies or the fans. Before when I was just a trainee gearing up to be the best I could be, he would ignore me almost like I was non-existent. I don't understand why the feeling would be so different suddenly. "That guy never looks at me, he didn't even when I first met him" I said openly.

"Plus he has no reason to look at me. I am his junior nothing more" I said straightforwardly "But just because you see it that way doesn't mean he does" Wendy joined. "He doesn't have time for that kind of stuff" I said. "There is always time" Joy reasoned. "You guys are being ridiculous" I said to all of them. All of them are just teasing me about him because I told them that I had a very small, tiny, very tiny like a grain of rice crush on Sehun when I got into the company. That was years ago and this is now, nothing is the same. "Irene! You know that things can change" Yeri said lastly. "Not in one night" I said logically and they became quiet no longer arguing with me. Normal I am not this way with any of them, argumentative. I just have to stand my ground so that they stop teasing me. It was one crush from a long time ago, feelings can fade.

We finally arrived at our hotel at the same time as EXO did. Great! Another thing for them to tease me about later. We all crowded into the elevator to the 10th floor, well this awkward. Joy kept nudging as we stood tightly in the elevator with our seniors. Sehun was standing right next to me looking seriously straight-ahead. Like I said I am non-existent to him. What are these girls even thinking. He obviously doesn't have any interest in me. "EXO! EXO! RED VELVET! RED VELET!" it was the paparazzi. Our managers looked worried as a mass group reporters herded together to the closing elevators. "Protect the girls!" Suho said.

Sehun pulled me towards and put his body close to mine in a protective way.Putting his hand just above my waist on my back and pulling me closer to his chest. I was close enough to hear his heartbeat in my ears or is that mine.

Although he is taller now I could still feel his breath near my neck, it made me feel awkward. I guess I should get used to getting into awkward situation. The worst part was that Joy was watching in amusement. I know that she is mentally laughing about my situation. I will get her back later with Sungjae. I continued to glare at Joy for about 1 min which was how long Sehun and I were in that position. It felt like it took forever for Sehun to just separate from me.

Even Joy's teasing was endless, she kept mouthing to me "See he likes you" which by the way wasn't very secretive at all. Joy was mouthing so obviously that the other boys were quietly laughing to themselves. I kept mouthing "stop it" and "No he does not" but she continued. When I looked up at Sehun, his face was serious with not a single emotion appearing. See what did I tell Joy, Sehun doesn't have a crush on me- He tighten his hand on my waist all of the sudden. I tried to shift a little but that made him pulled me closer to him.

*ding*

The elevator finally opened for us to leave onto the 10th floor, where our rooms were at. Sehun let go of me from his hold and I bowed to him "Thank you" I looked up at him again and he bowed back with no expression. Why does he always have no emotion it makes him unpredictable. And why did he tighten his hold on me when there was no reason to do that. I mean that's not a potential sign, right?I shook my head see now these girls are giving me false hope. Signs that don't mean a thing at all.

Well that won't matter tomorrow morning when we go our separate ways for our schedules. Maybe it's only for tonight that he might've had an interest in me because we saw each other first time after months apart or because we won an award for the first time. "I am so excited to go to the after party" Seulgi said as she held her y dress close to body. We were in the huge room right now in the hotel. "What after party" I questioned her. "Come on Irene you had of known that there was going to be after party, It's a given" Wendy then said. "I thought we had to get up early to leave tomorrow" I said. "We do but this is our first after MAMA party" Joy said. "Even though We still have a responsibility" I persist. "You've just saying that because Sehun is going to be there" Wendy smiled smugly. "That has nothing to do with our responsibilities as idols" I said trying to get their attention to real problems. "We have a schedule tomorrow" I reminded them for a second time. "Come on leader don't be like that. We had our first major win and you want to stay here" She questioned. "Don't you want to have fun and celebrate with our seniors" Joy raised her eyebrow.

Joy does have a point, this is our first win. Plus if we don't celebrate it today when is there going to be any other day better than this one. "Fine I will go with you guys" I smiled a little, unfolding my arms. "Hey Yeri shouldn't be going with us. She is underage" I stated. "No fair" Yeri said. "She will have to stay behind with the manager" Wendy said. "Don't worry we won't have too much fun without you" Joy said patting Yeri's back. Yeri looked down disappointed about it. "There is always more years to come" we said to her, joining in to Joy's hug. "Love you~" we waved to Yeri from down the hall. "Annyeong~" she cutely yelled.

Once again we were in the elevator with EXO again. It was just my luck today, like always the girls were giggling at me. I guess I really am the older one of the group. We were heading to the venue that was at the top floor of hotel since the Big Bang members wanted to throw the after party here. I hear that they do this every year after the awards, they sure do like to party. Just a consequence they had a banner that said we like 2 party once we walked in.

There was many celebrates here from the Mama awards dancing, socializing, and "not drinking" of course since we have schedules tomorrow. "Oh there is Taeyeon and Baekhyun" Seulgi said pointing at them from across the room. Baekhyun was just kissing Taeyeon's hand as they walking towards our direction. A lot of people think that they broke up but they haven't at all, they want to make everyone think that. "See he was staring at her before they ended up together" Wendy nudged me. "...maybe that will happen to you and Sehun" Joy whispered to me.

My gosh their teasing is suffocating me, I needed some air so I walked outside. I feel so exhausted from them. I just sighed as I watched the cars on the streets and the sky that was hardly visible with stars. "What's wrong with you" I felt a presence next to me say, it was Bts's Taehyung. "Nothing I am just stressed about stuff" I told him as I continued to look at the city. "About a guy?" He asked.

"No, It's not about a guy" I said. "You know you don't have to lie to me" his words surprised me. "You should probably tell him your feelings who knows he might have a thing for you" he abruptly mentioned. Up to today I haven't ever talked to Taehyung but he was really nice to me. "But what if he has only taken any interest in me tonight" I asked him. "Maybe he has had an interest for a very long time and decided that tonight was the night to tell you" He said. "Yeah maybe...but I don't know for sure" I reasoned to the boy from Bangtan. "I hate to be mistaken" I said with frustration "Your not" he said shaking his head "How do you know" I looked into the distance. "Because I do" he said gently turning me so I faced him. Next thing I know I have smooth lips planted on me. "Taehyung what are you doing" I said pulling away from him quickly. Taehyung eyes started to look sad like a puppies eyes. "Sorry it's just that you caught me by surprised..." I said then he cut me off "Irene I like you" He quickly said closing his eyes. "Taehyung I am sorry but I can't return the same feelings" I said.

"I hope you forgive me" I looked to the city again. "Your very sweet and thank you for liking me but I don't feel the same" I said. I turned my back to him "but I know that any girl would be lucky to have you". Taehyung was surprised of me, he started to blush. "How do you know?" he asked me as I walked away. "I just do" I simply said, smiling back at him over my shoulder. I hope he finds a girl that will cherish him with all their heart. I left Taehyung alone on the balcony to find my other members until I bumped into Sehun. My heart stopped when I crashed into him. He was right near the entrance to the balcony and his expression was just the same, stoic. "Sorry" I quickly said, walking off. I looked like he wanted to punch someone maybe Suho got on his nerves or something. Even though I knew that I had to get out of his presence quickly.

My other members were currently hanging out with Taeyeon, Seohyun, Tiffany,Kyungsoo, and Baekhyun. They were laughing and talking about the mistakes they made at the MAMA awards while drinking some champagne. Immediately when I joined them Joy was bothering me once again but I ignored her, I hope she understands. "Oh Seungri said that he wanted us to perform here" Tiffany said to Seohyun and Taeyeon. "What song?" Seohyun asked. "Whisper" Tiffany answered. "Why?" they both asked. "Since he says that the song as a good mood surrounding it for dancing" Tiffany explained. "I want to do it, we didn't even perform tonight so what can it hurt" Seohyun said cheerfully. They all nodded to each other and headed off to the microphones that were set up for them. Singing with soul which made people head off to dance like Seungri had said. "Do you want to dance?" Seulgi jokely asked me, trying to sound like a man. I laughed at her humor, she was being adorable. "No sir" I giggled.

Joy stood next to me again and whispered "He is looking at you again" I glanced over to Sehun and he was looking at me. I thought maybe he would look away from my eyes but he didn't. Instead I took my glaze away from his, looking at the people dance together. After a few minutes Joy left my side to find the other members in the venue. I continued to stand here watching the next people up for a live performance for the guests. I felt a presence behind me after some time passed. Just to know who it was I looked from the corner of my eye to see that it was Sehun. My body immediately stiffened up at the moment he stepped closer to me.

"How is Taehyung?" Sehun whispered to me while sliding his hands into his pockets."What?" I said acting confused turning my body slightly towards him. "What? Does he like you?" He quickly asked. "That's none of your business" I said to him then walking away from him. I need to clear my head since all this is confusing me. Is he really asking me questions about Taehyung. I headed to the bathroom down the hall from the main floor. Before I could even enter into the bathroom I was abruptly pulled forceful in the other direction and into the wall. Its Him.

"Like hell its not my business" he said looking straight into my eyes. "Everything that's going on with you is my business" Sehun said. "Why is that?" I slowly said. "Because your mine" he said with authority. "No I am not" I said "I never agreed to it". "I will make you agree" he uttered before pressed me more against the wall with his kiss. He wrapped his arms around my waist when I started to kiss him back. As he pulled me tighter to his body I loosened up wrapping my arms around his neck for more momentum between our lips.

I pulled away first when a question invaded my mind "are you drunk?" I asked. Sehun looked at me with disappointment upon his face, knowing exactly what I was implying. "Do you think I am faking this?" He asked with his voice sounding dissatisfied. "I don't know..." I said. How could I not question I mean he never gave me any attention until today. I just want to know if this only for the night or a one time thing. He heaved a sigh as he stepped away from me. I looked down at the ground as I finally said what I have been thinking all night. "I just want to know that after this night is over will you still feel the same?" I said.

I could hear him sigh again after I spoke. "Would it be hard to believe when I say that I've been having eyes for you ever since I met you" he said. My head immediately snapped up at him the moment he said that, I didn't say a single word. "I guess it would be..." He smiled to himself running his fingers through his hair. "I was such a coward then...only watching from a far at a beauty that never looked at me. I am still the same coward now...always looking but never speaking a word" he laughed. "Only to say something when I thought I was going to lose you to another" he said walking towards me gently placing his hand on my cheek.

"So to answer your question no I am not drunk or doing this for one night...I promise you that this isn't just for the night..it's for more nights to come. With you" he said bring my right hand up with his, intertwining them. "You know she always had eyes for you too. Just the same she was a coward watching a man she cared for everyday without a single word just wandering eyes as he moved "I smiled looking again at the floor. "I guess that means we are cowards together" he laughed. "Cowards that are shamelessly in love with each other" he lifted my chin and placed his lips on my forehead then my lips. "Let's not waste this night for another second"

No words were needed after that because our lips said enough for us to both understand that one night wasn't enough for both us....

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